I had never liked John. He was one of those insanely good-looking guys, who you can tell got further on his charm than any actual skills. When I had just started at the company he would flirt with me, but I had him pegged as a player from a mile away. When I rebuffed his advances, he was incredulous, and acted like a spoiled child. As I moved up quickly through the company, his arrogance became worse and worse. I wasn't sure if he felt threatened by me or what, but by the time I was making the same pay as him, he couldn't let a single opportunity to belittle me go by. It was difficult, but during most of our encounters, I tried to be cordial and professional.
One night, we were working late on an account together. It was a huge, important client, and we had to put in extra hours. We were in his office at about 10 PM, tired and extra cranky. Things were going slowly because of his inability to cooperate. I was beginning to lose it. When I came up with a time-saving solution he declined... he had to be the one that was right. He came up with some crap about being thorough, when we both knew this wasn't about thoroughness at all. I finally broke down. I couldn't remain detached and professional if he wasn't, either.
"This is it, John," I said. "We're losing a lot of time because you won't work with me on this. You know this is an important account and I can't believe you would sacrifice your own job performance to try and get the best of me."
"You can't handle it, huh?" he said cockily. Oh god, what an asshole.
"You know what?" I said. "Why don't you just go home? I can get this done faster without you."
"You'd like that, wouldn't you? Another chance to show off to the boss." We had both been standing in front of his computer, and he moved closer in as if to cut me off. I didn't back down. I stayed put.
"I just want to get this done right," I said. "I'll even tell him you were here with me," I would say anything to get him to leave.
"I don't want you messing this up, no way," he grabbed my arm and pushed me away. It was gentle, nothing out of control, but definitely out of the ordinary.
I was tired. "Don't you push me!" I said loudly. I wanted to push him back, but this wasn't the playground.
"Deal with it," he said. Argh! "I won't," I said. "I'll just tell our manager that I can't deal with your behavior. We'll see what he thinks!" I didn't mean that I was going to claim abuse or anything, just that we couldn't work together. I started to gather my things to go home.
But he took it as just that. "I can't believe you'd go crying to him over a little shove." When I started moving towards the door, he grabbed me.
"Stop acting crazy," he said.
"I'm not the one acting crazy. Let go of me." I tried to shake him off.
This just made him madder. "Come back here, come on, we'll work this out." He pulled me back behind the desk.
"Forget it!" I yelled. "Let me go," the more I struggled, the tighter his grip became. I kicked him in the shin.
"Fuck!" he yelled, letting go of me to grab at his leg. I started to run but he blocked me, grabbed me again, and slammed me against the wall. It wasn't very painful, it's not like I was far from the wall to begin with, but we both knew things were way out of control. I knew I had to get out of there ASAP and I could tell he just wanted to make sure I would stay quiet.
He pressed up against me, holding me to the wall. Our breathing had become labored in the struggle. "Now listen to me," he said. "Just... calm down, don't you dare say anything. To anyone. We're just... we're just tired is all, we both need to relax. Right?"
I took a deep breath. "Right," I said. "Let's calm down," but he wouldn't pull away. At this point I figured it was best if I saved my energy.
But he didn't pull away. He stood there, looking in my eyes, looking for some kind of submission. I could smell his cologne... I couldn't remember the name, but it was the same kind my first boyfriend used. This close, I could see his five o'clock shadow and if possible it made him look even sexier. I briefly thought back to when he first asked me out. I'd said no, because I knew he'd never be the kind of boyfriend I wanted, and besides, we were coworkers. But it felt good to have the attention of such an attractive man. As we stood there, my chest heaved against his. He looked down, either in shame, or just an attempt to look at my cleavage, but the latter was inevitable. I could feel his breath on my neck. I hoped he couldn't feel it between our shirts, but my nipples were beginning to get hard. I don't know if it was from fear or friction or what.
Suddenly I felt his erection, creeping up against my thigh. My heart skipped a beat, I was getting excited. But at the same time, I knew this was crazy. Without really thinking, using all my strength I pushed him off of me, and again ran for the door.
Again he caught me before I made it two steps, and pushed me face first onto the desk. His hands pinned my wrists down and he threw his body on top of mine. I thrashed about as hard as I could, almost throwing him off but never quite succeeding.
"I thought you were going to calm down!" he yelled.
"What about you? Let me go!" I responded.
"Not until you learn who's boss around here," he growled.
"You're not my boss," I said. "Get off me, you fucking sicko."