I need you.
I didn't realize it until I saw you two weeks ago, walking down the street with those eyes. You were a vision, an epiphany. I had been alone for so long and I was getting to this state where I was just fine with everything. Settling in. Accepting the break up; accepting just being alone.
Then you. The way your hair moved in the wind and your eyes sharp and looked into the distance. Your hips moving is that sweet little rhythm, constrained as they were beneath the fabric. I won't try to flatter you, I'm just trying to get across that something about you was different than every other woman I'd seen in a very long time.
And when I smiled and you wouldn't even make contact, just kept walking on by, something else awakened.
I was wrong about you. You were just like every other woman. Always tempting and teasing, alluring and come hither until you get what you want. You're the kind that turns me down when I finally get up the guts to ask you out. You do it nicely enough, with mirth in your eyes, but you cant resist telling your friends about how the loser just made a move on you seconds later. Yeah, I've heard all the little choir of laughter of every group of girls just like you. I can't believe I thought you'd be any different just because you woke me up.
Maybe that's why you did it. Maybe that's why you brought me out of my numbness, just to get the thrill of it all as you ignore me. Well not today - you brought me back, bitch, and I'm going to show you what that entails.
Shrugging off my shame and doubt, I turn to stalk you as casually as I can muster. I don't have a lot of experience in this kind of thing, but it's easy enough. Your feet hit the ground just like every one else, and all I have to do is follow a few dozen feet behind you. I don't even know what I'm nervous about; I was invisible in front of you with a big, honest smile. Why would you see me from behind with a smirk?
No. You're not going to see me. You're not going to feel how hot my blood is right now until my skin is on yours. This is probably what you want. You and every other fucking whore that walks the street. You want to be followed home and absolved of all your crimes by becoming a martyr. You want to be fucked savagely by a nameless, faceless man who is nothing but a cock to you. I can't believe it took me up to this point to feel it.
Tonight, you're going to get what you want.
You're getting more comfortable now, less rigid in your posture and steps. We must be getting close to home. I'm looking forward to seeing it. For the first time in two years I have a little bounce in my step and it's all I can do not to whistle. Feels good to be back. Still, not a lot of use to me sticking around out here, ruining the surprise. So I head back to your mass chain and order a drink, wondering if it's yours. There's time to kill before it's dark enough. I sip it with a smile on my face and I think about tonight.
It's dusk enough to lurk. I observe you from outside and I realize that nobody else is home. I wonder, briefly, if you have a man and he's out of town. Is he with your kids? Are you single and alone and just whimpering for this or am I going to be the fuck you've been looking for ever since you got married? I get so excited that I stop caring about the details. I just stare at your shadow through the blinds, looking for any kind other of movement or light in the house and never taking my eyes off you.