Laura stared in horror at her computer screen, willing the text that was staring her in the face to go away, to somehow transform into something else, but realising it couldn't and wouldn't.
Her client would be angry, very angry. So angry there was a good chance that she could lose her job over this. The dream job that she'd been chasing after for ten years since graduation, that she'd finally got a year before.
And it could all be over for this one, in some ways small, in other ways huge, life changingly big mistake.
She knew what she'd been thinking when she'd drafted the agreement, how best to structure it to protect her client from downside risk but in a way that would work for the other party. But the part she'd missed, the part she hadn't anticipated, was that a particular sequence of unlikely events would trigger losses for her client. Huge losses. As in, client goes bankrupt losses.
Those unlikely events had just happened, and the email on her screen, friendly enough, was from the other party asking how payment would be arranged.
Mundane, trivial, a normal email. But in the background Laura could hear everything coming crashing down around her. Professional negligence didn't come close to describing what she'd done.
She was fucked. Career endingly fucked, and still only in her early thirties.
Half an hour had passed and Laura had sat there at her desk rooted to the spot the whole time, desperately working out what to do.
She glanced up as the door to her shared office opened and shuddered inwardly when she saw Steve, the man she shared the office with at her firm, walk in as cockily as usual.
Steve was as different to Laura as could be. Him, somewhere on the border of upper class with a filthy rich father, her firmly working class with barely any money in her family. Him, the product of a top boarding school and the best university, her educated at her local state school and a mediocre university, the best she could get to from her background. Him, having led a charmed existence where everything came easily and he knew half the senior people at their firm through daddy, her having had to work and fight every single day to get to where she was.
That was probably the biggest difference between the two of them... Laura had had to work smart to get where she was, saying yes to every piece of work, working weekends and late nights to do extra, saying yes to doing everything and helping everyone. She knew that that irritated Steve, he sometimes teasingly called her Miss Perfect when it was just the two of them, but she needed to do that all just to keep pace with the likes of Steve and their head start in life.
Sometimes the person you shared an office with could be a blessing, someone to act as a sounding board and a confidant. And sometimes, like with Steve, not. He was focused on his own career and climbing the ladder, not on helping someone that he saw as beneath him.
Today, though, when he saw her and how clearly worried she was he smelled blood, like a shark. "What's up Miss Perfect?" he asked, pretending to be jolly.
Fuck it, Laura thought, I might as well tell him. It will be everywhere soon enough anyway. "I fucked up. Big time. I don't know what to do."
"Big time as in really big time?"
"As in kill my client and then my own career big time, yeah."
"Ah. That's unfortunate," he replied with classic understatement. "You want me to take a look? Second pair of eyes and all that."
It was the last thing that Laura wanted, in all honesty. But it would be useful, just in case. She bit the bullet. "If you could, then yes please. I'll send it to you now. But please, please, please keep this to yourself for now. Please."
"Cross my heart and hope to die," he replied, laughing. God, thought Laura, this isn't a laughing matter, how can he seem so relaxed about it?
Laura sent the details over, and then went out for a walk, figuring that she probably had only a few days left with the firm until she got fired for gross misconduct so why waste that time worrying at her desk?
She came back a couple of hours later to find Steve sitting smugly at his computer. Sitting back down herself, she steeled herself for whatever was to come. As far as he was concerned, she was just another rival on the path up the ladder, and anything that could take her out was another step towards his ultimate glory.
So, she was surprised, very surprised in fact, when he smiled and said, "I agree, you've got a problem. But I can fix it."
"You can fix it? Seriously?" Relief flooded through her.
"Yeah," he nodded. "It's a bit unorthodox, but I can."
"How?"
"Well, as it turns out my father happens to own a certain company, that owns another company, that owns the other party to your deal. And I could, if I wanted to, talk to the person in charge of that company and make them see sense, make them see that this was an honest mistake and that it wouldn't be in their long term interests to pursue it."
