I finally settle down in my bed. Though I'd promised him months ago to leave any 'electronics' downstairs to help me sleep, tonight I feel as though communication may be important.
Besides, I need to read what he's written (his demand, if you like) and follow his instructions to the letter. However, he also said I can resist if I'm uncomfortable with what he's written. If that's the case (and resisting his insistent sexual advances is a rarity!) I've decided that I will pull on something akin to a Wincyette nightie and give the 'observation cameras' the thumbs down (he's someone who seems unable to take 'no' for an answer, so I need to be as clear as possible.)
The 'Observation Cameras'? He'd offered me 'CCTV' many years ago. He came and set it up and got it working. I'd suggested that it should be near the front door.
"What the fuck are you talking about? This is going in your fucking bedroom!"
I had, as with virtually everything he ever said, accepted it as if it were perfectly normal and the feeling of being constantly monitored and observed by him (and instructed by him) was and is, I have to admit, delicious and always a huge turn on.
Knowing that there's even a vague possibility of a visit from my younger, virile and seemingly insatiable lover fills my stomach with butterflies and my pussy is twitchy. And the thought of him entering me creates wetness as though my sexual tap has been turned on.
Before I finally retired for the night, I had followed his 'pre-bed' instructions.
After allowing the dogs out for a quick stroll around the garden, I put them downstairs in my semi-basement kitchen out of the way (he didn't want them barking if he arrived 'unexpectedly'. Or worse, if they mistook him for an unwanted intruder.)
Then I brewed myself the special tea he'd had delivered some days earlier. It was pleasant to taste and the warmth was welcome as I involuntarily shivered for some inexplicable reason. I stared out of the window briefly and the darkness outside from my half-basement window seemed impenetrable.
'Is someone watching out there'? I wondered.
I normally feel safe and secure but tonight there'd already been an edge. He wouldn't do anything...foolish, would he?
I then dug out the small tablet he'd also delivered. I'd been less than happy about this but he assured me he'd never give me anything that would harm me. Anyone watching me with the pill in my hand, contemplating ingesting it on the say-so of my controlling partner would be screaming at me and asking me what the hell I thought I was doing? I'd asked myself that same question many times. I went to the sink and picked up a glass, filling it with water and knocking back the pill before I could change my mind.
I bade the dogs a good night and I came upstairs to the ground floor and then opened the enormous and impressive front door. I gingerly walked down the stairs and placed the front door key behind the cat statue which stood in the prickly bush. A twig snapped and I jolted upright, not breathing. Again, I stared into the blackness; the overgrown and over-bearing bushes crowding in on me. Beyond them was the orange hue of street-lighting. After the briefest of pauses, I quickly hopped up the stairs and firmly closed the door now wondering if I'd imagined it.
I waited, looked at the mat and concentrated my attention on hearing sounds from the garden.
Nothing.
I slowly climbed the stairs and carried out my nightly routine of showering; the hot water and liquid soap immediately relaxing me. My hands went effortlessly to my breasts, enjoying their fullness. Then I ventured down to my pussy, pushing a finger inside and pressing against my clitoris; my mouth opened and I let out a tiny gasp. I took a razor and let it glide over my already perfectly bare pussy to attempt ultimate Barbie-style smoothness. Again, I gasped as I remembered his tongue urgently lapping at my bare pussy. I dried myself and brushed my teeth trying to calm my beating heart.
I strode into my room, naked and proud. I plugged in my phone and then made sure that the special vibrator with the sucking clitoral stimulator was charged as per his instructions. At last I was ready to read his prose.
I climbed into bed, still naked: Clothing decisions (he'd said, cryptically) could be made after the story had been digested.
So here I am, ready. My breathing should be calm but somehow the fluttering in my pussy is affecting my ability to take in air. I can feel my cheeks flushing and I'm aware of feeling slightly overheated. I throw the duvet off my toned legs, leaving some duvet covering my tummy. I begin to feel a little heavy lidded too and begin to wonder what was in the tea I brewed. And what was in the tablet I took down in the kitchen? I'm still convinced he'd do nothing outlandish or...dangerous?
I dismiss all of this and just put my seemingly soaring temperature down to excitement and trepidation.
I read the story which immediately awakens me!
