[Part 6: The Guy I Would Fuck]
Not a day went by without having thoughts of Ben. Anything of him; his smile, his body odor after using the unreachable (for me) pull up bar that he installed at the door frame.
Maybe Lin was right; I could get addicted to him. Or just that, I'm just unusually always horny.
I was just too shy to ask.
One evening I got home a bit later than my regular times, probably, one of those days that I feel like grabbing a guy and let him do me. While twisting the key in the lock, Ben opened the door from inside.
"It wasn't locked," he said, and went back towards the kitchen. His face was unhappy.
I followed him. "Something happened at work?"
"Something's happening with you," he said, in an intimidating tone. "Why the fuck do you write everything on Twitter?"
Oh poo, I thought. He found out.
"Why the fuck did you stalk me on Twitter then?" I asked back. He didn't have a Facebook account, and of course, not on Twitter too.
He did a Google search and it ended up on my Twitter. I'd take that as stalking, Googling my name when he had nothing to do.
"The tweets are public and you're letting strangers reading our stuff," he started complaining.
"What is wrong with that?" Honestly, I did it out of fun, just not to forget the little details we shared together. "Don't you find it interesting to read too?"
"It's supposed to be private," he said. "Embarrassing."