Nothing of note happened after our meeting. Jace helped me clean up and do our little charade that I had to go get a fresh change of clothes.
Nothing happened between us after that. My asshole was sore for days, and I felt like that snide fucker knew it from the amount of times he'd smile at me when I'd pass by. I didn't know what to say to him, and he didn't make an attempt to talk to me.
He'd give me weird looks and try to make eye contact. I returned his looks. I wasn't sure how I felt about the whole ordeal. I was violated...right? Why was I not doing anything about it? Did I like what happened that much? Part of me knew I did. I liked everything that happened. I liked him. But I didn't want to, he was such an insufferable asshole before, who's to say anything will have changed just because he anally violated me? I'd look at him from afar where he couldn't tell I was staring, I tried to figure him out.
Jace was a dedicated worker, anyone could tell that. Every expense report he handed in was perfect, client meetings always ended in great results, he was just smart. I started noticing little things about him after our 'meeting'.
The way he walked, his chest puffed out.
The way his blue eyes seemed to analyze everything, leaving no questions behind for him.
His hands were large with long fingers, the kind I'd want to watch in a mirror roam all over my body.
Everything about his appearance was well groomed.
I liked him. I liked him a lot. I hated that.
Whatever I felt about him, I kept up my end of our 'deal'. I went to talk to Mr. Bell and tell him exactly what I believed.
"Jace is way more qualified for the department executive position than I am. He should have gotten it, not me. As the closest uh p-position under you, Mr. Bell, please, I urge you to try and give him a better work position. He's very talented and s-smart."
Unlike me, who slutted myself out to get this job.
"Charlotte, I value your input a lot. Truth be told Jace was one of my top candidates for this job, but you had a certain...
liveliness
, to you, that made me choose you."
I clutched my arms around my waist.
Liveliness...that's what it was.
On Sunday night, 6 days after Jace took advantage of me, I was anxious to go back to work after being able to relax and not think about anything. How wide Mr. Bell's shoulders were, how Jace thrusted inside me nearly a week ago, how I...did that...to get this job. I shouldn't have done that. But I enjoyed doing it. But I regretted it at the same time.
I couldn't wrap my head around my emotions. I was constantly aroused now. I'd find myself alone in my office and just remember what happened there. What he did to me. It drove me insane, knowing I let those disgusting things happen, knowing how much I loved all of it.
And now, on Sunday night, after a week of build up - I had to do something.
I locked the door of my room and pulled out my vibrator.
Fuck it. I don't care. I don't care that I let Jace fuck me in the ass. I liked- no, I LOVED it!
* * *
After I fucked Charlotte, I felt like I was floating the rest of the week. Everything seemed brighter to me, work, relaxing at home, and especially seeing her look away from me all embarrassed when I'd catch her eye.
I hadn't spoken to her since what happened as I didn't want to seem overly friendly with her to my colleagues, not like any truly cared either way. I was hard almost all the time, anytime I'd see her or think of anything leading to that day I'd be turned on with no hope of losing it soon. Seeing my hateful mood change to one of pure joy after one anal fucking, maybe I didn't need a better job to be happy, I just had to get laid! Well, not really. I still wanted that job, and I didn't know why she got it over me.
I'm very sure she kept up her agreement to give me a recommendation, though I hadn't heard anything on it yet...but it all seemed so far in the past. Now whenever I think about the executive position, I think of the girl in it, and how soft her skin was, her moans, how hard she and I both came.
Maybe I wouldn't have hated her so much if she hadn't taken away something I had wanted. She was pretty, she had to be smart otherwise she wouldn't be
able
to do that job's work, she could stand up for herself...I liked her. She seemed like the type of girl I would have gone after in college. It would be nice to see her smile for real at me instead of fakely.
It would also be nice to try out her other holes for a while, but that wasn't my biggest concern.
Something also struck me as off about her. She submitted to me too easily. I acknowledge I lost my head there in the heat of the moment, but she gave in way too fast, calling me master and whatnot...maybe there was something there I could investigate.
I woke up on Monday surprisingly happy. It was the end of what felt like a long weekend, truth be told I had jacked off everyday this week, even after work on the day I pushed inside her ass. I didn't even need porn to get started, I just replayed what happened last Monday over and over and over... it didn't get old to me. The more I came thinking about her, the more I wanted to do even more with her, like in the fantasies I had before I fucked her. Collar her, tie her up more, get her fully naked instead of partially.
I decided today I'd talk to her. I'm not sure about what, I just needed more of her, her body, anything.
I rode up in the elevator alone, and it finally opened up on my floor. I strode over to my desk, taking off my black suit jacket and placing it on my chair. I briefly straightened out my clothes, trying to look as clean and trim as I could. I chose a red tie today for a reason, people unconsciously associate the color red with passion and love - so if she saw it her subconscious image of me might improve in the passion department. I felt a bit silly picking it out for that reason, but I was a subliminal mastermind.
As soon as I opened up my briefcase to take out my reports from last week, the door to Mr. Bell's office opened.
He leaned in the direction of my desk and locked eyes with me. "Jace, may I have a word please?"
My heart jumped in my chest, did he know about what happened? Was there some way? I said yes and made my way into his office. He shut and locked the door behind me. My manager motioned me to have a seat, which I did.
He walked around his desk and sat down - boy, was he tall. If Mr. Bell wasn't such a teddy bear, I'm very sure we'd all be working our hardest out of fear. His green eyes pierced me.
"Jace, I have a feeling you know why you're here. Is there anything you'd like to talk about?"