Hello, I'm Joanna but you can call me Jo, everybody else does. I've been married to Tony for just over five years and we were deeply in love with each other.
It was a shotgun marriage as I was pregnant. We were both overjoyed as we both wanted children. That joy turned to heartbreak when I miscarried.
We didn't have much but we were happy enough with our lives and decided to try again for a child as soon as the doctor said it was OK. Pregnancy didn't happen but we kept trying. Oh boy, did we try.
I remember the trying. Sunday mornings with me riding his cock, then laying back with a pillow under my bum and legs held high to keep his sperm in. This pose usually resulting in him pounding me again and giving me another load.
Both of us were working full time jobs. Tony was a labourer for a local builder and I was an accounts clerk for a department store. Neither job paid well but we managed to pay the rent on our furnished one bedroom flat and have enough left over to live a moderate life.
Luxuries were rare but we didn't care. We took walks in the park on sunny days. We spent evenings snuggled together in front of the TV, which often resulted in more trying.
Over time we noticed that the price of everything was going up and our money was being stretched further. It was getting harder to live.
Things suddenly got much worse. The builder that Tony worked for went bust and Tony was out of a job. He claimed unemployment benefit but it was a lot less than he was earning. We were now in deep trouble.
I managed to get a Saturday job at a local supermarket, which helped a little. Tony spent a lot of time trying to find work without success. He used to do a few jobs on the side but even those dried up as others didn't have any money either.
Our meagre savings soon disappeared. I was a regular visitor at our local food bank, and bought the reduced items from the supermarket I worked at. My employee discount helped.
Despite this there was never enough food. We were both losing weight and our clothes no longer fitted well but we couldn't afford to buy more.
We couldn't afford to have the heating on at home and we spent our time under blankets.
Tony was upset that he couldn't find work and felt he wasn't pulling his weight. I assured him that it was OK and we were in it together and would get through it. It didn't work and Tony gradually fell into depression.
I supported him as best I could and tried to get him to seek help, but he wasn't interested.
He got worse. Some days he never got out of bed. If he did get out of bed he just slumped on the sofa in his pyjamas. He didn't shower or shave and began to stink. I still loved him but found it hard to be around him. Naturally, our love life ceased to exist.
A combination of lack of food, long hours and stress caused my work to suffer. I made some silly mistakes and had disciplinary action against me. I had a final warning. Another mistake and I would be out of a job.
Desperate to keep my work right, I slowed down and double checked everything. I ended up working late to keep up to date. It was warmer at the office than at home and Tony never noticed if I was there or not.
I managed to keep it up for about three months, but it was exhausting. I knew I would make a mistake sooner or later. It turned out to be sooner.
There was a guy in the office called Phil, who seemed to take a fancy to me. God knows why, given the state I was in. He kept on asking me out and I had to keep telling him I was happily married. In the break room, he seemed to close to me all the time. It was disconcerting.
Phil was a loud mouthed braggart who was always going on about how good he was in bed and that was why he was engaged to Lisa, the daughter of the owner of the company. They were due to get married in a couple of weeks time.
One Wednesday morning, Phil came to me and said.
"Hi Jo. I have a problem and I'm hoping you can help me with it."
"If I can, I will"
"I found a mistake and I don;t know what to do about it."
"Oh! No. I hope it's not one of mine."
"Sorry, but it is. I should really report it but I wanted to speak to you first."
"What did I do?" I asked, wondering if I could fix it.
"You paid one of our supplier invoices twice and it was quite a large amount."
Thanks for telling me, Phil. I'll get onto them and ask them to repay it" Relieved that there was a solution.
"That won't work, Jo. They went bankrupt yesterday."
"Oh! God. I'm in so much trouble now"
"Maybe I can help"
"How?
"I won't report it. It will come out when we are audited but it will save your job for now"
"Wow. Thanks, Phil. You're a life saver"
"There is one condition"
"What's that?"
"I want to fuck you."