Note: In addition to non-consensual sex, this story contains some themes we don't usually write about that may be triggering to some readers. Sensitive readers should look at the tags before continuing.
As always, this is just fantasy. Treat your partners with respect, and practice affirmative consent. Yes means yes. Anything else means stop and check in.
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M didn't think of the other woman anymore. Not who she was, not how they'd been connected, not any of it. The only relationship she permitted herself with B was with her body. And still, the two were closer than she'd ever dreamed.
M had been 16 when she'd first experienced love. It hadn't really been the boy himself who had impressed her β even at the time, she was dimly aware that he was a sort of placeholder for the sensation that everything in her life had led to this moment. And so when the relationship had ended barely three months later, the feeling had stuck with her β the pleasure of something overpowering pulling you and someone else together.
First love had felt just a little like her new life with B felt, in the same way that watching a stick float down a stream might feel just a little like being swept away by a flood.
At 16, that power had seemed magical and cosmic, vast and dangerous, but ultimately kind. Now she understood how it really worked: as geared teeth in a machine, built and driven by her Caretaker. The trick in either case was to give yourself over to it entirely, to savor the undeniable pleasure of being a thing in motion and in use.
It hadn't happened all at once. When she'd been captured, M had fought for every scrap of her old life. She'd remembered her real name for a long time after that, set against the pain of what her Caretaker named her, and what he'd make her do. Then she learned not to hear the new name in full. Just the letter M, like a designation for a washer in a piece of IKEA furniture. Sometimes she'd convince herself that it was "Em," or even "Emma" or "Emily" for a while, although that game was too fanciful to survive.
Now, she didn't hear a name β she was simply activated by it. Her name would make her pay attention, do what she was trained to and remade for. It would make her experience anticipation, pleasure, and pain.
Strangely, M now enjoyed acting like a human more than she ever had when she was free β when she was always human, and never a piece of her caretaker's machine. Now it was a special treat: the moments in her daily routine when she could speak, and touch, and cum. She'd cum nearly every single time she was human, even when she was punished. But the best part was the anticipation.
As a free woman, M had been an adventurous lover when she could. She'd especially enjoyed orgasm control. The way anticipation could be prolonged, extended, even denied by a lover, until it became an end in itself.