They awoke some non-descript time later with Alex protectively wrapped around her. It was Madeline's grumbling stomach that caused her to stir. Their captors hadn't seen fit to feed them yet and she was getting hungry for something other than sex. That was probably a good sign, she decided mentally. That drug had been powerful. Madeline was normally extremely reserved. A woman who looked like her didn't get to 28 as a virgin otherwise. That she was so sexually submissive naturally was largely to blame. She knew that if a man ever got her to that point that she would deny him literally nothing.
That Alex was her ideal mate did not help that tendency in the slightest. If this were a normal situation, she doubted that she would have minded with him.
Madeline pried her eyes open slowly, noting instantly that Alex's arousal had not fully diminished. She was conflicted about her response. They had just met; they had been forced together, forced to... She frowned slightly, not letting herself continue the thought. It had been amazing and therein lay the confusing element. There was no doubt they were being watched, and the humiliation of knowing that her captors had just witnessed such an intimate act, created it, in fact, did not seem to detract from the physical experience of it.
Madeline rolled over, tugging the blanket up to their shoulders and faced Alex. He made an objecting sound and did not remove his arm, simply tugging her closer into his chest. Madeline drew in a long breath. She had no interest in resisting this sort of affection, even without the drug, and she nuzzled closer, their legs tangling together and her head resting on his bicep.
Alex's hand drifted up her spine, tenderly caressing her soft skin as his eyes lazily opened. He looked down, finding hers and not wanting to look away. There was immense guilt, satisfaction, and concern all wrapped together.
Just as he opened his mouth to speak, Madeline interrupted him. "I enjoyed that," she whispered softly in a voice meant just for him. "Thank you."
Alex paused, not fully knowing how to respond. Did she just... thank him? For raping her? "Not really my choice. No need to thank me," he decided on finally, "but I enjoyed that too," he admitted. His hand continued to stroke her back and he made no effort to withdraw from her. He was confused, though he couldn't let her see it. He had enjoyed it. A lot. He was fairly sure it wasn't the drug either. That he had enjoyed it as much as he had made him feel dirty and seedy, like he was somehow responsible for corrupting one of God's angels or something.
Madeline did not try to leave him, but she did shift slightly. "It's what I don't understand," she started academically. "This... This council clearly has a lot of money and resources. Why set up a setting like this if the intent was what it was? Why create a situation where we resist it?"
Alex shrugged. "Maybe to demonstrate the futility of resistance? Show us they have our best interests at heart or some BS like that?"
"But it's artificial," she returned. "I mean, let's say they arranged for us to both be stranded at some small town bus stop. We would have talked, I'm certain. I'd not have said no if you would have asked me to dinner. The same end result could have transpired by orchestrating such a thing, albeit slower, except it would all be willing on our parts. That seems so much easier..."
Alex smiled at her scenario. He certainly would have asked her to dinner in that setting. They could have dictated their own initial encounter, one where he could have been more gentle. One where all of her delicious submission could be willing. With as amazing as that sex had been, he would have certainly wanted to continue the relationship with her.
Guilt swelled up again. He hadn't been gentle. It had been about shaking off that drug. It had been about cuming in her and nothing more; about using her for release. He suddenly hated himself for it. He was weak. He didn't fight hard enough. Looking into her light grey eyes, the eyes that seemed to trust him so much, he replaced the guilt with determination:
He wasn't going to fuck her again in this place. Period.
He shook his head sadly at her. "I don't think it's about what's easy," he told her gently. "It's about control." Madeline frowned in confusion with such sweetness that his sex drive reminded him that he was still aroused and wanting more. He forced the urge down, reminding himself of his resolve. "It doesn't matter what we want, we don't have a choice in the matter. We either comply willingly with whatever we're told, or we're forced to do it anyway."
She offered him only an unsatisfied frown. He decidedly did not like her unsatisfied. "We've got to find a way out of here," he told her softly, his hand now running through her hair. "Just focus on that for now." He smiled gently at her. "Where are you from?" He chuckled.
She returned the soft smile though she was obviously very distraught with the ordeal. Their sex drug was wearing off and her mind was hard at work on the problem. "Dublin originally, but I moved to Boston when I was seven," she answered. "How about you?"
"Colorado Springs," he said through a grin. "Dad's a General in the Air Force though. Moved around a lot."
"Are you a Major in the Air Force then?"
"No, Navy," he gave her a devilish grin that elicited a sweet giggle.
"I bet he liked that," she answered.
Alex chuckled at her. "Not so much," he said through a perfect smile. "So computers, huh?"
Madeline offered him a soft grin of her own. "I work at Boston College. I-" her stomach interrupted her with another gurgle of hunger. Madeline chuckled slightly and looked off to the side a bit.
Madeline was scared, Alex could see it clearly. She was truthful that she had enjoyed their encounter, but she hadn't been ready for it and it was leaving her reeling emotionally. Alex's blood boiled at the notion that their captors had probably scared this perfect woman for life. They had almost certainly destroyed any chance he'd have at being with her after this was all over. He was trained for this sort of thing, to mentally resist when captured by the enemy. Her? She was innocent and utterly unprepared.
"Hey," he said gently as he cupped her chin and turned her face back to his. Those eyes were piercingly lovely. "I know this is hard," he started as tenderly as he could. "I wish your little story were true. Hell, once we get out of here, I'll ask you out, ok?"
Madeline chuckled. "That's putting the cart before the horse, I think," she let out. "The sex is supposed to come after dinner and a movie, not before..."
"Nah," he dismissed. "That wasn't sex. That was... sex is a lot better than what they made us do," he promised. Madeline cocked a curious eyebrow. "Look, we'll pretend this never happened and do it right. I'll ask you out, you'll put on a pretty dress, I'll buy you flowers. It'll be disgustingly sweet. The works." She grinned but her eyes were welling. "Anything you want," he continued. "But for now? Right now we have to survive. We have to fight and resist and"
"You just said it was futile," she interrupted.
"Well, that's what they want you to think and to some degree it probably is, given how potent that drug was, but there's more to it than that. Resisting even through futility sends a message that we can't be easily controlled. It's not worth the effort."
"A pyrrhic victory," she agreed with a nod, seeming to understand.
"... A what?" He hadn't heard that one.
"A victory with heavy losses," she explained briskly, "but Alex," she started. He decided he liked the way she said his name. The subtle Irish accent was decidedly sexy, especially with her soft spoken pillow talk voice. "If they drug us again... Even if I wanted to I wouldn't be able to stop it. That drug..." Madeline shuddered mildly thinking about what had happened.
"Maddy," he started reassuringly. He liked that nickname for her. Cute without being childish. "You're a smart girl. This is all about a mental battle. You can control it."
"I can't control you. I can't stop you," she admitted weakly causing Alex to cringe slightly. Guilt found him again. He was her biggest threat and he knew it. He hated these bastards for what they were doing to them.
"I'll show you a few tricks," he promised her. Reaching around to keep her embraced, he gently pulled up her left arm. His hand tenderly glided up, stopping at the pressure point just before her elbow. He let his thumb hover there for a moment. "This is a pressure point," he explained. "I'm going to put some pressure on it for a second so you can see." He lightly applied pressure until Madeline gasped slightly.
"Ow!" She let out in surprise. "That hurt!"
Alex chuckled at her and used his other hand to position hers in the right place on his arm. "Yeah, that's the point. It's right here. Push on it and see what happens."
"But won't it hurt?" She asked innocently. He wanted to fuck her again. This wasn't going to be easy.