Too damn slow, that was my problem. There was a group of them. College students from Japan, Korea, somewhere like that. We were in the waiting room, in Innsbruck, waiting for the overnight bus to Geneva in Switzerland. They had a couple of older women with them. Lecturers or something. A couple of parents perhaps. Some of the students looked mouth-wateringly cute. Lovely sloe eyes, long silky hair that some of them had in pony tails. Parkas, of course. In some cases almost enveloping them entirely. Some had their hoods up, as it was cold. When the bus arrived the boarding was orderly. We all had seat numbers allocated. I was in the second last row, by the window. Another guy next to me, (just my lousy luck!). Two of the oriental students were in the seats behind me, the last row on the bus. The other side was the toilet, with a big "Our of Order" sign on the door.
Once we started off there was a bit of seat swapping went on. Mostly involving the students. Going for empty seats so they could stretch out. This left just one of them in the seat behind me. That's when I should have made my move. But I didn't. More fool me. The bus set off. It's an eight hour trip from Innsbruck to Geneva so I settled down to sleep.
Facing the window I could see the reflection of the pretty student behind me. She was curled up, facing the window, same as me. When she saw me watching she gave me a smile. Sweet smile. Full of friendship. Invitation ... almost. I sorta melted. It's been a while since someone as pretty as that smiled at me. I nodded back. That was the second time I was too damn slow. I should have moved right then. Should have excused myself from my overweight neighbour, who smelled of pipe tobacco. Climbed past him. Slipped into the back seat with the sweet oriental college girl, visiting Europe, who smiles. That would have been that. Eight hours of promise. Maybe even bliss. Who knew? But I didn't move. I just sat there, turned to the window, looking at her reflection in the window. Kinda longingly. She saw me looking. Smiled again. I turned away, like the indecisive asshole I sometimes am.
After we'd been going for ten minutes or so, heading out the city, we stopped at another bus station and a few more people got on. One of them was around my age and it seemed there was someone in his seat. But as some of the passengers were already asleep – and perhaps he really didn't care where he sat – this guy – a manual worker of some sort, late thirties, I guess, carrying a bag – came right up the back of the bus and found himself at the spare seat behind me. The student was already turned in the corner, head on the window, legs curled up beneath her, eyes closed.
The guy looked back down the bus. Most others had already found a seat. There was no-one left in the aisle so this place was obviously free. Which is when I cursed myself. If I had been faster on my feet I would be sitting there, beside the girl, someone sweet to talk to, pass the time with, and he'd be squeezing in here, next to the pipe tobacco that I had drawn, and who had now starting snoring. I watched the guy stow his bag, take his parka off, slip into the seat in the aisle, careful not to wake his neighbour.
So that, I figured to myself, was pretty much that.
I reclined my seat as far as it would go, curled myself up in a ball, facing the window, and closed my eyes. How much later it was that something made me open my eyes I have no idea – I'd been dreaming about a football game for some reason or other – but we were well into the darkness of countryside when I did. Not a light outside. We seemed to be climbing some sort of a mountain pass. The snow on the side of the road was filling the bus with a ghostly glow. I snuck a glance back at the girl behind me, wondering if she had slept as well ... to see that her neighbour was spooning her. Spooning her as if she was his girl-friend or something. The student's eyes were closed. And from the slow movement of her chest it was clear she was fast asleep.
I looked away, my eyes back on the snow piled high on the side of the road. I wondered how he'd done that. Wasn't the arm-rest in the way? I reached behind me ... to find the armrest could be raised. That's what he must have done, raised the armrest out the way, eased towards her, pulled her into him. Spooning her as if she was his girl friend, or wife. I pushed my coat off my chest. The bus's heating was ferocious. I was starting to sweat.
I tried to go back to sleep but what was going on behind me wouldn't let me. My eyes were soon back there. Her neighbour was far from asleep. His outer arm was round her waist. The fingers disengaging the bottom of the zip of her parka. A zip that was fastened when last I looked. Sure as heck wasn't now.