Laura was taken aback, and also annoyed. How come someone like Steve got to have that sort of influence just from his upbringing and his family, while she couldn't dream of that. One rule for the rich and one for everyone else, she thought.
But, in the end, she thought don't look a gift horse in the mouth. "Yes please, I don't think there's any other answer. And we can keep it between us?"
Steve smiled back, and said, "Steady on there. I said I could. Not that I would."
Laura's heart sunk again. What game was he playing? "What would turn could in to would? Ideally as quickly as humanly possible."
Steve stood up and closed the door to the office. Here it comes, thought Laura. This could be anything. She braced herself.
"There's a lot of money involved. A lot."
"Ok..."
"So you need to give me something in return that's worth that much money. Something awesome."
"Right..."
"Any ideas?"
Laura just looked at him, a knot growing in the pit of her stomach. She had nothing of much value that she could give him that he didn't already have. Except, and her mind recoiled from this, except of course herself...
He could clearly see the thoughts going through her head and the desperation that she felt thinking them, her whole body language slumping and a defeated look on her face. She was caught between a rock and a hard place. Which was the lesser of two evils?
"Seriously, any ideas?" he repeated, still smiling.
She sighed. "You have to say it. I know where you're heading, but you have to say it. I can't."
"It's got to be worth a lot. I think..." He pretended to consider it, but she knew that he had already decided what would be worth it. "I think... what are you doing later?"
She looked at him in disgust and annoyance. But, in her head, she knew she'd do what he wanted. Reluctantly. Very reluctantly. But compared to her entire career and life being ruined, spending the evening with Steve, Steve extracting whatever price he deemed worthy for his help, it was a small price to pay in comparison. And she'd do what many women in the workplace over the years had done, she'd swallow the guilt, hide it deep down, and use it. Use it to motivate and to fuel her in the future.
Because there really would be guilt. Laura was engaged to be married, her fiancé working in a similar professional job to her, and she had never been unfaithful. Never. But, she thought grimly, if she got sacked for gross misconduct all of their plans would be up in the air, the house they wanted to buy, plans for kids and for growing old together, it would be blown apart through no-one's fault but her own. She couldn't punish him for her mistake. She just had to front up and own it and fix it, for the long term good of their relationship.
Still, she hesitated. "I... don't know about that."
Steve looked at her condescendingly. "My offer to help expires in two minutes time. Two minutes. After that there's nothing I can do."
Shit, she thought. He had all the leverage. She had none. "Tell me what we'd do later," she asked through gritted teeth.
Steve smiled, sensing she was coming round to his way of thinking. "I'll give you my address, you come over at 7. Say that you've got a deal come in, something urgent which, to be honest, is kind of true, and it's an all-nighter. You can leave at 6am but don't expect any sleep."
"That sounds... a lot."
"It's a lot of money. And while you're there, you do whatever I say or tell you to do without question. Absolutely anything. I'm in complete control tonight. Any disobedience and the offer to help goes."
Laura took a deep breath, feeling like this was escalating rapidly but also well aware that it still wasn't a high price to pay compared to losing her career.
"Nothing that harms me, ok?"
"Ok. I'm not a monster."
Laura laughed grimly at that, thinking that he certainly seemed to be although she didn't say that out loud.
"And, if I do come to your address, when do you fix my, ah, problem?"
"6am tomorrow. I'll get their CEO out of bed if I have to. Ok?"
Laura sighed. Fuck it, she thought. This is ridiculous. But it's my mistake, I've got to own it, this is the game I've got to play against entitled pricks like this.
"Ok, you've got a deal."
Steve stepped across the office and held out his hand to shake hers. Laura reluctantly took it, and realised that in all likelihood she'd be feeling a lot more of his hand that night. The thought made her shudder slightly inside. I can't believe this is going to happen, she thought, why didn't I just fucking draft the thing right in the first place?