This FICTION story contains elements of non-consent, bondage, abuse, humiliation and other darker types of kinks. If such things offend you, please do not read. This story is meant for entertainment only for those that can tell fiction from reality.
I stand under the shower head, allowing the warm water to fall gently over my head and down my naked body. For what feels like the first time tonight, I've been left alone with no one watching me. It feels rather odd if I'm being honest, even if I've spent most of my life without someone watching my every move.
As I let the water run over every inch of my body, I still feel as if all this is a dream. That everything that has happened has been a drug induced hallucination, or that I'm in a coma or something. For several weeks ago I signed up to be a slave at a sex convention while tipsy. Signed up for all manner of kinky sexual exploits to be done to me, such as being a hucow, BDSM, gangbangs and more...and they've all been done.
The last "training" I had was with Mistress Dee, in which she had to teach me rather quickly about being a slave. And during it, a coworker of mine got to pleasure me, ordering me about and making me cum against my will. But that last training proved to be too much for me, because my body couldn't take any more and I passed out.
When I awoke, Mistress Dee told me that I could go home if I wanted. That I've been through enough to earn my deposit back, which was the entire reason why I came here. The large deposit that I put down to make sure I attended was enough for a down payment for a house.
Yet, something has changed inside of me. My first thought when she told me I could leave was to run out of this place now that I had my money. But I feel different now. Different in mind, different in soul, different in body. It feels like I've been awakened to a world that I didn't know existed.
All my life I've always been the person in charge, the one others went to for help, the one that always had the answers. Now I've experienced what it means to give all that up. I've felt what submission is. I've felt what it means to be not just helpless but utterly humiliated to the point that you barely feel human. And damn it, I loved it. I've been lying to myself and saying how I hated it, that I wanted it to stop, but I feel the truth inside me. I want it. And I want more. I want to feel helpless. I want to feel like I'm being forced. I want to feel humiliated.
So I told Mistress Dee that I wanted to stay. That I wanted to complete the slave process, which would end with me being auctioned and sold at this convention. At this, she told me that I needed to think about it a bit more, that I was worked up with all sorts of new feelings and needed to take a step back and think about things.
She lead me to this private shower, and told me to clean myself up, as all clamps, ropes and more where removed from me, allowing me to just be with my sore and tender body. And thus, I've been in this shower for the past 10 minutes, trying to make sense of what I want. For I fear that if I do go through with this slave process, my life is going to change forever. The life and career I have now, that I worked so hard for, will be washed away and replaced by something I can't foresee.
The smart part of me knows I shouldn't do it. That I should thank her for her kindness, get some clothes and go home with the knowledge that my deposit has been returned to me. If I do that, then I know I will at least stay normal. I can go back to my very normal life, pretending that this never happened, or talk about it like a drunken one-night stand.
But that other part of me, that small and dark part doesn't want normal. It wants to feel more of these dark feelings. Hell, it wants so much more. It wants to go to extremes. I wants to truly live.
With a deep breath, I turn off the water. Standing there, my hands on my face as I feel so confused, I let the water drip off me for several minutes. My body feels so foreign to me and yet at the same time, I feel like I am in tune with it. That I finally cracked some secret code about what it's been wanting all these years. I just never thought it could be to get roughed up and repeatedly fucked in the same night. I mean, tonight was the first time ever I tried anal.
I grab a towel and dry myself off, being careful about how hard I press it against myself in certain areas as I am very sore. Once dry, I start to dry my hair, thinking how much of a mess it must be, and how I doubt there is a brush anywhere here.
Once finished, I put on the robe that Mistress Dee gave me. It is pink, fluffy and very comfy. When I put it on, I think how this is the first time since I started tonight that I've been allowed clothes. From the beginning, they kept me naked and on display. Have to admit, it feels sort of strange to see my body covered. It makes me think of how much I have changed tonight as that dark part of me feels that this is wrong. That I don't deserve to wear this. That at all times everyone should see...everything.