There is some circuit in the brain that feels there is a right thing and a wrong thing to do in circumstances like this. Like telling the driver to stop the bus, or kicking up a fuss, or accusing the man of molesting the girl – a visitor to our country no less; their country, at least. The Austrian's country. (I was a visitor too.) But then there is another circuit that says, Don't be a fucking hypocrite; if you were in his position, and had thought of it, (and had the guts he had,) you might be doing the same thing! So I kept quiet. I let him open the student's parka, slide his hand inside, explore what it found there ... a fit young stomach, perhaps, warm and pleasantly rounded. He couldn't see from where he was, behind her, where his hand was. But I could. Next thing I know his broad fingers are making their delicate way to the waistband of her jeans. I don't say a word.
His fingers find the thick-knit wool of her jumper. He eases it clear, eases it upwards, clearing the buckle of her belt. They explore the metal, find the way it's fixed, then wander off across the denim-clad hips and downwards, into the valley between the legs. I watch the broad fingers as they gently trace the line of her leg, all the way out to the knees, drawn up towards her chest, the same way mine are. The pretty student hasn't stirred. Sweet dreams of youth ... or something. The fingers make their way back. Are at the jumper again, in underneath to where I'd caught the glint of buckle in his first foray. But this time they don't stop there. They carry on, beneath the jumper, heading for the pleasant soft mounds I can see, just behind her slender arms. Her hands are clasped close to her chin.
It is a calculation, rather than a visually verifiable fact, that the hand beneath the student's thick woollen jumper has not only found the mound of a breast, but is, as I watch, cupping it. This I calculate from how much of his arm has disappeared in under the lower hem of her jumper, and the way the jumper itself has ridden up, and the fact that he's stopped moving. Nothing moves. I imagine having a plump young breast in the palm of my hand, wondering if such intimate pressure may wake her, and if it does what she might do?
But she doesn't do anything.
I catch the gentlest movement over one of the two mounds. As if it's rounded shape had moved off, breaking up into ridges, like fingers. His fingers. The labourer's fingers. And the fingers were cupped round the sweet youngster's pretty right breast.
I wondered if she could feel what he was doing. Being honest, I tried to put myself into his shoes – or rather fingers – to see if I could feel what he was feeling. Would she be wearing a bra ... a vest underneath the sweater ... or a shirt as well as a vest? He eased himself closer. His thighs spread around hers even more. He eased her back more completely into the spoon of his bodily embrace. Her face was so peaceful in sleep. Almost a beautiful face; though maybe the lips were too full, and the nose just a shade too small, for the sort of beauty we're used to in the West. Innocent, is what she was. Innocent and ... foreign ... ripe?
Then he surprised me. Without warning, he disengaged from behind her and leaned forward in his seat. I couldn't think what he was doing for he had her in his arms, compliant, uncomplaining, a hand around her, fingers exploring. Then I saw what he was doing. He carefully eased her away from the backrest and slipped his other hand around her. He eased both back to their earlier position, she relaxing against him, facing away, like an egg in a large wooden spoon. It was soon his other hand that was beneath her jumper, cupping a breast, and the first hand was back at the buckle ...
His chin is at her ear. He could whisper into it, if he dared. It is a pretty ear. With a tiny pearl in a neat little lobe. I watch as his tongue comes out, and the tip of it tastes the pearl! I feel a need to move but don't, don't dare. I don't want to spoil things. I don't want to wake her, or frighten him. They look so contented back there. So softly intimate.
He has the flap of her belt out of its loop. I watch as he carefully works it away from the retainer. The bar eases out of the hole. The belt is loose, each side is gently set aside. Both his hands are now at the fastener in front. A button that holds the waist closed. The top of a zip just below. He opts for the zip first of all, slowly draws it down. Once it is drawn all the way down to where her thighs meet, he carefully slips the button, then catches each side as the button springs free. He's retaining the pressure of the waistband, I note, almost admiring the skill. I watch as he gently lets the two sides pull apart. The V of the open front of her jeans shows white within. White panties? The lower tails of a white cotton vest? A white shirt beneath the trousers and pullover? His hand obscures the white. He has slipped his fingers into the v, moving them lower inside the jeans. How can he dare to do this?