Being cheated upon is the worst thing that can happen to somebody. Especially, if your partner of 5 years does that to you. It can wreck you, and bring you down to the lowest point of your self-esteem, your confidence and your life.
Hi, my name is Priyank and I am a victim of cheating. In fact, I am so messed up by it that I don't even know if I'm a victim anymore, or just one of those cuckold men I used to despise. I guess a little bit of both.
I...I really don't know where to start, but I just want to put the entire thing out there. How my girlfriend, the love of my life, for whom I did everything, just disrespected me and my feelings. I will cover every aspect in detail, so that you suffer with me, or enjoy the pain, just like me.
Sakshi and I started dating in the first year of college. She came to Delhi from Meerut, from a low middle class family. But she had dreams in her eyes. She was confident, ambitious and the prettiest girl in the entire college.
I was her senior by one year. Not to brag, but I was one of the most sought-after boys in college. I'm 6'1, athletic, and an undisputed debate champion. But, I didn't join journalism to get girls, I wanted to make a difference. So, along with the usual studies, I was big on arranging and participating in debates while running the college periodical, financed entirely by me.
When Sakshi joined college, the pants of all boys was on fire. She was the talk of the campus, but I paid little to no heed. That is until, she first participated in a debate. I was the moderator. The debate was on "Why Gender Equity is more important than Equality!" Half of the participants weren't even sure what equity really meant, and then there was Sakshi.
She stunned the entire college as people who had come in just to admire her beauty, were left in awe by her talent. Slowly, I made attempts to know her better. She was so well read...and a staunch believer in gender equality, just like me.
Anyway, not to stereotype, but she is not like the other feminists who are, to put it mildly, not that attractive or feminine. She is gorgeous! Hailing from Meerut, she has that air of grace around her that girls from Uttar Pradesh usually have. She always wears long kurtas with pants. Her hair are long and black, which cascade down her shoulder in waves. Her wrists are always covered with silver bangles which immaculately match her silver earrings and necklace, of which she has a fair collection.
Her eyes are big and round, always adorned by kajal which complements her perfectly dark eyebrows and lashes. She stands at 5'6 with a slender build and firm breasts. So, I guess you get it. It's none of that blue-haired anomalies with piercings everywhere and highlights of facial hair.
So, her looks and her intellect drove me towards her madly. Luckily, she felt the same for me, and we got into a relationship within a couple of months. It was beautiful! She took some time to open up for sex since she was molested by her uncle when she was young. Her uncle, her father's eldest brother, was a fat prick who used to touch her inappropriately. One day, she slapped him.
To her surprise, the entire family reacted AGAINST her! No one believer her except her mother. Not even her own father believed her. The drama caused a lot of chaos in the family and eventually Sakshi and her mother started living separately. Her mother, a fierce lady, worked odd jobs to make sure Sakshi studied well. That was how and why her journey of being a feminist was so important to her. And that's what drove her to journalism.
Sakshi knew I loved her a lot and respected her boundaries, but still whenever I tried to get too close, she would push me away. We finally managed to have sex deep into the 2
nd
year of our relationship. I got frustrated sometimes, but I kept all emotions bottled. Nothing was more important to me than her. Even when we finally fucked, it wasn't consistent.
I like to be wild in bed, but she would get scared even if I tried to spank her. The fear in her eyes would put me off and kill the mood. She was even afraid of giving me a blowjob or to get hickeys. It's not her fault, but this elephant in the room kept on getting bigger and bigger. I guess it was this sexual frustration that led us to our first major fight.
This brings us to just two months ago. When my world was turned upside down. Back then, we were practically living together. But, one evening, she asked me to make some tea. But I was super tired so I asked her to make it herself. She got so pissed and started blaming it all on patriarchy.
I did not anticipate that she would react like this. The rift kept on worsening as I raised my voice in retaliation to her shouting, and she ended up leaving the house.
"I am done with men! I mean, I thought you're one of the genuine ones, but no, patriarchy runs deep in your veins as well. Enough of this oppression. You all are just creeps and rapists! Don't touch me. Let me go! I hate you. I hate all men!"
We broke up!
