Note from author: I'm still new to this and would very much welcome constructive feedback.
A word of warning, this story differs from my others. This story deals with consensual non-consensual play (aka rape play), so, if that ain't your thing, well, you have been warned. Otherwise, enjoy :)
You answer the door and you look exactly like your photo, only smaller. And I'm surprised that I'm surprised, given that the camera ordinarily adds rather than subtracts.
I can see you've changed your hair, tied it back, it's a good look on you. And useful for me. I'm the kind of guy who appreciates both form and function.
You hold the door at a crack, not saying anything, and I realise that you're unsure. I didn't share a photo. This is the first time you are seeing me and I wonder if it's my age. You told me that you'd turned 18 a few months before, and I told you I was older, but without specifics.
I didn't mention my wife and three kids.
I didn't mention my job, hometown, my situation.
Not that any of that matters. You, however - well - you shared it all.
That you'd just turned 18 on the back of a bad breakup. Childhood sweethearts gone wrong. You told me that you'd relocated from Middlesborough to Bristol study English Literature. That you were close with your Dad, but that you hadn't seen your Mom in over a year.
I asked you whether you had a daddy complex.
You replied with a smiling emoji, I left it at that, and you moved on. And I wondered if there might be something there, some secret thing that you didn't want to be seen.
Not that it matters. Not that I give a shit.
That's not what this is about. That's not what this is.
And so I shared nothing, but you gave it all away.
There were photos and a video.
In that video, you were half-dressed, but reticent, nervous, and new to all of it. I insisted that you call me, 'Daddy,' just to fuck with you and all your Daddy-related complexity, and you did. I remember telling you, just a couple of days ago, that I jerked off to that video more times than I can recount. The shade of your areola, the suggestion of a nipple as you leaned into camera, as you bit at your finger and then your lip, as you gazed off out of shot, as you stumbled over your words.
Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, Daddy.
All of it, the photos, the video, but mostly your discomfort, your uncertainty, made me want this.
You asked to see a picture in return. So that you could see what I look like. That's how you said it. With zero fucking irony.
'Erm,' the chat box throbbing blue like the vein running the length of my cock. 'Would you mind sending me a photo? Just so I know what you look like?'
You'd sent me spools of photos. The one where you're dressed up for prom, glitter, sparkle, the world in the very palm of your hand. The one where you lounge against the couch. In the background, Daddy is leaning over a jigsaw. Mr Snuffles, your designer poodle - fur white, but tinged pink - scuffles against your chest. You later shared that Mr Snuffles had passed shortly after, that you and your Dad, one drizzling Sunday, had planted him out back under the pear tree. You shared that in our second week.
Then photos of you in your pjs fucking around, then sleepy, then coquettish, and then teasing. Nothing too suggestive, but enough to encourage me to ask for more.
'I don't do nudes,' you said. But you did. It took me just a day and a half to turn you.
Photos of you, stood in front of your bathroom mirror, phone in hand, black lace underwear cut stark against your pale white skin. Then against the bed, your bra strap loose. Then a flash of perfect tit. Perfect save that your right tit is slightly larger than your left. And your left sags just so.
'Daddy would be so proud,' I said.
'Fuck you,' you said, and then went dark for a full evening. The next morning you apologised.
'Sorry.'
That's when I knew that you were special. Oh so perfect.
Then photos your pussy, scuffed with curls of dark brown hair.
'Shave it,' I said. 'Shave it for me.'
Blushing emoji, but a few days later you delivered: a photo of your thighs spread, lips visibly wet, as bare as the day you were born. I could see that you'd nicked the skin, just to the right of your clit and so I told you.
'I wish I was there with you. So that I could lick you clean.'
Blushing emoji followed by a photo of your finger pressing into your wetness, eyes glazed, lips soft and parted.
Good girl. Daddy's very best girl.
You asked for a photo. Just 'cos you wanted to see what I look like.
'What the fuck does it matter?' I said, in return.
'Cos that's not what this is. That's not how this works. That's not what this is about. You didn't know that then. But you'll learn.
Out and across the street a group of lads, maybe 18, maybe not, jostle, one of them curses, and the rest laugh. Someone somewhere spills a bottle to the floor where it shatters. One street over, or maybe further out, a dog barks harsh, loud and persistent before cutting off.
And you're staring at me still, wide-eyed, pale, and dumb.
'Roxy?' I say, the name you gave me, and you blink. Startled mute. I know that you are new to this, and I guess that you were naΓ―ve enough to offer up your real name.
You sent me a screenshot of your test results, just to prove that you're clean. And so now I have your forename, your address, your NHS number, photos, and that video. There's a lot someone can do with that kind of information. If one were so inclined.
'So,' I say, cocky, surly even, 'You going to invite me in or what?' I adjust my carry bag against my shoulder. If you notice it, you give zero indication.
You bite at your lip, fuss with your hair, your hand against the door flutters. You worry.
'Well?' I say, wondering what I might do if you were to try and turn me away. I've driven five hours, from Bradford to Bristol, for this. And I am not for being fucked about.
You double blink and release the chain, but still hesitant. I press my hand against the glass and ease the door open the rest of the way. You step back, not quite an invitation, but I take it. In through the door and straight into the lounge. Your flatmates are away for the weekend. You shared that. It's why I picked this night of all nights.
The house is a shithole. But I can see from the way that you've dressed that you've made an effort. That skirt, short enough to be lewd were it not just the two of us. And that shirt, tied off at the mid-rift showing a sliver of pale soft skin, buttons running up to the dip of your cleavage. And you're not wearing a bra. Young and tight enough to get away with it. You catch me looking and I imagine your nipples hardening.
Good girl.
I sit without being asked. An ashtray overflows onto the scuffed coffee table and the air in here smells stale and dirty. On the floor, a plate covered in half-eaten slop festers from last night, the night before, or god knows when. The TV flickers in the corner, dumb and stupid, the screen a spiderweb stretching out from the centre.
I hand you a bottle of cheap red wine.
'You want to pour this?' I say, placing my bag by the couch, just out of sight, but making no attempt to hide the gesture. You give no indication that you notice or care.
'And clean this shit up while your at it.' I push the plate with the toe of my boot.
You blink. Like an idiot. Then reach down for the plate. As an afterthought, you take the ashtray with you and out into the kitchen. I consider whether to follow, just to check that you don't bolt. But I know you won't because, really, all said and done, you need this.
Besides, girls like you have nowhere else to go.
You return clutching two glasses, the stem between thumb and forefinger and the bottle clutched in your loose hand. You stand. Blink.
'Sit down,' I say, and, as you do so, you slosh red wine from the glass to your thigh. The blood red stain is shocking against the sickly white of your flesh. I want to lick it away, instead, you smear it with a press of your thumb.
You pass me a glass, but hold yours, the angle severe and threatening to spill.
'Drink,' I say. You raise the glass to your lips, a sip and then again, this time half-draining it. Your lips are a bloody open wound. I feel myself harden.
I put my glass down, untouched. You follow, almost tipping it from the table, but I catch and steady it with a flat open palm. I smile, but I can only imagine how it must appear to you.
You're at the far end of the couch, the distance of an eternity between the two of us. I close it in an exhalation of breath, and now we are shoulder to shoulder, thigh to thigh. And I can still see the smudge of red running just beneath the edge of your skirt. I trace it with my finger, your eyes wide and intent, you shake like a small bird, and I think I may be in love.
'Relax,' I say, but it's a fucking lie. I don't want that, and, deep down, neither do you.
I lean in, my lips searching for your mouth. You turn your head.
'No,' you say it. But it's a whisper.