I had my daughter, Rose, when I was in my early twenties. We look very much alike and are often mistaken for sisters and sometimes even twins. That does make me feel very good. Rose had been seeing Marcus and telling me much about how wonderful he was. We arranged a dinner for her to introduce him to me and my husband, John. The dinner went very well and he was everything that Rose said he was: wonderfully handsome with an equally wonderful personality.
We cleared the table to get coffee and dessert ready. This gave us a change for a quick chat in the kitchen. "He's wonderful, Rose."
"Oh, I'm so glad you think so, mom. You'll then be happy for me to announce our engagement over dessert?"
"Absolutely. Just one little question, though. Is he as wonderful in bed as he is at the dinner table?" Rose looked at me in surprise. "Your father is a wonderful man too. But I'm afraid to report that he is a bit lacking when it comes to the bedroom, shall we say. There's lots of cake but not much icing."
She blushed a little and then smiled. "He has given me the best bedroom entertainment I've ever had. Sex is not only icing on the cake but the cherry too. In fact," she looked slyly, "I would say the sex is the cake. He makes me feel so glorious and utterly satisfied. He's an absolute maestro at playing a woman's body. I don't know how he's learned to make me feel so, so, indescribable." Rose glowed as she said this. Not something I ever do when talking about John's abilities in bed.
"Oh, that's wonderful. I'm so happy for you." With that we headed out with coffee and dessert.
John, too, was happy for them and we had a lovely little celebration.
Over the next few weeks we saw more of Marcus. I found myself staring at him more and more. And thinking of what Rose had said about him in bed. My sex life with John was slow, to say the least, and very tame when we did have it. I once tried to get him to experiment and liven up our sex life but he felt more like a wet noodle than hard shaft.
So one day I found myself accessing Rose's phone to get Marcus's phone number. With heart beating, I called him. He was surprised by the call. I tried to sound natural and relaxed. I said I wanted to meet him to talk about getting married to Rose. He agreed and we set a date for me to come his place. I didn't really know what I was going to do, how far I wanted to go with him or even what to say. I couldn't stop myself from wanting to have a taste of what Rose was getting.
I found myself going up the stairs to his flat at the appointed time. Like him, the flat was in very good taste, very clean and a joy to be in.
"Thanks for seeing me. I do want to let you know I'm so very happy for you and Rose. I am looking forward to you two getting married. I just want to chat about a few things. You know, wedding arrangements, plans, etc."
He just looked at me sternly. "No you don't, Jill. You don't want to do any of that." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "You're over here to get sex. I see how you look at me. I can see you're a bored housewife with a wimp of a husband. You're willing to steal my number from your daughter and cheat on your husband in the hope I will satisfy your chronically unmet urgings for satisfying sex."
I was flattened by this. I could feel myself turning ever deeper red. "Young man, I've never been so insulted in my life. To think that of your future mother-in-law is utterly appalling. Whatever do you think I am!?!??!"
"Jill, I think you're a sex starved slut. Feel free to call me again if later decide you agree." With that he pushed me out the door and closed it in my face.
I stood there in utter shock. I couldn't possibly go back in. And I certainly couldn't tell anyone what just happened. I turned around and went home a conflicted mess of emotions. He was right that I wanted sex but not that I was some kind of slut. I shuddered at the thought.
We saw each over the coming weeks. I was very nervous about what Marcus would do. However, he acted as though nothing happened, that I had never visited him. This only made things worse. I wasn't falling in love with him, certainly. But I was becoming ever more envious of Rose. She looked so bright and happy. And when we talked alone, she mentioned how their "bedroom activities" were changing her life.
It wasn't long before I found myself calling Marcus. "Hello, Marcus, I was wondering if I could stop by again and um, um, talk about, um, um things." My heart was beating wildly.
"Certainly. But we will do it at your place." He was kind but firm.
"I don't think I can..." He cut me off.
"Find a time when you're the only one home. I will come over then."
I took a deep breath. "Look, can't we do something." I couldn't finish the sentence as he hung up. Once again I was insulted but also excited by talking to him. I called back but he didn't answer.
This was torture. I couldn't possibly leave a message. As much as I didn't want to do anything with him in our house, I was desperate to do something with him. Thus, when an opportunity arose, I texted him with a time and date. He didn't reply. Not knowing if he would come added to the torture.
I got myself cleaned up and ready to impress at the appointed time. I became more anxious as the time approached and then almost distraught as the time passed. I was about out of my skin when I heard the doorbell ring 30 minutes after the time I offered. I ran to the door and was overjoyed to see Marcus.
"I thought you weren't coming. I'm so glad to see you. Do come in."
He walked by my without saying a word and as if he owned the place. I closed the door and followed him to the living room. I knew what I wanted from him but not sure how to get it. Yes, I would be cheating on my husband and daughter. But I'd be getting what they couldn't ever offer.