You were already at the party when I arrived. While I had never seen you before, you caught my attention right away. You were sitting on the couch in that way that you do, trying to appear casual while making sure you look as good as you can, to aware of people looking at you, but at the same time badly wanting us to look. You were absolutely beautiful.
A bit later I saw you on the dance floor. The way you move is lovely. Again striking a shaky balance, but this time between elegance and sluttyness. As soon as I saw you there I knew that I had to have you, and I decided that I would make you mine that very night.
I made sure to end up next to you when you next sat down, panting from the dancing, hair in disarray as you pawed at it trying to make yourself presentable. I introduced myself to you, taking your sweaty hand in mine, leaning in a bit too close when I gave you my name, holding on to your hand as I told you that I think you seem like a cool person, then I leaned back again, releasing your hand.
I asked about you, what you do and why, what you love and believe in. At first you were taken aback by my interest and my questions, but you got into it, didn't you? I listened intently, taking it all in, while sitting an inch too close, constantly accidentally touching you. For twenty minutes or so, I listened to you, giving you my full attention.
A friend of yours asked you a question, which made you turn away for a second to answer. I moved away, just an inch or two, then struck up a conversation with the guy next to me, ignoring you. I could tell right away that it annoyed you, and for a second you were awkward, not knowing what to do. Then you stood up and walked away.
The next time I saw you, you were alone. You were sitting in the corner of the couch, your full attention focused on your phone. I sat down next to you, looking at you and smiling. You greeted me absently, still focused on your phone. I kept looking at you. You got annoyed at first, but my silly smile and full attention eventually got you smiling. We laughed together, at nothing.
I asked you if anything was wrong, and you told me about some things that were bothering you. I listened to you, but kept smiling, trying to make you smile too. For the most part it worked. You showed me away playfully, claiming that there's something wrong with me, smiling at your problems like that. I placed my hand on your shoulder and leaned in, conspiratorially, and whispered "you're smiling too". You laughed again, and I leaned in while you were, as if to kiss you. Instead, I whispered "I think you need to get out of here". You nodded and told me I was probably right.
A few minutes later you were leaving the party. When I followed you out the door you asked me if I was leaving too, and I just smiled and nodded. You asked what way I was going and I said "oh, I'm coming home with you". You laughed at that, but started walking. We talked about your friends and about your problems while walking until finally we were at your building. You got awkward as you tried to bid me farewell. I just said that I'd follow you to your door. Not knowing what else to do, you opened the front door and let me enter behind you. At your door, you got awkward again, fiddling with your keys. Having nothing else to do, you unlocked your door, raising your hand as if to say goodbye.
I stepped in close to you, grabbing you by the waist and slapping your hand away from the key, then grabbing them myself, putting them in my pocket. You tried to push me away, so I released you suddenly, making you stumble a few steps backward. Then I let myself in.
I opened the door wide and smiled at you.
"Come on in," I said.
You came inside with me, your eyes wary and your body tense as you passed me in the hallway. I locked the door behind you. Then I took my jacket off and hung it up. Hesitantly you took your own jacket off too, hanging it on the rack without taking your eyes off me. I looked at you, crossing my arms over my chest.
"You're very beautiful," I said. You just looked at me.
"Go on, continue," I said, letting my eyes wander down your body, stopping briefly at your breasts, then at your hips, and then back up, locking eyes with you, nodding slightly.
You didn't move, so I took a quick step forward, slapping your face. Not very hard, but the shock made you breathe hard.
"Like I said, go on, continue," I said, raising my eyebrows a bit.
I could see understanding rise in your eyes just as they started watering a bit. Slowly you started unbuttoning your shirt.
"There you go," I said. "Good girl!"
Your brain was working hard, trying to process the situation you were in, your body tense, your eyes darting about. As you finished unbuttoning your shirt, pulling it back over your shoulders to take it off, I turned away from you to look inside your apartment, moving a few steps inside as I started taking my belt off. Right away you ran for the door, trying to work the lock and open the door. But I was on you right away, pressing you up against the cold wood, your body shivering against me.
"No, no, that's not right," I said, my mouth close to your ear. "Just leaving like that, after you got me all worked up"
I took hold of both your wrists and pulled them onto your back, tying them together with my belt.
"You wanted me to take care of you, didn't you?" I said. "Don't worry, I will."
I worked the clasp of your bra open before turning you around, looking at you and smiling. You were crying softly now.
"Please," you said, shaking your head.
I kissed your forehead and slowly caressed your collarbones, down your shoulders, pushing the straps of your bra down, causing it to drop down along your arms. I cupped your breasts in my hand, and kissed you softly on the lips.
"Please," you said again, looking at me with watery, pleading eyes.
I stooped down to pick up your discarded shirt, and then stood up and grabbed hold of one of your nipples, pinching it hard as I turned around to walk into your apartment, pulling at your nipple to get you to follow. You winced and sniffled, but followed me into the kitchen. I took hold of your shoulders and steered you to a chair. When you sat down, I went down on my knees and tied your ankles together, using your shirt.
I got up and started looking through your cabinets as I filled a glass of water and went over to you.