I locked my door carefully before walking into my apartment. It had been another boring day at work, and I just wanted to grab some food and zone out in front of the computer. I headed towards the kitchen.
There was something on my kitchen table, I frowned. I lived alone and I habitually cleaned up after myself. I knew there hadn't been anything on my table when I'd left that morning. Well, maybe I had left something there and forgot?
I strolled over and saw that it was an envelope that had been neatly sliced down one short end. I never opened envelopes that way. When I picked it up to read the addressee, I gasped.
My heart thudded in my chest and terror shot through me. There, in my own handwriting, the envelope was addressed to 'The Slenderman.' That was all it said on the front of the envelope, "The Slenderman." If there was an address for that particular person, I hadn't known it when I'd addressed the letter.
The letter! With trembling fingers, I picked up the envelope again and reached inside, pulling out the letter. There it was, just as I remembered it from three months ago. Written on pink perfume scented paper in dark red ink was my darkest fantasy.
I want to be raped
, The letter began. And two pages of explicit description followed.
I'd closed the fantasy up, sealed it in an envelope, and left it to sit for four days. Then, in a fit of sexual need, I'd addressed it to the boogeyman of my childhood and dropped it into a mailbox across the city from my apartment.
I'd fantasized about who would read my letter. Would some post office employee use my words for his, or her, masturbation? Would it sit, unopened, in a pile of undeliverable mail for years only to be uncovered by some future anthropologist?
Never, never, had I imagined that it would come back to me. There should have been no way for the letter to come back to me.
Abruptly, I realized that if the letter was here, then someone had put it here for me to find. Someone had been in my apartment. Someone could be here now. Someone who'd read my rape fantasy...
A spurt of wetness pulsed out of me at the thought. Had someone found it who wanted to give me that fantasy? Fear, and arousal, filled me.
Fear won. I turned and ran back to my door. I pulled off the chain and flipped the deadbolt, then the door lock. Why did I have so many locks? I turned the doorknob and pulled, but the door didn't move.
There was something holding the door closed. I looked up and saw the long, thin, black arm of the Slenderman pressed against the top of the door. A gasp escaped me. I tried to scream, but my voice was gone.
My legs trembled and I fell to the floor. He was seven feet tall, all black and indistinct, nothing in his face but a void, just like the images on the internet showed him.
I shrank back into the door, pulling my knees up to my chest. Tears leaked from my eyes as I cowered. I'd never felt so afraid in my life. This couldn't be real.
The Slenderman replaced each of the three locks on my door, slowly and methodically. Then, he pointed one finger towards me and crooked it upward. It was a clear command to get up.
My voice, that had left me earlier, came back. I opened my mouth and screamed. The sound was sucked up, as if into an airless void, and muted. I knew I was screaming, but there was no noise.
The Slenderman crooked his finger again and I felt myself rise. I was being controlled like a puppet. The words from my letter flared in my memory.
I want to be a puppet in the hands of my rapist. To have my body controlled and manipulated for his own sick pleasure. I want to give up all ownership of myself to him, to fulfill his desires.
Another hot pulse of arousal shot through me as I walked, no
was
walked by some unseen force, to my back door.
I want to be taken under the open sky, outside. I want to feel the cool breeze across my raw abraded skin. I want to be defiled in the open, not hidden away in shame.
Under the Slenderman's control, I took off my clothes, sensually. I rubbed my hands over my breasts and nipples as I took off my shirt and bra. I pressed my fingers into my clit and vagina as I pushed down my pants and panties. Naked, I opened my back door and stepped out into the warm afternoon light.
I was easily visible to a half dozen of my neighbor's apartments. Would they call the police? Would they save me? I hesitated on the threshold of the door, and then was inexorably pushed outside. I walked out into the middle of the grassy courtyard.
I turned and looked behind me, but the Slenderman was gone. I ran back towards the apartment but could not go more than a few steps before being pushed back by some unseen wall, like a cushion of air. I reached out and felt at the presence, walking along it. I was confined to a circle in the grass, I found, about eight foot in diameter.
I was naked and exposed in the bright light of day. I looked around to my neighbors' apartments and saw a figure standing in a window. I waved and screamed, but then recoiled as I recognized the figure of the Slenderman.
He disappeared from the window, and a couple minutes later, my neighbor, Mr. Hartman, stepped outside his door. He walked with odd jerky movements as if in a trance. Mr. Hartman was thirty or forty years older than me. He was fat and gray haired and always mean.
I imagine my fat old neighbor who always yells at me as my rapist. He comes to complain about where I've parked my car, or how loud I play my music. He finds me outside and lets his anger consume him, taking it out on me.
Mr. Hartman was angry now. His face was red and pulsing, spittle foamed at the corners of his mouth as he raged. But there was no sound. I stared at him, wetness pooling in my crotch. The Slenderman was giving me a gift, I realized. I was to be given exactly what I'd wanted.
I closed my eyes as I remembered everything I'd written. This was going to hurt; this was going to be terrible. Tears leaked from my eyes even as my nipples hardened.
Be careful what you wish for
, I thought to myself ironically.
Mr. Hartman was pushed inside my circle and suddenly I could hear him.
"You fucking demon scum! I'm going to rip your entrails from your goddamn shadow slim body and use them to strangle you! Fight like a fucking man, you fucking coward!"
Finding himself in control of his body again, Mr. Hartman threw himself back towards his apartment and bounded off the invisible wall. He beat his powerful fists into the air and kicked it. Frustrated, he turned around, and that's when he saw me.
I was cowering against the far end of the circle, in awe of his magnificent rage. As he ran his eyes down my naked body, I shivered with arousal. My clit pulsed helplessly.
Would the Slenderman come and make him do as I'd written, or was he acting on his own will now? Would he be bound by the rules of my fantasy or was he free to use me for only his own ends - just as I'd written that I wanted. But now, faced with the reality of his intense anger and powerful body, fear filled me.
"What the fuck is going on, you fucking whore bitch? Where's your fucking clothes, slut?" Mr. Hartman screamed as he walked towards me.