The days we spent apart were painful. We couldn't function normally, which was awful for two individuals so passionate about their career. We knew we were a team, and romantically involved or now, we couldn't take down the rich, misogynistic bastards alone. With that in mind, we decided to give our relationship another go. To take things slow, while still searching for that old love.
That's when we decided to take a trip. *The* trip! An outing which changed us forever and ever. Our plan was to go to Manali, everything was in place, all itinerary set when there was a last-minute change of plan.
To give a bit of context, I had rented a flat in New Delhi from Mr. Sanjay Singh Ahlawat, a 65 year old businessman turned aspiring politician. Now Mr. Ahlawat is as misogynistic as it gets. He was basically the embodiment of what me and Sakshi had pledged to fight against. But, running the newspaper without having a stable job, I was always low on budget. And Mr. Ahlawat rented out a 2 room apartment to me for the cheapest price in that area.
Sakshi hated him! She said he reminded her of her asshole uncle who molested her. But, I was helpless. I had signed a contract with him to not vacate the place for 2 years, while the rent remained the same. It sounded like a great deal back then! Mr. Ahlawat lived just next door, and sometimes his wife would even send us delicious home cooked meals.
Whenever Sakshi visited me, he would stare her so bad that it seemed like he was fucking her with his gaze. She always felt super uncomfortable. In fact, in the early days, it was one of the reasons she wouldn't have sex with me. The old man's staring would make her so anxious and reintroduce past trauma in her head, making sex a very stressful act. When I finally took her virginity, it was in a hotel, miles away from my place.
So, it should come as little surprise that when Mr. Ahlawat offered us to visit Manali with them, Sakshi blatantly refused. She looked at me and I stammered while saying no.
"We'll stay in a luxurious camp. It is my friend's camp, so he gives amazing discounts. And the entire trip's on me
baccho!"
He looked super sweet when he treated me like a kid. The deal was amazing. To stay in one of those glamping tentsβglamour and nature, that's exactly what our relationship needed. Plus, we could go in their Beamer.
"We're in, Ahlawat uncle!"
"That's great! You know, your aunty and I know the best spots there. And the best "private" spots as well for you know...we used to hang out there a lot when we were young, right Meenal ji?" He giggled.
His wife shyly hit her shoulder and said: "
Baccho ke saamne yeh sab..."
(Don't talk like this in front of these kids.)
Meenal was 60 years old. She was the stark opposite of her husband. Her hair were still black, her skin taut, a youthful glow shone on her face. Mr. Ahlawat on the other hand was balding in the middle of his head, his hair were salt and pepper with more salt than pepper. His tummy extended as far as half an arm. Though he was fat, he stood quite strong as a rock. It was almost like an older Tony Soprano if he was born in Haryana. He had a notorious smile as well which made him look super creepy. Somewhat like those that 90s Bollywood villains used to have.
They had a son who was the same age as us. He was studying in Canada. So, they were really looking forward to this trip with us. They didn't want to travel alone.
Finally, it was decided. We would go with them. Sakshi was super pissed when we went back to my place. But I knew she would love the trip! Little did I know that she would end up loving it a little too much!
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So, one chilly Saturday morning, we drove off to Manali. Mr. Ahlawat and his wife sat in the front, me and Sakshi cuddled up in the back. It was late November, so the cold had only started creeping in. And we knew that the closer we are to the hills, the colder it would get. It wasn't any issue though, we had packed accordingly.
Mr. Ahlawat drove non-stop with a 10-minute loo and tea break in between. He wanted to get out of the city traffic before peak hours made it worse. Finally, we were on the hills. There was such a stark difference in the air, its smell and its quality. You could literally smell nature.
Sakshi and I got closer and she rested her head on my lap. I moved my hands over her hair, caressing her head. I loved doing that. The vibes and the closeness made her a little horny and she sneakily kissed my neck. It shook me out of my sleepy zone and sent a rushed signal down to my dick. I got a boner!
I tried to adjust my pants to hide it, and just then something happened. It was a bind turn and a car just whizzed past usβno horn, no signal nothing. It was thanks to Mr. Ahlawat's alertness that we escaped unscathed.
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