I am what you might usually call a computer geek and married Mary, who I was introduced to by a mutual friend, when I was 26, some fifteen years ago. Our first meeting was set up as a blind date when Mary was asked to make up a sixth at a dinner party and to everyone's surprise, including my own, we just hit it off and we wed less than a year later.
Now, I know I'm not bad looking - just nothing special, whereas Mary is attractive. Not the tall, model type who many of your writers describe, but small (5'4") and pretty, with a short bob of black hair, blue eyes and a perfectly proportioned figure - nothing too big or too small - just right. The thing that most people notice about Mary is her skin which is perfect; no moles, no blemishes, no scars which makes her look much younger than her 40 years. She is quiet and rather prim and proper, which sometimes gives an impression of aloofness.
We have always had a fairly ordinary relationship, with similar likes and dislikes and a good steady sex life. Apart from trying different positions and watching the odd porn movie which I had been given at work - which, incidentally, Mary thought were rude and dirty - we had settled down into the 'once a week' routine that many married couples do.
My job as an IT manager for a large multinational company in Los Angeles has meant doing evening shifts working 6pm to 2am for ten days a month, which means that many nights Mary has been left on her own until I got home in the early hours. She has never minded this and we needed the money that shift working provided. Normally I would get in and the house would be dark, however, one night I noticed that my computer had been left switched on. I went to close it down and was shocked to see that the browser was logged on to a porn site featuring men with big dicks. Looking at the other sites she had visited that night, I saw that they were all on a similar subject, sometimes showing the men having sex with women as well as being sucked off by them.
I turned the computer off and pondered how I was going to raise this with Mary, if at all. I mean, it could just be a one off. That said, I set the computer to retain a record of all the sites she looked at in the future. At the week-end when she went shopping I checked Mary's activities on the computer and was amazed at the frequency and time she had spent visiting sites like bigmancock.com and bigdick.com. Every night she had been looking at these pictures and I must say, it aroused me to see some of the men screwing the women in the pictures.
Was Mary having an affair? Her e mails didn't indicate so and I decided to put her current infatuation with these sites down to a curiosity which would pass with time. It came as a hell of a shock two weeks later when Mary said she wanted to talk to me about something.
"I want to have sex with another man." she announced as if it were part of our normal conversation.
"You what!?"
"I want have sex with another man" she repeated
I was stunned "Who?"
"Oh. I don't know. I haven't decided yet." She said, matter of factly.
"I don't understand."
"What don't you understand? What I just said?"
"No. I don't understand how you can come out with a comment like that. You want to have sex with another man, but you don't know who. Why don't you know? Tell me more"
Showing no emotion she replied "Well I lied to you in the past. I know I told you that I've only ever been to bed with you, but that's not true. You see, before we met I dated a guy called Simon from my class at university for a year. I left him because I found him in bed with my best friend and I couldn't believe that I wasn't enough for him. The thing was, he had a really big penis and an insatiable sexual appetite and we did it three or four times a night - every night during the year we were together."
"From what you're saying I assume you don't you love me any more? I'm not good enough for you"
"Of course I do and I always will. Meeting you gave me someone who I knew would never let me down .I'm not going to leave you or anything, but I've always been interested in big men, since Simon. I just want to experience one more time what it's like to do it with someone big." She said quietly.
"And what if I say I don't want you to?"
"Ah, well, that's where we may fall out. I've made my decision to do this and I'm going to do it whether you want me to or not."
We didn't speak for the rest of the day, but that night Mary slipped off her nightdress as she got into bed and we made love as if nothing had ever been said.
A week later Mary announced "I've made my decision."
"About what?" I replied absent mindedly.
"About who I'm going to have sex with, of course"
"Who?" I replied. Suddenly cold.
"Oh. Just someone who I've been speaking to who I was put in touch with by a friend."
"And when is this to happen?"
"Next week-end."