Give us euphoria
We're not in love. You don't want me to kiss you. You're opening your mouth but you're trying really hard not to. Why isn't your body listening? My tongue touches yours. You love how it feels but don't want it happening. You get what you want as my hand covers your mouth. Even if it wasn't, my hand on your throat stops prevents you from making any sound that anyone would hear. You're sure you'd make noise if you could. You're not sure it's because you want anyone to hear you. "I want someone to come help me... no... that's not what I want. I want him to silence me. No! NO! I don't want any of this! It's just that I can't stop this if I tried. Should I try? Do I want to try? I'm so scared... I love it."
I'm your friend and have been for a long time. You're thinking this is not what friends do, how he should treat me. As if I'm reading your mind you hear me say "WE are going to finally do this. This is what you're going to do. You'll be treated like I want you to be treated and you won't like it. That's a command, understood?" You don't want to lie but you don't even know which response would be the lie. I remove my hand from your mouth. In the second it takes you to respond you're thinking "I do want it? Why? Is something deeply wrong with me? No, no! NO! I do not want this!". As you open your mouth to say you don't want it, you really do NOT want this, you notice that the words just won't come out. All you can do is keep your mouth open while you look at me with a confused, scared look. It clearly turns me on, as the smirk give you makes clear.
The slap that follows turns your look into an angry one. You like pain. No, like isn't the right word. It's the one thing you want more than anything when someone is going to use your body. Abuse your body. But not from me, not like this. Not in your living room on a random evening. We we're supposed to just chill and relax as friends tonight. You like your colleague. It's new, it's fun and it's where your heart is at these days. Your angry look gets rewarded by another, harder slap. This isn't fresh, this is pain. It is fun. As I grab your wrist and twist you around, holding your arm against your back you remember why you've been so turned on by me in the past. This isn't fresh. But, it is fun. We had this fun before. But it never went much further. That thought relaxes you, this is just playing.