The following very dark story has themes of misogyny, non-consent sex, humiliation, abuse and other dark themes. If such content offends you, please do not read. This is an erotic FICTION story not meant as any sort of gender, political or societal protest. This is purely for entertainment and never meant to happen in reality. If you have issues with such kinks, please do not read.
"Sarah...this...will be fun," I tell myself hopefully as I pick the last barstool at the bar to sit at. With a nervous aura surrounding me, I hop on the tall stool, my head held high as if I belong here.
As I sit here, I go through all the reasons why I shouldn't stick out. I'm 22 female after all, of legal drinking age. I've had many drinks before, so it's not like I'm a newbie or don't know how it'll hit me. And I am dressed nicely but conservatively, letting everyone know I am a professional.
Sure, this is a dive bar that I've never been to, but it's not like they will know I don't belong or anything. Or should I say, that I feel that I don't belong. Of course, legally and whatnot I very much belong here or at any bar. It's just that weird self-esteem lacking part of me that makes me feel different.
I sit on the barstool patiently, pretending to look at the football game that's playing on a TV that's secured on the wall. When I remember that most women don't really care for sports, I turn away, thinking it'll bring unwanted attention. That people will know that I don't belong if I watch. Afterall, my goal is to have a few drinks, seem like I belong here and go home. That's all I need to do.
"What's ya having hun?" The female bartender asks as she walks up to me on her side of the bar. She has a very tired of life sort of vibe about her, like she's been ready to go home since five years ago. I'm not sure of her age, but if I had to guess I would say she is in her mid to late forties. There's an aura of sternness about her, like a mother or teacher that you know not to cross. Makes sense really, she probably has to deal with a lot of man-babies day in and day out.
"C-Cosmo please," I request in my most confident tone. The woman grunts her not impressed reply and turns her back to me to start the drink. I then watch as she pulls a martini glass from the shelf behind her, dusting it off before she does, making it seem like this isn't a drink that gets requested often. It's now I see most everyone else has a beer bottle of some sort as their drink.
"Don't worry Sarah, you are ok," I remind myself as the feeling of being out of place gets stronger. It's ok. I'm sure plenty of people order non-beer drinks here. It doesn't mean anything. Just that you are a booze-snob.
I find myself watching the TV again, probably because it's the only thing in here moving. I turn from it and look around, scanning the five to seven people that are currently in this dive. Much like the bartender, they all have a haggard vibe about them, like life is a constant fight day in and day out. It wouldn't surprise me if every single person here gets drunk each night to deal with life.
A few moments later, I receive my drink, which is plopped down in front of me in a rather blunt manner. It's as if the bartender is saying "here's your damn drink, bitch," without saying the words. This doesn't help my nervousness any, especially as she immediately turns and walks off. There's no requesting money or starting a tab. Almost like the bartender doesn't want the hassle of talking to me.
"It's fine. You are just being paranoid," I tell myself as I take a sip of my drink. I instantly tense a little as the drink seems to be 99% straight booze and 1% favor. It's the strongest drink I think I've ever had, and I've taken tons of shots.
I'm being stupid and I know it, but coming to this dive is something I just had to do. Something I need to do. It's to prove to myself that I'm not the scared little girl my friends, no, the world thinks I am. Sure, it's one of the scariest things I've ever done, but I'll overcome this. I'll prove to everyone, including myself, that I'm not a scared little girl.
Last night my friends and I went to "Wallz Shotz," which is a rather fancy bar in Uptown. It was a normal night out for us, where we joke and talk about the week. We do this to blow off stream and have a good time.
For some reason, one of the topics last night was, well, me. They sort of let me have it about my timid and scared nature. They pointed out that I only go out if one of them goes with me, that I would never dare go to anything alone, even the library. That at heart I was a bit of a coward.
The night got worse and worse as they kept on going as if it had been building for a while. They even said how I was a Karen-in-making as I wanted people to wait on me anywhere I go. I told them this wasn't true, but they laughed. They laughed and joked how I would never go to a dive bar with horrible service, or one that hasn't been reviewed dozens of times.
The truth is that they are right. I am a rather timid woman that gets scared of new experiences. I like to have someone with me that knows what they are doing or what to do. Someone I can, I dunno, be told what to do if something goes wrong. When I'm alone, I never know what to do.
That's why I'm here at this weird bar. It's a dive bar that's about 2 miles from my house. A bar I've past over and over again, swearing never to go in as it looks like a serial killers hangout from the outside. But it's a place that can prove I am not a Karen that needs to be pampered all the time.
Today I'm going to prove I'm not a scaredy cat that needs someone to save me. That I can and will go to new places alone, and will have a good time. I've even made sure my cell tracks that I'm here so I can prove that I really did come here by myself. I'm even hoping to get a few selfies, hopefully with a stranger or two to prove how much courage I have.
Only issue is, I'm scared shitless. I really am scared out of my mind right now. I just, I dunno, it feels like I really don't belong here. I'm a college girl in her final year, ready to take on life. I'm bright and happy while this place seems dark and grimy and filled with low class manual labor workers that dropped out in 8
th
grade. There couldn't be a larger difference. This is the sort of place they have in movies where barfights happen.
"Ok. Why are you here?" The bartender asks, sounding rather upset. I hear her say this before I see her, making me think she must be talking to someone else. I'm then shocked to find that she's talking and looking right at me. She stands in a tense and aggressive stance, looking almost like she's pissed.
"I...I'm sorry?" I ask, very confused. The blond bartender's blue eyes continue to stare at me with a hardened look, like they think I'm messing with her. They reveal a woman that's probably been in more than one knife fight and enjoyed it.
"You heard me. Why the fuck are you here? This ain't Hipster Central, or wherever you people go. So why you here?" the bartender asks, no, demands, spitting out the word "Hipster."
My heart begins to beat much faster at this, as I was both expecting and not expecting something like this to happen. What makes this really scary is the bartender looks so mad, so offended by me...but she's female. Not sure why that makes a difference, but it does.
Oh shit, the drink. I hadn't been drinking it. She must be pissed about that. That I've offended her by not drinking.