Monday the 3rd
I love serving others, ya know? Making people happy is so nice. Customers, fellow employees, my boss, the company. I am at their disposal!
Even my family. Gotta make sure I provide. Some may describe it as my love language, I suppose. I just have to make sure others are supplied with a positive attitude, a smile, and a warm nature so that they feel special. Hell, I would slit my wrists if a customer asked me to! Without question! Because I am here for them. I live for them. I believe that anyone who walks into my company's building is of the utmost importance. Even if I were to have other things going on in my life, (which I never do and that's okay!) I would drop it all for them. Because they are most worthy. And, to be quite honest, it makes me feel worthy, too!
I love that feeling; like I actually matter in some way. It is a great feeling.
Tuesday the 4th
I'll have you know, I am the top-performing agent at my company. I produce results and serve my company more than anyone else, and for that, I am extremely proud. In fact, my company has now finally deemed me deserving of a whole vacation day. It is this Thursday. I finally feel excited about something. It's too bad my partner won't have the day off. That's okay though because then I get to be the one to pick up my kids from school and give them to the nanny. We're gonna have such a great car ride. One my kids will hopefully never forget. Real bonding time, real one-on-one time with me.
Friday the 7th
Spending time with my kids was absolutely not worth it. The little shits got me demoted. I should have known, what an absolute idiot I am. The vacation was just a test. If I really loved the company, I would have stayed on Thursday despite my reward. I would have been promoted. My absolute dream- shattered. How could I be so stupid, so selfish?
My boss called me out in front of the whole office. The scene was shameful. He questioned my dedication to my work and the company. He said I was too selfish, too focused on my own life, and my own wants, that I don't think enough of others. He made an example of me. He's so right too. Dammit, what am I worth now? Huh? What am I worth now? All I've ever known is my work; it is my passion, I swear it. I just- I just don't know what happened. I hate myself! I hate myself! How could I be so stupid? What do I do now?
Saturday the 8th
Coming into the office was so embarrassing today. No one wants to be associated with me. I don't blame them. They just have to look after themselves. I would do the same in their position. I am so ashamed. I took my happiness insurance interval to beg my boss to keep me. He said he would consider it and I am so grateful.
After the debacle yesterday, I will do anything to keep my job and my position. I would fuck my boss, too. He's made passes at me, you know. I flirt, of course. I mean, I have to; I want to. I would never instigate anything of course... What if I've read it all wrong? I have to be absolutely sure it is what he wants. I would do anything for him to keep my position.
Tuesday the 11th
I haven't had time to write lately. I've been working so hard, I am so proud of myself. As a bonus, I have lost three pounds, too. And in only 6 days! What an amazing feat. I would consider myself for a magazine, once I fix these bags under my eyes. I just hope my boss still finds me attractive. He stroked my cheek the other day and ensured that I would be back where I was if I just put in a little more effort. So, I have been dressing to the nines, I have been doing immaculate makeup, my hair is absolutely flawless and I wear heels and short skirts more now. It makes me excited to go to work now.
I loved my job already but now I feel like I have even more of a purpose; to strive to be the absolute best and get an even better position than before.
Friday the 14th
I did it. I got my position back. My boss has treated me with such grace and kindness. Even when he was fucking me, he would stroke my back so softly before he slapped my ass so hard it would leave a mark. Man, that hurt a lot. It's okay, though. I eventually got used to it. I won't say I liked it, in particular. Though it did feel sort of good. It did satiate a certain hunger. I feel the need to recount everything in detail. Sort of a way to process everything. I hope no one finds this... but at the same time, I do.
My boss was a real gentleman about it all. He approached me as it was a little past time to leave the office for home, say around 9 pm? Everyone was gone, anyway, bar the two of us. He complimented my outfit and makeup and it made me feel so special. As he was complimenting me, he stroked my ass, very softly, with the back of his hand. He looked me in the eyes and demanded I kiss him. I'll admit, it made me extremely horny.