CHAPTER 5
The street outside was dark and empty, no lights coming from the windows. Before the war Berlin had been a city that never slept, famous for it's night- and street life, especially in the summer.
But in the last five months, with young women not leaving the house after dark anymore the whole city had changed: While there were still lots of bars and restaurants, that closed shortly after dusk, many of the big and famous clubs from pre Veril times were facing serious problems. The more creative ones had simply switched to opening exclusively during the day, others advertised, that they would only let humans through the door, but there had been some incidents and since then most women didn't dare to set a foot inside the big nightclubs anymore.
I had heard from fellow students that they had visited underground parties and raves in secret spots all over the city -- some literally underground in the tunnels beneath Berlin, but I had always been to scared to go -- how ironic considering the predicament in which I found myself now.
I breathed in the summer night, the air was fresh but not cold and my heart ached as I realized how much I had missed leaving the house after dark. When I still lived in Heidelberg I had sometimes gone out by myself in the late hours just to take a walk. I loved how the streets, the squares and the river seemed like a completely different world in the darkness, magical and a little dangerous. The promise of an an adventure that was just waiting for me around the corner hidden in the shadows.
And right here, looking at the dark windows of the restaurants and bars, I felt a faint memory of the same sense of marvel again but of course the adventure that had waited for me in the darkness, was very different than what I had hoped for.
I looked up at the night blue sky. It was the first time I saw the stars in months, and for a second my heart jumped with joy.
I could feel the General at my back, more than I could hear him, he moved so silently.
I imagined what a strange pair we had to make to an outside onlooker: General Tsul Vo'ren himself, menacing with his Veril power, uniform and weapons, a nightmare that had taken a physical form to punish a whole nation for their sins; and then there was I, barefoot, wearing nothing but my grey oversized t-shirt, smiling at the sky like I had finally lost my mind.
The thought made me laugh a little.
"Is something funny?" the General asked in a low voice, giving me a suspicious look as I turned around to him.
He had not spoken a word until now, not even touching me on our way down to the street, escorting me like a shadow. But I had no doubt that he would restrain me, the second I as little as tensed a muscle trying to run. I had seen how fast he was -- I shivered at the memory -- so I didn't even bother to think about fleeing.
"No," I responded, straightening up. "I was just thinking about how beautiful the stars are -- I love the night!"
His eyes narrowed while he looked down at me, his regal face otherwise unmoved, "You are lucky then, keltz'in, as I live at night so who knows if you will see the cursed sun again."
My stomach tightened, I was facing him directly now, looking at him in all his glory. Earlier I had thought that he looked like War incarnate. Now, knowing who he really was, I realized how right I had been. My eyes lingered on his weapon belt, the blade on his side. His leather armor strapped around the uniform on his shoulders and arms making him look even broader than he already was.
"Wow, I'm so lucky. Thank you very much, General Tsul," I retorted in an attempt at sarcasm.
"I said, that you can call me Ren," he stepped closer. The hairs on my skin stood up at the nearness of his body.
"I'd rather not risk disrespecting the mighty General by calling him a nickname," I glared at him.
His eyes narrowed even more and he grabbed me by my forearm, pulling me tightly towards him.
"Is that so, keltz'in? Then you shall address me by my real title: It is
Shenik
Tsul -- not General. You start speaking
my
language now, if you do not wish to disrespect me," he fixed me with his gaze, as his grip tightened painfully.
I shoved against him trying to get away, "Stop, you're hurting me!"
"Get used to it," he hissed, staring at me angrily, but after a moment his eyes softened a little, he released his grip, and, to my surprise, leaned down and kissed me. His strong fingers took hold of my hair, and gently pulled my head back, before I could turn to the side.
I kept trying to push him away, but his lips felt so damn good on mine. Slowly, and against my will, my body was giving in, relaxing against him, responding to his presence like it always did.
I could feel the General's smile when I started to return his kiss. I held on to the uniform on his arms, relishing the feeling of his strong muscles under the fabric. I pulled him down deeper into our embrace and the taste of his breath on my lips reignited the heat in my core.
He ran one hand down my spine and leisurely lifted the hem of my shirt until his palm lay on my bare skin, gently digging his fingers into my butt. I moaned softly, half forgetting that I was almost naked in the middle of a very public, albeit empty, street. Some primal part of me ached for him, needed to connect to him, as if I were made out of metal and he was a magnet.
I put my hand on his and pressed it firmly against me. I wanted to feel the strength of him on my skin.
He understood instantly, almost making me yelp under his grip. He turned us around and forced me against the wall of my building. The cold stone chafing against my back was a stark contrast to his warm body pressing against mine. All of a sudden the sound of a lone car passing by snapped me out of my frenzy and I froze for a second, remembering where we were, who we were -- who
he
was. I pushed against him again and this time he allowed me to move him away.
He was breathing hard, when he broke our kiss, "You see, keltz'in, it can be so easy between us. Why must you fight me all the time?"
I swayed a little, my head spinning and pulled on my shirt in a feeble attempt to get more coverage from it.