Β© LIPrulz July 2008
(8th in the sequence of Jasmin)
---Intro---
These events took place the day after Jasmin found out that explicit and humiliating photographs of her were in the possession of an unknown number of other people that knew her. These made her vulnerable to more humiliation by threats of exposure to me, her fiancΓ© at the time. The course of reaction that Jasmin took was largely due to her partly Japanese upbringing and the shame she was living with every day, unwilling to share it with anyone and even and especially myself.
I have learned of these events years later by Jasmin's secret diary. Only after that have I been able to get Jasmin to talk about them. To answer any question as to why I am writing about these events it is because Jasmin herself asked me to. The reader no doubt expects that all names, most places and times are different so our anonymity is secure. That is indeed the case. To tell me and then read about what I have written has been particularly cathartic for Jasmin. She is stronger for it.
For anyone else that just wants to read a sex story: It is our hope that you enjoy the episodes. Jasmin is fine with them. As she was at the heart of them she knows how turned on she was at times and also how hot the various men were for her. And there is no doubt for me that they still want her back.
It was around the early to mid 90s. At the time Jasmin was 19 and living in Sydney. Her mother, Lorelle was I don't know how old at the time... and who cares? I am Damien and I was nearly 24. Graham had just turned 21. Jasmin's appearance is an Aussie-Japanese mix and she favours the Aussie genes, though not her mother's looks thank goodness. Jasmin's Japanese heritage makes her exotic, her almond eyes lending her a sultry mystique. She stands about 5'5" with an expressive high cheek boned face, lovely long eye lashes which add to her mystique and a wide smile from typically full Asian pouting lips. Her shiny black hair was long even then to the middle of her back. Jasmin's hair beautifully frames her face, quite alluring as she turns about. Her measurements at 19 were about 34-24-35 with a B cup holding very perky breasts with long sensitive nipples. She padded her bras, both to hide her nipples and limit the friction on them. I think the main reason though when Jasmin was younger was because she was too self-conscious.
---Jasmin's Words---
I didn't even want to look at the time when my brother woke me Saturday morning, I was so exhausted. I didn't want to think about anything right then. My life was too depressing.
Only a couple of hours before I had briefly been with my fiancΓ© and I was desperately unhappy. I loved him more than anything and we had seen each other for the last time. I hadn't told him we were finished because I thought I couldn't bear to put him through so much pain. But the truth was that I was too much of a coward to openly tell him. I had not even taken him the engagement ring, thinking maybe that I could post it to him later. It was still hidden away in my room so that my mother wouldn't find out we were engaged.
Today I was going to have a new boyfriend, Graham. He met with my mother's approval, little did she know the true nature of his despicable character. I would marry him though if he asked me to even though I hated him. Why would I?
Because this way was the only way I could see to regain control over my own life. If I was with Graham then no one could blackmail me into sex because I didn't care if they told Graham what they knew.
Of course I might have gone to the police, even my fiancΓ© was a policeman. First, I had been raped, of that I was clear and I'm sure the police would believe me. Unfortunately, there were no witnesses that would be on my side from any of the occurrences. Nobody knew what happened to me at the pool and only my younger brother might have an inkling of what had happened at Ed's place. Sure there was evidence of my rape at the party two months ago; I was badly bruised then and of course there had been their DNA at the time. The bruises were gone now, thank God that Damien didn't see them. Maybe some people at that party would be of a mind and good enough to give evidence. But that would put me in court and the newspapers and the whole country would know what had happened to me. Apart from the humiliation any regular woman would feel from that, part of my upbringing had been with my Japanese father and I had lived in Japan for a little while. Culturally I am pretty much dinky di Aussie but personally my feelings, my emotions and reactions to things that happen to me are very Japanese.
I could maintain my self worth only by internalising, keeping the humiliation I had been put through to myself. If Damien found out I couldn't have lived with the shame. It was this that was being used so well against me only the night before. So this morning around dawn I had broken up with Damien though he didn't know it yet.
When I was ready for the day I came downstairs. My younger brother, David, my mother and Graham were all ready and waiting for me. They were in casual comfortable clothes just as I was.
I saw my mother was moving around quite freely and so I knew for sure that she hadn't hurt her hip at the party the night before. I was too tired, defeated and sad to be bothered glaring at her or dropping any sarcastic remarks about her miracle healing. They all wished me good morning and Graham said he was sorry he hadn't been able to drop me back home after the party himself.
His meaningful look didn't phase me then either. I said a cheery good morning to everyone and that I was ready to go. Mum checked the backpack I had to see what clothes I had packed. Mornings in the mountains could be very cold and the heater in the caravan was in the middle, not close enough to the bedrooms for me.
Out of hearing of Graham and David she said I looked nice. I said back to her, "I thought Graham would like it."
If I wasn't so sad I might have laughed at the surprised expression on my mother's face. "Well..." was all she said, at a loss for words.
I was wearing a knee length white cotton skirt with a black long sleeved v-necked hooded pullover. With the tan coloured stockings I had on I would be quite warm enough at least until night. My footwear consisted of the hiking boots I always wore to the mountains. My mother was just happy I wasn't wearing a pair of jeans. I had taken to wearing jeans any time that Damien wasn't visiting, except for the party last night, and it was really cheesing mum off. If she knew just what kind of stockings I had on she would have been more worried but I no longer cared. I might have a solution to stop the humiliation from continuing but I had never been so unhappy either and so I really didn't care any more about anything.
When we went out to the van, mum asked if I wanted to sit in the back with Graham. She said David would sit in the front with her and we could put our bags behind the front seat. Mum was organising it so I had a bit of privacy with Graham. How embarrassing. I said I didn't mind.
I was asleep almost immediately we pulled out onto the road. It was about a three hour drive in the stupid van and I hated it so I was glad to sleep.