*CH9. The Guest House
One year later I was still living in a guest house on Jeff's compound. He had me write a letter of resignation to work, and email my friends and family to say that I was leaving to travel the world. For about the first month I cried in my bed at night, but I gradually got used to my new life. A few times a month I would host a different guest, or sometimes a group, all men of course. Other than that, aside from cleaning and preparing meals, I mostly hung out with Vanessa and her friends by the pool. I wasn't allowed a phone but Jeff got me a book on how to be the perfect woman, and another on how to please a man. For an hour a day I was expected to study them, and sometimes he gave me homework. There was also a large stack of Playgirl magazines, and the rule was that I had to carry at least two with me everywhere. Jeff would get upset if I wasn't looking at the pictures of naked men because he knew how "boy crazy" I was.