Couple of months passed since that incident. Anu and I became much closer, since our meeting with Paddy. We talked a lot about this arrangement and over time somehow accepted the fate. Paddy came and met our parents and explained about the scholarship. My parents liked him, and I remember wondering, if only they knew. We got admissions as planned and moved into our girls only hostel. Paddy arranged for this but did not meet us in person till the first day of the college. We met outside of our college in a café. He chatted about how things were going and seemed very friendly. Then he laid out more rules.
"I don't want you to have boyfriends for the 1st year in college. Depending on things, I may relax this in year 2."
"I want you to get very good grades. I will be checking every month."
"I want you to be fit and stay in shape. Exercise every week. I will add some tests to check on this."
"Your behavior in college is also important. I have contacts and if I hear anything bad, you will hear from me."
"No Drinking allowed for the 1st year."
"I want you in your dorm room by 9.00 PM. No late nights, unless authorized by me."
"You can make friends and mingle like any college going kids."
"You can tell them that I am family friend and local guardian. I will rarely see you in college."
"The first year will be tough but it will get better, I promise."
This went on and we nodded like students responding to a teacher. There was not much to question.
We loved the college and the environment. We loved the fact that we had money to spend. Our parents were happy as well. Paddy gave us laptops and phones for college. He also gave us debit cards which had our monthly allowances on it. Importantly, and ominously, he gave us birth control pills to take. Paddy allowed us to get settled but he kept tabs on us. He dictated lots of things, like the room we picked and stuff we were allowed in dorm. It was like having a strict parent. At first, we were busy with college and so did not mind as much.
Soon we got into a routine and did not hear from Paddy for the first month. Then we got an email. Paddy asked me to come meet him for the weekend. Anu was not invited. This became a trend, as in most of our experiences, I was chosen first. I spent the rest of the week in fear. This was going to be my first meeting under the deal we struck with him and I did not know what to expect. I labored over the dress and finally narrowed down on a long skirt and a fitting top.Paddy picked me up on the Friday evening and took me to dinner. He was immaculately dressed, and seemed in control of the whole evening. We chatted about college. He was curious and asked me lots of questions about college and other mundane stuff. As we finished the main meals, he asked if I wanted desert. I said no. The waiter then came and asked us the same. Paddy ordered two ice creams for both of us. As the waiter left, he said that I should have ice cream. He stared at me and in a calm tone spoke.
"The ice cream was setting an example. I will take a few decisions on your behalf and there will be times I will tell you what to do, even force you. You can rebel, and fight and I like that from women but there can be consequences for that. I don't expect you to like this relationship. But, if you think of it as a game, you will do just fine."
I did not say anything in response. He continued and went into a quiz mode.
"How many boyfriends did you have?"
"1...2 but the other was just a childhood crush."
"Why did you break up with him?"
I answered without giving details. But he probed. Over the next 15 minutes, with us eating ice cream, Paddy probed into all my secrets. He wanted to know if I was a virgin, if I liked anyone in college and this kept going. I was nervous at first but as the questions kept coming, I opened up and started sharing a bit. The waiter came again, and Paddy asked for the bill. We got up and Paddy led me to the parking lot.
"That was lovely dinner and you look pretty."
"Thanks." I replied.
"I'm now interested in what is under that skirt." Paddy smiled at me.
It was inevitable that sex would play a part in our night, but I was still taken aback by that comment.
"Don't you want to show me?" Paddy ran his fingers over my hair. I shivered.
"Uhhh." I am mumbled.
"A bit shy. I can understand." Paddy did not persist. The drive back was very quiet one. My thoughts raced ahead, and I was picturing him having sex with me. I felt dirty doing this. When we got home, Paddy poured me some wine. It became clear that we were not allowed to drink outside of his presence. As we sipped wine, he planted his finger on my mouth. His finger moved slightly, just enough, to the side, then back to the centre. A second finger pressed against my lips and pushed down a bit, my mouth opened slightly. His face was in front of me now and I looked in his eyes. They were focused on my mouth, One finger continued to hold her bottom lip down while the other finger slowly wriggled its way between my lips. I put up some resistance, but it pried my teeth apart. I detected a faintly salty taste, and realised that I felt violated, with a man's finger inside of me against my wishes.
He abruptly stopped and asked me to drink my wine. The wine helped a lot with his next request. He made me remove my top while he sipped on his drink. Then I lost the bra and stood in front of him. He placed the drink on the table and ran his fingers over my breasts and cupped them. The man simply exuded confidence. He was delicate and deliberate, and I felt wanted and used at the same time.
"Your breasts are nice. And these nipples look stiff." He pinched them, and they became even more stiff. He then bent down and kissed them.
'Look at me,' his words were calm and demanding. But I felt like I couldn't lift my head. I asked myself what am I ashamed of? I've done nothing wrong!
"Look at me.' He repeated in a slightly deeper voice.
"Let's see the rest."
It was a cue to me to remove my skirt. I did it quite quickly and stood with my hands in front of me.
"Those panties are in the way." He smiled.
I slowly dragged them down and stepped out of them. I felt vulnerable as any girl would in that state. My body stiffened as he touched my waist and moved his hands on to my thighs. I momentarily looked up and then looked down once more, not able to withstand the intensity of his deep brown eyes.
My hands were still protecting my pussy and he gently moved them aside. He then inspected my most intimate part and commented on my bush. He asked me to keep it shaven, going forward. It felt like a very weird request at that time but since then, I have always kept my privates shaved. He then moved around and did the same with my ass. Paddy, as we would find out, was an ass man. He loved playing with them. He pinched and cupped them. Then out of the blue I got a loud swat which broke the silence in the room.
"Good ass." He remarked.
"How does it feel standing naked in front of me?"
"Odd. It's not like I have a choice." I decided to be blunt.
"We all have choices. I like the choice I made with you." He hands where still on my ass as he spoke.