Trigger Warning: This content covers non-consensual, toys and BDSM play, spousal rape.
I was stuck, standing there looking at my husband with a guilty look on my face, nothing I could say would make the moment any less intense. He was standing there holding my laptop, which I already knew was pulled up on it that had him so fucking pissed. I was only planning on being gone to the gym for a little bit and being back before he got back from work but then had ended up staying in the sauna for too long. I had fallen asleep and after an hour I woke up dehydrated and dripping wet from sweat. Stepping out of the sauna, I had felt like something was off, at the time I thought it was from being dehydrated but I would soon find out it was from him finding out.
I had started my Only Fans account as a way to earn extra income during the pandemic since I had lost my job due to the shutdowns. Taking to working from home, I was making a decent income. I lied to Eric that I found work doing freelance writing, he believed me because he was busy keeping up with his job, the bills were getting paid so he didn't much question me past how my day was.
He handed my laptop to me and gritted through his teeth, "what the fuck, Jess! ". I met his gaze, his eyes locked onto mine and I found I couldn't stop staring at him and taking in the fullness of his disappointment and feelings of betrayal. I could sense it in his breath his eyes were screaming that he wished he could slap the shit out of me. He was not abusive in any way and had always treated me with respect, I had considered that me doing this might hurt him if he ever found out but he was more than hurt. He was pissed. I was still pretty dehydrated from the sauna and standing there I felt my blood pressure spike and my heart drop into my stomach. I couldn't even figure out what to say at that moment, I just stared at him.
"When the fuck did you start this? Is this how you've been making money? Do you meet any of these motherfuckers "... He spat out question after question, then continued, "I didn't need you to help in this way, you're selling yourself online and those motherfuckers are paying you to do that shit?? I'm fucking disgusted Jess! I don't care about the money if this is what you're going to do to get it. I do nothing but support you and I would never have done something like this, you're acting like a slut, you like degrading yourself and you're willing to make money being a whore! "
His words hurt as they bore into me and I felt ashamed from his verbal assault, I pulled my jacket tighter around me, tore my gaze from his, and started to walk towards the kitchen. I needed water and I had no idea what to say except, "I need water Eric, I feel like I'm going to pass out ". He watched me as I grabbed a glass and got water from the faucet, gulping down two glasses, and then stood facing the sink, I heard him take a deep breath and then put the laptop down on the counter.
In a flat tone, he said, "Obviously you need to have a moment, I need some time then me and you are going to talk". I waited until I heard the front door shut before I turned around to face the kitchen island, sitting there open to my fan page was evidence of all of the "work" that I had been doing for the past year. Also, open was my online account statement for the other account I had opened to hide the excess that I was earning. The checking account had over $200k in it and the statement of all of my "work" purchases that I had made to buy toys and lingerie was visible.