How much time did I have?
From sunset to sunrise was only a few hours in the dark of the woods. Could I make that? Could I stay hidden for that long with enough time to escape him?
I checked the sores on my feet from the thorns ripping through them. I could last longer. I still had the strength. It was only five miles from his gate to the freedom of the road. I had never been so far him, finally the years of submitting had made him slip up just once. And I only needed one time to run.
I checked the horizon setting behind the trees and kept running as fast as my sore feet would let me. I didn't feel the jaggers of the vines, the sharpness of the rocks, the rain as it started to come. But I could taste the freedom, I could feel the road getting closer. Just beyond the tree line I kept telling myself. If you get away you'll never have to go back to him.
Then I heard the beeping. The loud repeating sound ringing in my ears. I looked around waiting for him to grab me, waiting for his guards to pin me down and drag me back.
But they never came. They never got close enough to grab me.
The ringing was even louder now, pounding inside my head.
'Wake up, Lynn. You have to wake up,'
I opened my eyes and took note of the room, a small light still shining in the corner. I hit the alarm and rolled over. The red 2:30 stared back at me.
Every night it was the same dream. Running through the woods making my escape and waiting for him to get me. Biding my time until he would eventually come for me. Every night my alarm would wake me up in a cold sweat and I would pack my things and move to the next city.
It was the only way I knew how to escape him. I couldn't stay anywhere longer than a night in fear he would wake me before my alarm did.
I wiped the sweat from my eyes and sat up in bed. I had an hour walk before the next town over and had to get a move on.
It was coming up on a year since my escape. I still couldn't believe he hadn't found me yet. He was so resourceful, he knew everyone. I had no one on my side, I wasn't able to return to family and had no friends nearby. And everyone knew about the runaway slave he had put out a bounty for.
I started to pack what little I owned. It was easier to run with nothing to your name. You didn't worry about leaving anything behind or missing it because you didn't have it.
2:45. 2:46. 2:47.
I always gave myself a 15 minute window between stops and I was already running behind. The exhaustion from running was starting to catch up to me and I was starting to lag. I had already been gone a year but I didn't mind spending the rest of my life running if it meant never going back.
I grabbed the rest of what little I had and put my hair behind my ears and my shoes on. I tried to shake the draining thoughts from my mind. I never felt more than a few steps outside of his reach.If it only took one slip up from him it would only take one slip up from me.
2:55.
I took one last look around the motel and sighed. Would this really be my life forever? Never getting to settle down or even feel safe no matter where I was? I wouldn't let myself feel defeated or he would win either way. I opened the door and I was off. No idea when I would sleep again but I had to go.
I still remember the life I had before he found me. I had a life. I had friends, family, and then I had nothing but him. My whole life for five years revolved around serving him. But in those five years I still only thought about running. He thought he had tamed me but one mistake in all that time freed me.
I smirked wondering what the look on his face was when he realized I was gone. How long did it take him before he wandered to my room and saw I wasn't there? I almost wished I had stayed just to see his eyes. Those blue eyes could pierce into any soul, even mine at one point.
That's how I knew I would only be one step ahead of him. He had known me for five years, he knew me inside and out. He knew what move I would make if I made one.
When he had played me in chess and won every time. Guessing which pawn I would move, which knight he could take. Then watching his devlish grin appear as he would bend me over the table and take me right there.
I shuddered at the thought of his touch, engulfing me again like flames consuming my body.