It's a story of...me. My life (or at least an aspect of it) with some sudden deviances into fantasy ('As if...' I say at one point.) It feels almost like a new genre of eroticism. Tailor-made for those who enjoy the game of 'control' in a safe environment. But he is a good writer and I'm suitably turned on by the time I finish. I'm desperate for him to come to me sooner rather than later. After I've finished reading, I stare at the ceiling for a while and then throw the covers off and climb out of bed. I quickly check my cupboards and find some sky-high heeled knee length boots. I also dig out a sexy, tiny thong. I pull both on feeling a little ridiculous at the idea of wearing boots in bed but those were his instructions (and I DO feel sexy wearing them.) I grab the sucking vibrator which I place on the night stand next to the bed and climb back in, pulling the covers over me.
There's a ping from my phone.
I read.
"Very nice and I'm glad you've decided to bow to my demands!"
I smile and moisture flows freshly to my already wet pussy.
Another message.
"Before you go to sleep, I want you to show me obedience. I want you to go downstairs. Go out of the front door, down your steps, across your gravel drive and walk once around your car. Then come back. Don't put any extra clothes on."
I laugh out loud. He's watching, no doubt, and I hope he hears me because that is a laugh I use when I have no intention of...
Another message.
"Do it now. It might save you from a rougher night later."
I pause for a moment.
Something in his words makes me nervous and not just for the obvious reason of not wishing to go out in the cold night air almost completely naked. There's steel in his words.
I throw the covers off again. I have decided to accept his challenge but I need to do it quickly before I change my mind and realise I'm being stupid.
I walk down the stairs, quietly giggling and shaking my head at the absurdity. My high heels, clomp a step at a time. The air becomes cooler as I approach the front door and my nipples protrude and harden (as much a reaction to the situation as the cooler air.)
After the briefest of pauses, I gingerly open the door and peak out. The night is silent apart from a distant car engine. As I attune my ears, I can hear distant laughter coming from the park - young people, no doubt, enjoying their mild civil disobedience.
Satisfied that the coast is clear, I step out. There are three security cameras out here and I know he'll not only be watching, he'll be expecting me to scamper across with one arm covering my huge tits. So I decide to pull my shoulders back and push my tits out. I walk down the stone steps and onto the gravel. My heels crunch and the sound seems deafening in the still air. At the bottom of the stairs, I'm largely hidden from view; bushes and small trees protecting me from all sides. I begin, walking proudly and confidently across the gravel. Halfway to the car I stop as I hear a car turn into my quiet road. I wait for it to pass by, confident that I'm in the shaded part of my garden and hidden behind a high wall and more foliage. Once it's passed by, I press on.
As I approach the wooden gates of my drive, I pause again, straining my ears to hear any approaching footsteps or any further cars.
I decide to do the difficult bit first.
My car is parked in the drive, nose-first. Walking around the back of the car means I will be some two to three feet from the very public footpath next to the road. On the other side of the road is another path and beyond that the giant gated park. Anyone walking or driving (or staring through the iron railing of the park) would see me. I calculate that I will be 'exposed' for about two to three seconds.
I'm by the gate, leaning. I know that if I suddenly hear someone walking by whilst standing here, I can duck down and will be hidden from view as they stroll by. My heart is thumping. This next move feels like a bungee-style 'leap-of-faith' but I tell myself I'm being silly and that it'll be over quickly if I can just steel myself.
But I'm not moving a muscle and I'm barely controlling my breathing. All of my senses are alive and switched on as I as I attempt to make sure I will remain invisible to those outside my walls.
I look down at my nakedness. My nipples are harder and more pointed than I've ever seen them. The streetlight catches my skin and I have goosebumps. But the sight of my toned and naked body is clearly an aphrodisiac as I feel a wave of wet warmth flood my pussy and I squirm, letting out a relaxing breath.
I'm finally ready.
I take a breath and quickly walk toward the car. The left side of my body is exposed to the street and orange lighting of the streetlamp while my right side brushes the back of the car.
Almost at the corner of my car, I place my hands on the its spoiler to pull myself around to the relative safety of the far side (where more undergrowth will help to hide me.)
I feel it before I hear it.
Someone whistles. A builder's whistle of approval by the sound of it. Mortified, I carry on as quickly as I can to the front of the car before turning and hunkering down, embarrassed.
"Fuck!" I curse my 'master'.
I poke my head out and see a man, relatively young-looking, leaning against the gates of the park opposite, glaring into my garden, clearly searching with his eyes for the naked woman he's just seen. He seems to be staring straight at me but I know he can't possibly see me.
I watch with growing horror as he crosses the road, nonchalantly checking for traffic.
Panic grips me and I don't know what to do.
Behind me is a small garden area with a covering of grass. To my left is the gravel drive over which I've just walked and the relative safety of my house. But if I go now, he will see me. And worse, as I'm in high heels, he would stand a good chance of catching me and dragging me away...or inside.