"How do I look?" I rub my eyes, trying to keep myself awake. I feel more like a zombie than a human being.
"You look fine, Zoe," Danny says. He
always
says I look fine. My boyfriend is the type of guy who doesn't notice when I make the effort to wear makeup or not.
Still, I want to please him. I have on a black miniskirt and a matching pair of pumps. Not the most sensible attire for flying on a plane perhaps, but I want to look good for Danny. He is the most magnificent person I have ever met -- his nerdy smile is enough to drive the breath from me and I sometimes feel whisked away by the vast knowledge of his words.
I met Danny about a year ago. It was my freshman year at UCLA. I had signed up for an intro CS class, not really knowing what I wanted to major in. I was one of only a few girls in the class, so naturally, I got a lot of attention -- and not always wanted attention. The boys all pretended to act helpful, but I knew they were all just trying to get into my pants. Danny was different though. He was one of the TAs, and he treated me with dignity and respect. He was also tall and wore cute glasses, so when he asked me out on a date, I pretty much said yes right away.
"Are you ready?" Danny asks, offering back my suitcase.
No. No, I am
not
the least bit ready. It is only 5AM and I am dead tired. My eyes are red and my feet hurt and I really shouldn't have worn these heels. I would have preferred a later flight -- something closer to noon, but between our rent and all the student loans, Danny and I don't really have the money to splurge on expensive plane tickets. Hurray to living in Los Angeles.
I force a smile at my boyfriend and say, "I'm ready, let's go."
I take my suitcase and follow him towards the security gate. Usually, there would be a huge line, but it's a Tuesday and it's 5AM so instead there are
just
a couple dozen people. That's LAX for you. Danny and I get into the queue and begin waiting and waiting and waiting and-
"Have your boarding pass and ID ready!" shouts a Latina TSA agent. She is a portly woman. Her bellowing voice hurts my ears. I look around and realize we are about halfway there.
"Well, the line isn't too bad," Danny says cheerily. "I was worried we might miss our flight."
I look at my phone. "We still have an hour."
"I'm actually getting kinda nervous. I've never been to Seattle before."
"Don't get too excited. The weather sucks and it rains all the time."
"Sounds like paradise. As a boy, I used to play outside with my friends whenever it rained. We would lie out on the grass, stick out our tongues and taste the rain droplets as they fell from the sky. I remember my father would yell at me for getting my clothes all wet. I understand now why he was mad -- he had to do all my laundry -- but to me, it was like swimming in the air."
"I get it, but trust me... as someone who grew up there, it gets old."
Danny cocks an eyebrow.
"There's nothing more depressing than going outside every day and seeing nothing but clouds. I know some people enjoy it. I'm just not one of those people. My parents wanted me to go to UDub, but I was just so sick of living there that I made it my mission to move out of state."
"And then you met me," he smiles. "Are you excited to see your parents?"
"Ughh."
Danny chuckles. "I take that as a no?"
"I'm not, but they definitely are. They're simply overjoyed that their little princess has
finally
found a man. I have been gushing about you over the phone for months, saying you're the
best boyfriend ever
and things like that."
"Best boyfriend ever, eh? Aren't I the
only
boyfriend you've ever had?"
I poke his chest. "Yeah, and there's nothing embarrassing about that."
Danny grins. "Oh, of course not."
I put my hands on my hips. "It's not my fault my parents were so overprotective. You won't believe the things they did in high school to keep the boys away."
"Well, hopefully, they like me."
"Don't worry, they definitely will. Both my parents are nerds and you fit right in. You don't drink or do drugs. You never break the rules. You're inoffensive and you've got a respectable degree. You're pretty boring honestly, and in my parent's eyes, boring is good."
I can already imagine my mom's eyes lighting up when she sees Danny. My dad would be in the corner saying
Bet you can't wait to get married
because he's the type of fool who believes in love at first sight. He's always telling me about how he met my mom by accident at a chess tournament. They were on competing sides, high school rivals, and it was a hard fought battle. When my dad won, he felt so bad he invited her back to his hotel room for some drinks.
Suffice to say, they did more than just have drinks. I guess that makes me an oops baby.
Marriage... I think it's much too early to be talking about that. That's not to say I don't love Danny -- I do. But I'm only 19 years old. Surely, I should get my degree first?
Danny says, "I don't know whether to be flattered or insulted."
"Flattered definitely," I giggle and kiss him on the cheek. "You may be a nerd but you're
my
nerd. I love you so much."
"I love you too, Zoe."
As we're waiting in line, I notice a middle-aged man staring at me -- more specifically, at my chest. Instinctively, I cross my arms to protect myself. It bothers me that people stare at my tits so much; I can't control how large my breasts are.
There's an animal part of me that enjoys the attention though. That tingle of undeniable excitement. To be so desired as to be envied. My friends are always telling me how pretty I am and how they wish they could have a body like mine -- tiny waist, wide hips, and a shapely ass. They say I have the type of perfection that only a rare combination of good genes and diet can create. Why work so hard to maintain your figure, if you don't bother showing it off? I can't say I disagree.
"Have your boarding pass and ID ready!"
Yes, yes, I heard you, lady. Stop shouting already.
I hand my driver's license to the TSA agent at the stand. He looks at the license and then at my face before nodding.
"Ticket on the scanner please."
I place my phone screen side down on the scanner waiting until the indicator light changes color.
"Over there, please." the TSA agent points to the leftmost lane.
I move to the lane with my suitcase. Danny follows closely behind me. There is another line before the conveyor belt. Luckily, this line is shorter.
"Take your electronics out of your bags," shouts another TSA agent, a stout middle-aged lady.
I pull off my coat, revealing the halter top underneath. I take off my jewelry and heels and put them along with my purse in one of the cartons. Then, I lift my suitcase -- with some help from Danny -- onto the conveyor belt. I watch my belongings ride along the conveyor belt and towards the x-ray machine.
Satisfied that my stuff is accounted for, I walk towards the full-body scanner.
"Step forward, miss." The TSA agent on the other side beckons.
As I get closer to the TSA agent, I begin to feel apprehensive. He is a big man.