Samantha and I progressed quickly in our relationship, and shortly after our first hook-up, we were cohabiting. Not in the legal sense that I had changed my address on my Driver License or my auto insurance, but as each day came to a close it was evident that we would be spending the night together.
Samantha was so much more mature than Lela and I found myself able to talk to her about almost anything. Samantha was aware of my limited dating history, my period of servitude to John, and the complex dynamic between John, Lela and I. One night as we were lying in bed after a sensual lovemaking session and several glasses of wine, the subject of anal-sex came up.
"Did John ever take you by force, Mark?" Samantha began, her head resting on my shoulder as she raked her nails across my chest.
"Occasionally he butt-fucked me with a bit more brutality," I said candidly. "But most of the time he used me when he was horny, just to blow his load."
"Have you ever been pegged by a woman?" my girlfriend asked, the interest evident in her voice. "Would you be open to trying it?"
"I'm not sure, Samantha," I said nervously. "My experience with anal-sex has taught me that it can be quite painful."
"Not if we take it really slow," she countered. "I have some Anal-Ease which has a topical analgesic in it which acts as a numbing agent. I also have a pencil sized strap-on dildo that is great for beginners," she offered optimistically. "I promise I won't hurt you if you consent to it."
"If I consent to it, Samantha?" I said with a surprised look on my face. "How else would you peg a guy, other than consensually?"
"Well," she began sheepishly, "pegging can also be used as a punishment, in which case it is more about power than sex."
We had both had several glasses of wine and the conversation was flowing freely. Samantha had already shared with me that she had enjoyed a total of six sex-partners prior to me, so I asked the obvious question.
"Have you pegged all of your ex-boyfriends, Samantha?" I asked with a nervous laugh. "And was John's pegging consensual or punitive?"
"Good question," Samantha said with a twinkle in her eye. "I did anally penetrate all of my exes in a loving consensual manner. John's pegging was somewhere in the middle. Under the assumption that catering to my needs first would earn him additional brownie points, John gave me his full consent and bent over the desk voluntarily. However, once he was in my desired position, I used some neckties to restrain him, and I guess from that point on it was punishment. John was an Alpha Male and a total player. When he asked me out I said yes just so that I could burst his bubble, take him down a notch or two. John needed a good butt-fucking to put him in his place."
"Is that your thing, Samantha?" I asked naively. "Using a strap-on on your partner?"
"I find it empowering to bend a man over my desk, attach a strap-on phallus to my harness and butt-fuck a guy into submission," she admitted. "But it doesn't have to be painful, Mark. If we go slow, and I use plenty of analgesic lubricant we can enjoy the role-reversal without any discomfort. Are you willing to trust me and submit to me?"
My eyes widened as I considered the prospect that I was the only man that Samantha had made love to that she hadn't pegged.
"How many guys have submitted to you, Samantha?" I asked incredulously.
"About twice as many as I have made love to," Samantha responded candidly, her inhibitions lowered by the alcohol she had consumed. "Give or take," she added with a giggle. "You are the only man who I have ever kissed that hasn't yet submitted to my strap-on."
"How many were consensual and how many were punishment?" I asked, swallowing hard as we went down this rabbit hole.
"The lines are blurry, baby," Samantha replied, giggling more freely now. "In my personal life mostly all consensual with a couple of exceptions, and John was probably on the fence. The work-related encounters were all punitive, no exceptions."
"Work-related," I repeated with a chuckle. "You are funny Samantha."
Our late night chats were always candid and seemingly free of agenda, although Samantha would raise the prospect of pegging me quite frequently. Finally, after we had both had our defenses lowered by lots of alcohol, I tried to get to the root of it.
"Why are you so fascinated by the prospect of pegging me, Samantha?" I asked her, my inebriation making me more confident.
"It's not just you that I want to butt-fuck, Mark," Samantha slurred, a little worse for the wine. "It's all men. I was severely disadvantaged in College and Law School by virtue of my gender. Even when I graduated top of my class, there were rumors that I had slept my way through College. In Law School I had to work harder than the men just to be noticed. Even when I got hired by our Law Firm, and was assigned Danny Marshall as my mentor, he spent the first six months trying to get into my panties. Most men are pigs and I relish any opportunity to bend them over my desk, consensually or punitively."
Our drunken conversation veered off in a different direction and I never bent over Samantha's desk that night. I loved this woman but I had a feeling that in her core Samantha harbored a deep resentment of the males of our species.
Once we established that we were a couple, Samantha and I discussed whether or not to tell anyone else at the law firm, as Samantha didn't want to upset the dynamic in the work place.