"Feel better?" I hear Mistress Dee ask. Looking up, I see she is standing in the doorway having not made a single noise. She is so damn graceful in her movements that she doesn't seem to make any noise. She is so unlike anyone I've ever met before. So graceful, so beautiful...so in charge.
"I do," I tell her, giving her a small smile. I truly do feel better. I feel clean and in my right mind. Previously I felt out of control. It felt like I was on drugs and overwhelmed. That I was wild and out of control, but now I can think clearly.
"There is no medicine like a warm, quiet bath or shower. That's what I always say," she says, again giving me her beautiful smile. She is still dressed like before, in that very pretty cocktail dress. And in her hand is a hardback book, which lets me know she was here the whole time in the next room, waiting for me, and waiting to make sure I was ok.
"Now that you have taken time to calm down and reflect on the events of tonight, and what you are after, I think it's time we discuss what you mean to do. For I wish I could give you more time, but it is time to make a choice," she explains in her silky voice.
"You are completely free to go home. Like I said previously, you need not worry about your deposit, for everyone would agree you took part in what you signed up for. In fact, I am sure you will be surprised by the amount as many of the participants had such a great time with you, they have given you tips," she states.
At this, I feel a small rush of shame as it makes me feel like a whore selling herself. Yet a part of me feels proud, as if without even trying I was that memorable. I never even considered I could make money off of feeling like this.
"Or you could stay, if that is what you would like. But allow me to make it painfully clear. If you stay and allow yourself to be purchased as a slave, you will experience pain. You will experience domination. You will experience degradation. And you will participate in lewd sexual acts, even if you are not excited about such acts. And all of this can and will be in full view of the public," she tells me, looking extremely serious.
There's a tense silence between us now as I know this is the "do or die" time. It is now or never. Experience what it fully means to be in the slave life which could mean painful rape/sex, or go home and be safe. To go to new heights or stay sane and normal.
My heart pounds hard as the silence builds. Mistress Dee keeps looking at me as she awaits my answer, and I know she wants a simple Yes or No, not any explanations. Never faced with a more important choice, I bite my lip as I fear whatever I pick will be the wrong choice.
"I want to stay," I say, but don't mean to. The words just flow out of my mouth like water flowing from a water pitcher. They come out without any thought or purpose. Almost like something inside my body knows what is best for me so it bypasses my brain. It's as if another said the words and not me.
Mistress Dee doesn't say anything to this. She keeps looking at me, only she looks me in the eye. I can see the shadow of a smile on her face, as if she knew this is what I would say and is proud. But she stays calm and serious, maybe considering as a doctor if I should be doing this, wondering if I could survive. And yes, Mistress Dee is a doctor, and I wouldn't expect anything less from her.
A good minute passes with her looking at me. The longer is goes, the more I start to wonder if she is going to say NO. That I can try to do this next year. As I think this, I actually start to get scared. I feel how badly I want to do it, even if I don't want to admit it. I want to go through with this. I want to.
"Alright...slave. Follow me," she says, accenting the word 'slave' before turning around in her graceful way. My heart leaps at her words as I'm going to get to finish this. To experience all that I want to feel. And as soon as my heart leaps, cold fear rushes over me at what is about to come for I'm not sure I'll want all that I'm about to get.
She walks out of this private bathroom, which must belong to a VIP. I follow behind her, walking several feet behind, feeling like a scared child. Now that I've said I want this experience, everything feels new and scary.
Mistress Dee goes into another room off the hallway. When I enter, there is a rather well-built man in the room that stands up at the sight of the Mistress. He is very muscular and is in his 40s. He wears a very odd outfit, which is a black muscle shirt along with black slacks. To be honest, he reminds me of a villain from a horror movie.
"Mistress," the man says as he bows, which is such an odd sight as he towers over her. I bet he could crush the pair of us with a single blow if he wanted yet he acts as if Mistress Dee is the President.