I finally settle down in my bed. Though I'd promised him months ago to leave any 'electronics' downstairs to help me sleep, tonight I feel as though communication may be important.
Besides, I need to read what he's written (his demand, if you like) and follow his instructions to the letter. However, he also said I can resist if I'm uncomfortable with what he's written. If that's the case (and resisting his insistent sexual advances is a rarity!) I've decided that I will pull on something akin to a Wincyette nightie and give the 'observation cameras' the thumbs down (he's someone who seems unable to take 'no' for an answer, so I need to be as clear as possible.)
The 'Observation Cameras'? He'd offered me 'CCTV' many years ago. He came and set it up and got it working. I'd suggested that it should be near the front door.
"What the fuck are you talking about? This is going in your fucking bedroom!"
I had, as with virtually everything he ever said, accepted it as if it were perfectly normal and the feeling of being constantly monitored and observed by him (and instructed by him) was and is, I have to admit, delicious and always a huge turn on.
Knowing that there's even a vague possibility of a visit from my younger, virile and seemingly insatiable lover fills my stomach with butterflies and my pussy is twitchy. And the thought of him entering me creates wetness as though my sexual tap has been turned on.
Before I finally retired for the night, I had followed his 'pre-bed' instructions.
After allowing the dogs out for a quick stroll around the garden, I put them downstairs in my semi-basement kitchen out of the way (he didn't want them barking if he arrived 'unexpectedly'. Or worse, if they mistook him for an unwanted intruder.)
Then I brewed myself the special tea he'd had delivered some days earlier. It was pleasant to taste and the warmth was welcome as I involuntarily shivered for some inexplicable reason. I stared out of the window briefly and the darkness outside from my half-basement window seemed impenetrable.
'Is someone watching out there'? I wondered.
I normally feel safe and secure but tonight there'd already been an edge. He wouldn't do anything...foolish, would he?
I then dug out the small tablet he'd also delivered. I'd been less than happy about this but he assured me he'd never give me anything that would harm me. Anyone watching me with the pill in my hand, contemplating ingesting it on the say-so of my controlling partner would be screaming at me and asking me what the hell I thought I was doing? I'd asked myself that same question many times. I went to the sink and picked up a glass, filling it with water and knocking back the pill before I could change my mind.
I bade the dogs a good night and I came upstairs to the ground floor and then opened the enormous and impressive front door. I gingerly walked down the stairs and placed the front door key behind the cat statue which stood in the prickly bush. A twig snapped and I jolted upright, not breathing. Again, I stared into the blackness; the overgrown and over-bearing bushes crowding in on me. Beyond them was the orange hue of street-lighting. After the briefest of pauses, I quickly hopped up the stairs and firmly closed the door now wondering if I'd imagined it.
I waited, looked at the mat and concentrated my attention on hearing sounds from the garden.
Nothing.
I slowly climbed the stairs and carried out my nightly routine of showering; the hot water and liquid soap immediately relaxing me. My hands went effortlessly to my breasts, enjoying their fullness. Then I ventured down to my pussy, pushing a finger inside and pressing against my clitoris; my mouth opened and I let out a tiny gasp. I took a razor and let it glide over my already perfectly bare pussy to attempt ultimate Barbie-style smoothness. Again, I gasped as I remembered his tongue urgently lapping at my bare pussy. I dried myself and brushed my teeth trying to calm my beating heart.
I strode into my room, naked and proud. I plugged in my phone and then made sure that the special vibrator with the sucking clitoral stimulator was charged as per his instructions. At last I was ready to read his prose.
I climbed into bed, still naked: Clothing decisions (he'd said, cryptically) could be made after the story had been digested.
So here I am, ready. My breathing should be calm but somehow the fluttering in my pussy is affecting my ability to take in air. I can feel my cheeks flushing and I'm aware of feeling slightly overheated. I throw the duvet off my toned legs, leaving some duvet covering my tummy. I begin to feel a little heavy lidded too and begin to wonder what was in the tea I brewed. And what was in the tablet I took down in the kitchen? I'm still convinced he'd do nothing outlandish or...dangerous?
I dismiss all of this and just put my seemingly soaring temperature down to excitement and trepidation.
I read the story which immediately awakens me!
It's a story of...me. My life (or at least an aspect of it) with some sudden deviances into fantasy ('As if...' I say at one point.) It feels almost like a new genre of eroticism. Tailor-made for those who enjoy the game of 'control' in a safe environment. But he is a good writer and I'm suitably turned on by the time I finish. I'm desperate for him to come to me sooner rather than later. After I've finished reading, I stare at the ceiling for a while and then throw the covers off and climb out of bed. I quickly check my cupboards and find some sky-high heeled knee length boots. I also dig out a sexy, tiny thong. I pull both on feeling a little ridiculous at the idea of wearing boots in bed but those were his instructions (and I DO feel sexy wearing them.) I grab the sucking vibrator which I place on the night stand next to the bed and climb back in, pulling the covers over me.
There's a ping from my phone.
I read.
"Very nice and I'm glad you've decided to bow to my demands!"
I smile and moisture flows freshly to my already wet pussy.
Another message.
"Before you go to sleep, I want you to show me obedience. I want you to go downstairs. Go out of the front door, down your steps, across your gravel drive and walk once around your car. Then come back. Don't put any extra clothes on."
I laugh out loud. He's watching, no doubt, and I hope he hears me because that is a laugh I use when I have no intention of...
Another message.
"Do it now. It might save you from a rougher night later."
I pause for a moment.
Something in his words makes me nervous and not just for the obvious reason of not wishing to go out in the cold night air almost completely naked. There's steel in his words.
I throw the covers off again. I have decided to accept his challenge but I need to do it quickly before I change my mind and realise I'm being stupid.
I walk down the stairs, quietly giggling and shaking my head at the absurdity. My high heels, clomp a step at a time. The air becomes cooler as I approach the front door and my nipples protrude and harden (as much a reaction to the situation as the cooler air.)