For at least a week Roxanne had been trying to persuade me to go out, have fun, and meet some new people so that I could get over Sam, who up and left me two weeks ago. I just didn't feel up to it. I mean, I loved Sam. I really loved Sam. I know that we had only known each other for two months and I really didn't know all that much about him, but our time together had been a whirlwind of sensuality and a sexual awakening for me. He taught me practically everything I knew about sex. While I am 20 years old, I was, prior to meeting Sam, very inexperienced; I had only had awkward sex with two boys before him. You could say that he formed me sexually. He both frightened and excited me. He dominated me and I would do anything for him. I started shaving my pussy completely when I was with him. I wore what he wanted me to wear; I even stopped wearing panties altogether after the night he told me not to. I thought I'd be kicked out of my apartment for sure the night Sam pulled all the panties out of my underwear drawer and, one by one, set them ablaze and tossed them off the balcony at the front of my building. He fucked me in front of other people. He made me expose myself to strangers. He taught me to have squirting orgasms (the most intense feeling I have ever experienced). He once took me to a strip club on amateur night and made me dance naked in front of strangers. (I have very large tits for a girl my size, and the crowd loved me. They cheered me on to do an encore and showered me with cash. I made $150 in about ten minutes of dancing.) Things got a bit more extreme with Sam, too. Once Sam blindfolded me and double teamed me with a friend of his; I still don't know the identity of that "friend." He even once sent me out with instructions to seduce a stranger, who I brought home and fuck while Sam watched us from a closet. I was fine with feeling vulnerable as long as it was Sam was in control. No matter what I was doing, I was always doing it for Sam. If he was there, I always felt safe.
But two weeks ago, Sam abruptly told me he was moving away the next day. I was stunned. He wouldn't even explain to me where he was going or why; all he said was that he had to go and I couldn't come along. I don't really want to get too much into how I reacted, I will just say that I have been a depressed recluse ever since, to the point that my friends are worried about me.
Roxanne had become my most supportive friend after Sam left me, and she had been hounding me for weeks about this party she wanted us to go to. I finally agreed. But my willingness to go wasn't quite enough for Rox.
"Wear that little black strapless dress that Sam bought you," she urged me.
"It'll just make me think about him," I said. "Besides, it's way too revealing."
"That's the point. You need to get over him. Wearing something he bought you to attract other men is the perfect way."
"I don't know, Rox. That dress is a bit much, and I'm not feeling particularly sexy."
"I bet the men at this party will change your mind," she said. "It'll be good for you. Come on, do it for me."
"I guess so," I answered. "But you have to promise not to try to set me up with anyone. Maybe I could use a little confidence boost, but I'm certainly not ready to entertain the idea of being with anyone else."
"Great. See you there. Don't change your mind about the black dress. I'll be disappointed."
"You didn't promise not to play matchmaker."
"Okay. I promise."
"Rox. I'm serious."
"Okay Annabelle. I promise."
I didn't really feel like going, but Rox had talked me into it. I moped around my apartment for quite a while, but as soon as I started to get ready I felt better. In the shower, as I shaved the stubble I had cast a shadow over my pussy, I remembered that I didn't even have any panties to wear, and that if I wore that little dress, I'd be dangerously vulnerable to inadvertent overexposure. After I got out of the shower, I called Roxanne to see if she could bring me a pair of panties. At first I told her I couldn't wear the dress, but she talked me into it again, promising to bring me a pair of her panties. Reluctantly, I agreed. As I put glittery lotion oil on my body, I began to feel sexy. My skin looked shiny. After I put on the little dress, under which I had no undergarments, I stood in front of the full length mirror and thought that I really did look pretty fucking fantastic. I lifted my hemline to expose my bare pussy and thought to myself that if Sam leaves me then that's his loss. If he didn't want this then, well, somebody else might just get it.
I had to meet Roxanne at the party rather than go with her because she had to meet her boyfriend's parents for dinner first. I told her I wouldn't arrive until 11pm, which would give her plenty of time to get there before me. There was no way I wanted to be there without anyone to talk to. It made me nervous to go alone.
I took a cab to the address in the suburbs. Standing before the door for a few minutes to gather myself, I finally took a deep breath and rang the buzzer. A very tall handsome man answered the door.
"Well, hello," he said, looking me over from head to toe, the smile on his face indicating that he liked what he saw.
"Hi. I'm supposed to be meeting Roxanne and her boyfriend Eddie."
"Oh right. You must be Annabelle. Hi, I'm James. Nice to meet you."
He stuck out his hand and we shook. He was a big man, well over six feet tall and probably over 200 pounds. His hands and fingers were large and his dark eyes looked directly into mine as he gripped my hand firmly and held it just long enough to make me feel like it was a bit more than a greeting.
"Come on in and let me get you a drink."
"Great. Sounds good."
"I have a bit of bad news, though. Roxanne called just about ten minutes ago to say that she's going to be late." My heart leaped into my throat. "Something's up with Eddie's parents or something."
"Oh." I was pissed and I wanted to kill Roxanne.
"You drink gin and tonic, right? Bombay Sapphire?"
"Yeah, how'd you know that?" This, I thought, was a bit creepy.
"I have my ways," he said.
I nervously surveyed my surroundings. James's house was really nice. There were ten or twelve very handsome and well dressed men and only two very gorgeous women. James handed me the drink he had just mixed and introduced me to two men.
"Annabelle, these are my friends Umberto and Gray."
Umberto was also a big man. He had dark, wavy hair, a mustache and beard, and was dressed very sophisticatedly in a three-piece black suit with white pinstripes. Gray was as tall as Umberto and James, but much skinnier. He had sharp, high cheek-bones and piercing eyes. His crew cut hair blended in perfectly with his five-o'clock shadow. He had full lips and glistening white teeth. He, too, looked good. He wore jeans with a crisp white button-up shirt with a huge collar and cufflinks and a black suit vest.
"Hi," I said, shaking Umberto's hand, then Gray's.
Gray said, "Nice to see you again."
I didn't remember meeting him before.
"Have we met?" I asked.
"Yeah. I met you when you were with Sam."
I searched my memory but couldn't recall. Not wanting to offend him, I said. "Oh. Yes."
Gray asked me a few random questions about Sam, but I was distractedly looking at the entranceway, anticipating the arrival of Roxanne. Gray, James, and Umberto gave me a couple of shots of something strong. I drank nervously and surely wasn't a very good conversationalist as my mind alternated between longing for Roxanne's arrival and silently cursing her absence.