Dylan couldn't have felt more out of place at parties. The incessant loud blaring of music that reverberated in his eardrums, the sporadic bursting of lights casting the room in an array of shifting colours, the sweaty sea of writhing strangers that erratically shifted and contorted as they danced. It was a claustrophobic maze of sensations to say the least, and one he didn't intend to join in with as much as he could help it.
So as per usual, he had made himself comfortable nursing a drink, taking long sips as he absentmindedly took in the scene before him. He didn't think he'd ever understand the appeal, but he'd come to grow familiar with the party scene since Jessica tended to drag him out to the occasional one with her friends. Currently, she was lounged across his lap, her legs draped over his knees and a hand absentmindedly fondling his dark curls as she chatted to one of her friends.
It had been several months now since the two had started 'dating' and so far it had played out fairly well. After Jessica's parents had calmed down upon discovering their 'relationship' they of course had been wary of Dylan, who as far as they'd known had been sneaking around with their daughter behind their backs all this time. But as the months rolled on, it seemed like they'd simply come to accept that they were a couple, and Dylan no longer got the stink eye from Mrs Grayson, or at least not as regularly.
Dylan's own parents were ecstatic their son finally had brought a girl home, enamoured as soon as they met Jessica. His mother had even gone as far as to gush about the prospect of grandkids to him, a prematurely enthusiastic topic that had Dylan cringing in embarrassment. Though on some level he had to admit he found it nice to see his parent's happy reactions as he'd known they'd long since worried about him finding someone. After all most guys his age or even younger had had a girlfriend by now or at least gone on a date, none of which Dylan had done as far as they were aware. Finally knowing their son wasn't a socially awkward outcast was surely a relief.
All in all, it had been a successful case of misdirection for all audiences concerned, whether or not they liked the idea of them as a couple was another thing but they all bought it. They had no reason not to Dylan guessed, though it was reassuring that their ruse had been unquestionably acknowledged within the new status quo.
However, dating Jessica in practice... had been a learning curve.
They of course had to start doing normal couple stuff, hold hands, go on dates, cuddle and kiss. All things that Dylan had plenty of experience with Patrick, only now he had to do all those same things with Jessica, a task which might have been more digestible if not for the fact this was his boyfriend's own sister. But he supposed beggars could hardly be choosers when picking out a beard.
Over the following months, Dylan liked to think he put up a plausible performance as Jessica's boyfriend, going through the motions enough to keep the ruse going. But inside, he couldn't help but still internally recoil, a bitter aftertaste to his actions when the simple act of walking hand in hand with her down the street fed into a well of shame seated deep inside his gut. The feel of her hand entwined with his instead of Patrick's all to appease others simply felt wrong.
Still, both Dylan and Patrick did feel like they could breathe easier now, the overhanging threat of being outed as easily not bearing down on them so heavily. It was all worth it at the end of the day. At least that was the idea.
So here he was with Jessica on his lap, the two having tagged along with her friends to some big house party. Dylan sorely missed Patrick especially now, engulfed in a crowd of strangers that if not for Jessica's social circles he in all likelihood wouldn't have mingled with. With a small sigh, Dylan took another sip of his drink, the buzz of alcohol a pleasant lull to the senses.
"Dylan!" Jessica suddenly shouted into his ear, making him flinch.
"Huh?" he replied, refocusing on Jessica and her friend who looked expectantly at him, waiting for an answer to a question he clearly hadn't paid any attention to.
"Sam was just saying there's a little get-together coming up in like two weeks, she was asking if you'd want to go," Jessica nudged him.
"Oh! Well erm, I mean I might have plans that week. I'd need to check."
"Oh come on Dylan, it would be great to have you guys together. I mean Jessica hasn't come along at risk of feeling like a third-wheel since it's kinda ended up being a couples thing but this is her chance to go! Really, you should come, it's a really cute cabin by the lake a few hours out. Last time me and Mark went and we had a picnic one day in the hills and it was sooo romantic."
"Yeah it sounds fun, I'll definitely have to get back to you on that."
"Not much of a romantic huh?" Sam pouted.
"Well I mean he has his moments," Jessica laughed as she ruffled his hair.
"Well that's guys for you, and admittedly the picnic was my idea so I can't even say Mark is the exception. Speaking of, I'm going to get another drink and see what stupid shit him and his friends are up to."
"You should relax you know, at least look like you want to be here," Jessica said after Sam had left the two. "Otherwise, I look like just another controlling girlfriend, and this is kinda for your benefit y'know."
"You saying you wouldn't be at this totally awesome party if not for me?" he replied, an eyebrow raised as he knew full well how much of a party animal she could be.
"I mean you got me there, but try to enjoy yourself at least a little. Relax, have fun."
"Okay okay, I'll try," he laughed.
"You know, I do enjoy spending time with you. I hope you don't find it too much of a drag coming out with me."
"Well maybe not so much the stuck in a room of sweaty teenagers but yeah I like spending time with you too," Dylan smiled. And he meant it. Despite the strange circumstances they'd had to navigate through together, Jessica herself had been an easygoing and relaxed person to be around and the two had grown to be pretty good friends.
Jessica smiled back, something flickering in her eyes. Dylan would later recognise it for what it was, though at the time he had mistakenly taken it as a look of simple fondness. One he was sure was reflected in his own eyes which she too had equally mistaken for something else.
Moments later Jessica tilted her head closer to his, but instead of a fleeting peck that Dylan was expecting, she captured his lips firmly to hers in a passionate kiss. He was taken aback, his lips parting slightly in surprise which only allowed Jessica to slip her tongue inside and deepen her advances. When the shock finally wore off moments later Dylan pulled away, parting in a breathless gasp.
But before Dylan had a chance to speak, Jessica had already quickly risen from his lap, an indecipherable expression crossing her face. Without a word or a glance over her shoulder, she rushed off, disappearing between the throng of the crowd.
What exactly just happened? thought as he watched her go. Was she just more drunk than he'd thought?
They'd shared plenty of kisses before but this... this was different.
Not sure what to do, Dylan sat there dumbly, and when Sam passed by again and asked where Jessica was he told her she'd gone to the bathroom. When a little while later Jessica still hadn't returned he began to worry. Dylan sorely hoped that she'd return imminently, telling him that the booze was stronger than she'd realized and they could both then laugh it off. But with no sign of her, he knew he had to go looking for her.
