A new version of the story: longer, darker, sexier, and finally with the ending the volunteer deserves.
Warnings: Non consensual dynamics, onscreen rape, breeding kink.
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The volunteer
I knelt on the cold floor to see my cat, Gonzo, crouched at the very back of the plastic carrier. His green eyes were looking around, trying to understand what the hell was going on. He wouldn't be coming out anytime soon, so I just stuck my hand inside and petted his ear, rubbing the thick skin between my index finger and my thumb. He was too stressed out to purr, but he let me touch him.
I left him behind and closed the door quickly before I could change my mind. In that small bathroom, he would be kept while he acclimated to his new home.
Ms Leyla called me to the kitchen. She had brewed coffee and unpacked some cookies, both of which had made my heart ache almost as bad as saying goodbye to the little guy. Coffee had run out from the stores months ago, and the rations we received had none of it.
"In a few weeks he will be chilling in the living room, basking in the afternoon sun," she said as she served me a warm cup.
I knew that. Most cats hated the change in environment but eventually grew used to it.
"Yeah, I just hate doing that to him. But he's a sweet guy, and he will love to have company."
Mrs Leyla had seven other cats, one of which rubbed against my leg after I sat down, begging for pets on his soft rump. She also took care of all the strays in the neighbourhood, sweet or feral. Her son and his wife moved in to live with her, after everything had come crashing down, bringing in the baby. They all loved pets.
It was the best place for Gonzo to be. He would be loved, entertained and fed.
I added a gulp of synthetic milk to my coffee and drank with some pleasure. The smell alone was nostalgic, even without sugar. Food and supplies came through drones now, a winged crate stopping at each door every ten days like clockwork. There would be bottles of a thick cream-like nutritious liquid, that I dared to call synthetic milk, water bottles, a few vegetables, some sort of meat that reminded me of pork, but definitely wasn't, cooking oil and grains (sometimes corn, sometimes rice, or grounded soy). It didn't really resemble what we would get at a supermarket, but the Vurlixans had no interest in granting us a sense of normalcy.
"Are you sure about what you are going to do,
fia
?"
She said daughter,
filha
, with an accent from out-state that told me plenty. Like myself and a bunch of others, she had come to the big city to make her living, and here she stayed. The house she was in was probably rented and paid with effort. But rent invoices and bills had stopped arriving after the Vurlixans took over. Most people couldn't go to work and bank networks were offline anyway. Money lost all meaning. In my apartment building, the doorman and the cleaner vanished not long after. They went home to take care of their own, of course.
I fumbled with the edges of my sleeves.
"I'm not doing so great all alone by myself, you know. At least work will keep me moving."
I felt tears pool even talking about it.
"Of course,
fia
. I hope it works out for you. If it doesn't, and you come back, your cat will be here waiting for you."
She pushed the plate of cookies in my direction, and I grabbed one. It was the good stuff, processed with sugars and flavouring. And then she offered me a napkin to dry my tears.
The streets were empty as I walked down the street, the early Sunday quiet stretching in every direction. Sundays used to carry at least a flicker of life, even at odd hours. Not anymore. After the war, the city's quick pulse had slowed to a crawl. People no longer rushed to work or to have fun somewhere. There were fewer places left to go. Most services that didn't qualify as "essential" had been shut off.
Whatever scraps of routine we managed to preserve came from those who believed it was worth salvaging, who could make it work despite everything. At the restaurant near my apartment building, the owner would cook for you if you brought the ingredients. Neighbours began drifting in to help in the kitchen, and a community garden was planted in pots at the door. The bakery down the street operated the same way. Also nearby, a seamstress and an old shoemaker kept their doors open, bartering for whatever people could spare. The rest was shut down and quiet. Markets had been raided and emptied out. Stores were treated as a place to go in and grab what you need.
The world as we knew was over anyway, so who cared?
It was a quiet apocalypse.
I pushed in through the gate, ran up the stairs made of old 70s tiles until I reached the first floor, where my neighbour, Mr Inacio, was volunteering as a doorman. He sat on a couch that was brought to the corridor and day in and out, he was going through a long pile of books. He made sure no stranger walked up to our floors. He wished me a good day as I waited for the lift.
My apartment was minuscule, as were all the units in that building. Just one room, with a kitchen and a bathroom. The kitchen was a tiny, cluttered mess, filled with the residue of two weeks of neglect. My neglect, of course. I had cleaned just enough, a single mug and the pot, to prepare my final breakfast.
Washing the rest of dishes was the final gesture to hold on to who I was, even as I stood at the edge of a precipice, ready to abandon it. It was the last remnant of the common stressful adult life I'd been leading.
I grabbed my suitcase, done the night before, and headed to the door. Before shutting it behind me, my gaze lingered on the corner where Gonzo used to sleep. His furry bed was gone, packed up with his toys and bowls when I made arrangements for his new home.
I was crying again before I locked the door.
I had never met my neighbours before the end of the world, apart from the occasional share of the lift. The night the invasion began, the girl downstairs had a nervous breakdown, and all the women on the upper and lower floors gathered to help her spend the night. From there on, we were always checking on each other, even if we didn't talk much. We had some meetings weekly to share tasks related to taking care of the building. That's how I met Mr Inacio.
The small apartments, whose rent wasn't the cheapest, attracted two types of people: students and people without family. However, the younger tenants started leaving soon after, when they realized that the occupation was going to last. They moved with their friends, with family, others just walked away, probably to try to leave the city. The loners lingered.
Mr Inacio looked at me with pity when I was back so soon, carrying a bag. He had seen that enough times.
"Geez, girl. I wish you luck out there."
"Thanks. I don't know if I'll be back, so if someone shows up..."
"Stop. There are other empty units. We'll hold onto your stuff."
"Thanks. I hope you guys end up well."
"We will. In the glory of God."
I walked until I reached the highway that circled my neighbourhood. There were no buses or trains any more. Once the gas stations ran dry, the electric cars held on a little longer, but even they were shut down eventually. Only bikes and skates moved within the permitted zones. Beyond those limits, only the Vurlixan hovers flew -- massive smooth glass ships drifting quietly, going by like helicopters.
After forty minutes, I reached the encampments of people waiting for permission to cross the checkpoints. Beyond the last row of tents stood the barrier. The fence wasn't made of common weaved metal. It was built from a dark, web-like structure that looked organic, almost alive, while still shining silver. It stretched high, separating my side of town from the others. I had heard that some people got permission to cross. Usually they had a valid reason; they were away from home when the barrier was lifted, or they had family on the other side. But I had also heard about people denied or ignored, stuck on the wrong side with no explanation. The rules weren't clear. It was hard to know what counted or who decided.