Carson stood across from me, watching me with glowering eyes. I didn't know what to say or what to do. I could only watch from the bed.
Finally, I couldn't stand the silence anymore. "Are you going to hurt me?"
Carson's blank expression scared me. He did, however, reply in a deep, monotone voice, "I'm contemplating it."
"I'm sorry."
"No, you're not," Carson said, calling me out on my obvious lie. But how could I be sorry for trying to escape?
After our new friend, Wes had left, Carson left me in the basement to make dinner. He left me, laying on the ground, completely and utterly spent. My mind felt like mush, and my body was comparable to jello. I had somehow managed to get up and find the bed, where I quickly collapsed. And although I had admittedly enjoyed the raw sexual experience of being double-penetrated, I knew that I didn't want it to happen again -- at least not with Carson and Wes. And so, the determination to escape had grown even stronger.
Laying in bed, I thought about all the ways I could escape. I ran through all of the ideas that I had come up with millions of times before... I could try picking the basement door's lock. But I wasn't nearly skillful enough. I could try to manipulate Carson into allowing me to be upstairs for a while and then make a run for it. But how could I possibly manipulate the pro at manipulation himself? Finally, I realized what had to be done. I had to kill Carson. There was no other option.
And whereas that might have been a good idea, there were several factors working against me. Such as the fact that I was physically weak. And that I had no kind of murder weapon with me in the basement. After several more minutes deep in thought, an idea came to mind. I could use my dinner plate to club him on the back of the head. I wasn't sure if I had enough force to actually kill Carson that way, but I was fairly certain I could at least knock him unconscious long enough to steal his keys and get the hell out of there.
That night, when Carson re-entered the basement with my dinner, he began talking to me from the top of the stairs as he always did.
"Maddy, love, how are you feeling this evening?"
"Fine," I called out and sat up in bed.
Carson began to descend the stairs. "You know, I didn't mean to hurt you today. I just thought that you should have that experience."
"Okay." I had nothing more to say to him about what had happened. There was no use trying to defend my position on the matter. What was done, was done.
"Maddy, don't use such short answers with me. You know how much I hate that," Carson responded. He was a the bottom of the stairs now, and he was walking toward me. Taking a seat on the bed, he handed me the plate. He had made me a grilled cheese sandwich. I took a bite.
"I'm sorry, Carson," I told him after swallowing the first bite. The cheese tasted warm and delicious. "I understand what you're saying. I'm just exhausted."
Carson nodded his head. "Are you just saying that?"
"No, I mean it, Carson. You wanted for us to experience that together," I said, knowing that I was telling him exactly what he wanted to hear. I was right. Carson smiled and put his hand on my thigh. He started rubbing his hand up and down, grazing over my soft skin. Ha! The oblivious bastard. I decided to really get him going just for the fun of it. "And I'm glad it was you instead of Wes. Thank you for that, Carson. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know."
Carson gave my thigh a squeeze and raised an eyebrow. "Oh really?"
"Yes, definitely! I wanted you to be the one to take my anal virginity." I had devoured the grill cheese and was now gripping the plate. I went on, "I'm just so grateful that Wes wasn't the one. It would have been very weird for me. Because you and I have that kind of connection. I wanted you to be my first." Then, after a quick pause, I asked, "Kiss me, please?"