Several days after watching Marek punish Laura, and one dinner with them which began awkwardly (at least on Trish's part) but ended with a strange sense of normalcy (well, as normal as things could get when normal was instructing the two women to kiss and fondle each other until the men couldn't take it anymore and pulled them apart to fuck them separately), Jordan dropped Trish off at Marek and Laura's apartment while he went to run "an errand" for the Wolf. Trish almost asked him what errand, but then she'd kept her mouth shut. It wasn't her business. Shouldn't be her business.
She shouldn't care what was taking him away from her.
The lines between them were becoming more and more blurred and she didn't know what to do about it. She had somehow become comfortable with Jordan, in a way. Subconsciously, she seemed to trust him or something. At least, she had no other explanation for why she cuddled up to him in her sleep, why her hands seemed to have a mind of their own when he fucked her now. More than once he'd left her hands free, although he'd hold her down by one wrist, or by her throat, and Trish knew he was hoping she'd touch him of her own free will again.
It was hard to be constantly on alert against leaning against him, against snuggling in when he cuddled her, against touching him when he was pleasuring her. Hard and exhausting. The only times it was truly easy was after he spanked her and she was feeling resentful, but Trish could only take so many spankings. Especially when spanking her definitely aroused him and then she was subjected to intensely pleasurable orgasms as the pain in her bottom melded with the pleasure of his skillful fucking, followed by feelings of shame for provoking him and the enjoying the aftermath of her punishment so much.
She felt like she was going a little crazy.
Especially because some part of her really did care that he was out "running an errand." Some part of her felt strangely... pouty... about being left out of whatever he was doing. About being left behind. Some part of her didn't like it.
And she didn't really know what to do about that part.
Although, at least spending time with Laura provided a distraction. Still feeling guilty over gossiping about Trish and Jordan, Laura was willing to answer any question Trish asked as long as it didn't have to do with anyone's personal lives.
She also didn't judge Trish for wanting to know what errand Jordan had gone on, although she did seem confused that Trish hadn't just asked Jordan before he'd left. Trish hadn't known how to explain wanting to pretend she didn't care where he'd gone, but fortunately Laura didn't actually ask her why she didn't know.
"I heard the Wolf wants some new Moonies to play with," Laura said eagerly, obviously happy to be able to answer Trish's question. "Jordan's always the one who recruits them. He's got a knack for picking out exactly the right kind of people to bring back."
"New Moonies?" Trish asked, as both hope and alarm rose within her. She tried to focus on the hope - perhaps she'd be back to her old life soon? - rather than the alarm she felt at the idea of returning to her old life. "To replace Alex and Bella?"
"Oh, I doubt that," Laura said, shaking her head. She readjusted her position on the couch so she was facing Trish more fully, crossing her legs in a comfortable position. "But the Wolf gets bored easily. Bringing new people in for a day or two is part of how he amuses himself. Plus, then he can release the day captives and everyone knows his current toys are okay and still alive. Keeps the Moon officials off our backs."
It also let their families know they were alive and still following the Wolf's normal procedure of doing things. A kind of reassurance most kidnapped victims wouldn't have. Trish was struck again by the strange combination of compassion, efficiency, and brutality the Wolf displayed.
The kidnappings and rapes were brutal... yet no one was ever returned physically damaged and they were all returned. Not only that, but the day captives being taken and released ensured both the authorities and the victim's families knew they were alive and as well as any of the Wolf's victims. Returning the victims eventually also kept the Moon officials out of the Wolf's business; for the most part, the officials insisted on waiting, since no one knew exactly where the Wolf held his captives or how many soldiers he had. Raiding a base filled with soldiers for two people who would eventually be returned... it wasn't a good investment.
But was that the real reason? Or did the Wolf returning his victims have something to do with the memory drug? All the little facts and pieces of information Trish had picked up over the weeks were niggling in her brain, starting to make a more cohesive picture. One which didn't paint the Wolf any better than he was, but it definitely made the Moon look a lot worse.
"It doesn't bother you?" Trish asked a little hesitantly.
Laura snorted. "Why should it? The little assholes are always just looking for their fifteen minutes of fame. They're thrilled to be part of it. And if they're not, well, then they got a taste of what it was like to live on Earth after their families deserted it and left us here to struggle. They know what they're risking just by coming to Earth, but they keep doing it anyway, don't they?"
Seeing the look on Trish's face, Laura leaned over and patted Trish's hand.
"You're different though, obviously. You're not like them. They're all spoiled brats who want a little thrill, and maybe they get more than they thought they would, but that's their own fault. Ugh, you should have seen the last two, whining and wailing the whole time, but then they went straight to the news vids, bragging for as long as people would pay attention to them and then making shit up when they started to lose the spotlight. Why, the girl-"
As Laura continued, Trish couldn't help but think... because she was different than the other Moonies who came to Earth for pleasure jaunts or adventure. She'd heard a lot of them joking about being taken by the Wolf, it was always said with a kind of excited disbelief, like they were secure in the knowledge it wouldn't happen to them but they liked to scare themselves with the idea it might. Trish hadn't been excited by the idea, but she'd come to Earth with that same disbelief, that same naive security that nothing bad would happen to her as long as she kept her head down and didn't try to draw attention. She hadn't thought anyone on Earth would care any which way about her; a nobody on the Moon, a nobody on the planet.
But yes, she'd known of the risk. She just hadn't thought it applied to her.
Had that been naivety or hubris?
The majority attitude among older Moonies was that the younger generations who chose to vacation on Earth and were taken by the Wolf got what they deserved. After all, it wasn't like everyone didn't know what might happen. Earth was a desired location for the younger generations because of its supposed savageness and unpredictability. Of course, reality was very different for the vast majority of visitors, but most of the visitors liked the little taste of danger, the tiny thrill of risk.
Trish had just assumed she'd be safe because she was a nobody and she was a student. She'd known the risks too, and it wasn't that she'd judged them to be a worthwhile risk, it was that she'd dismissed them entirely as not applicable. Which she could blame on the Moon, for making her perceived self-worth so low, but it was her own fault for buying into others' attitudes towards her.
Did that mean she deserved this? Did she deserve everything that had happened to her?
There were a lot of people on the Moon who would say yes. They didn't even care that she'd been taken, but she knew if she did garner any notice, they'd have the same attitude they did about all the Wolf's victims - idiots who had made a shitty decision and were paying for it. Plenty of people scoffed at the idea of the victims even BEING victims, saying they should have fought back or escaped or tried to assassinate the Wolf while they were down there. People who thought they'd somehow manage to do something heroic.
Thinking back to Alex's early attempts at just such maneuvers, Trish couldn't help but shiver. There hadn't been a moment, since reaching the compound, that she, Alex, and Bella hadn't been under guard. And Alex had still tried to fight. For his efforts, he'd been shock collared, tortured, and starved. She admired his bravery and stubbornness even as she thought he'd been an idiot to persist in such a futile endeavor.
Who was really smarter - the person who fought impossible odds or the person who waited for their chance at good odds?