'How I hate that... boy! That's all he is, is a boy. He torments me and plays games with me. All the while laughing at his sick jokes and disgusting comments. And he has "accidentally" boob grazed me for the last time. No more grab ass and no more feel ups followed by laughter and my face as red as a tomato. I'm no prude by any means, but something about Jor just drives me nuts. And not in a good way... most of the time. I think about him constantly, whether it be about how much he turns me on or about how I can't stand him. Most days I sit there praying he'll "accidentally" feel me up again, but then once he does I, of course, act appalled and slap him or something, which he enjoys way too much. As do I. I'm finding the more I slap him the more it makes me wet. I can't like him... I just can't. He violates all my personal rules on dating. First and foremost, he's younger than me. That is ALWAYS a no-no. I absolutely do not date guys younger than me. They're so immature. Second, he smokes! And not cigarettes, POT. Now I generally say "don't dog it till you try it", but I will NEVER try it nor will I ever date a guy who does it. I just don't like the smell or the way some people get when they smoke it. Smart people get stupid and stupid people become stupid smart. And eating all my food? Not cool. But other than those two things, I mean... I wouldn't really mind dating him. But those two issues are way too big to bypass.'
All these things are racing through my head as I walk out to my car. It's just after 11 and I'm finally leaving the university library. I'm making myself angry for even thinking of dating Jor, let alone having sex with him.
'A little bit of uncommitted sex might be fun though. I haven't had sex in months. I'm so horny... all the time.'
Lately I've been getting so bothered and hot I can't even make it back to my apartment before I start getting off. I've resorted to keeping a vibe in my car just in case.
I fumble for my keys that are hiding somewhere in the bottomless pit that is my purse and finally snatch them up. Unlocking my car I climb in and start it up. I yawn, being rather tired from such a long night at the library, not as long as some of my other nights there, but still pretty long.
'I wonder how long Jor is...' Ugh! why am I so into him?!? I pull out of the parking lot and head to my apartment that is several blocks away. My roommate, Goose, is probably out partying by now. I would be surprised if he weren't, that's about all he does anymore.
Once finally home I go straight to my shower for a little relaxation, a little hot water and screamo music always calms my nerves. I put on my favorite cd and strip down, the steam already filling my small bathroom. The first breakdown starts as I climb in behind the curtain which doesn't do much but blur my short frame a bit. The hot water falls over my head and down my chest making tension melt. My hands run over my shoulders and neck then down over my perky breast, I take my time there. Once my nipples are hard and rosy pink my hands travel lower to the soft skin of my stomach and ever lower to the soft mound resting at the peak of thighs. I want so badly to play with myself, to let that bit of tension go along with the tension now leaving my shoulders, but I hold back, knowing I have all night to do that if I want. No need to rush.
I grab a washcloth and run it over my soaked body, loving that bit of roughness. More now than ever I'm finding that I'm starting to enjoy a bit of pain with my pleasure. After about ten more minutes of torturing myself I decide to wash my hair and get out.
I don't bother to wrap myself with a towel as I leave the bathroom, knowing Goose isn't home, not that I do even when he is. I walk down the short hall to my bedroom. I flip the light switch and the bulb flickers then dies.
"Lovely..." I shake my head and throw on a t-shirt and lay on my bed. I'm too tired to deal with a blown light right now. I turn on my tv and watch the first porn I find. I hate how stupid some porn is, but I put up with the bad acting cause I can still get my jollies watching some ridiculously hot chick getting pounded by some big cocked freak.