[This is the first time I've ever tried this. Please let me know what you think, and if you like it, I'll write the rest that I have planned out. I hope you all enjoy!]
I'm too exhausted now to think about what things will be like tomorrow morning when we wake up early to present at the conference. I'm too exhausted to talk, to worry, to care. I'm too exhausted, even, for anger⦠and though, if I had the energy to be ashamed, I wouldn't admit it, I'm exhausted enough to admit I'm comfortable and even happy on this bed next to him. I lie in bed, naked and still panting a little, my brown curls draped over the pillow, my breasts shaking just a little with the tremble of my breath, the golden cross I always wear sparkling between them as it moves in the light, and my skin still flushed, like a blushing cheek, my legs luxuriously spread out over the bed, my calf touching Daddy Tom's warm leg. Too exhausted to feel guilt or anger, I think over how I got to be here, in a hotel in Montreal, naked next to the sound asleep body of my father's best friend.
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I guess it really all began with a challenge. A friend from youth group told me he was taking the LSAT to apply for law school, and I teased him, "I bet I can do better than you." At the time I had no intention of going into law. I was only 18, idealistic, and wanted to be a kindergarten teacher. I already had practice teaching Sunday school every week, and besides, I'd be an awful lawyer β I can't lie.
To make a long story short, and get to this story, I did fabulously on the LSAT, and started seriously considering law... still a little worried about my inability to lie, but drawn to the excitement of a sexy, powerful career. I told myself that maybe God was telling me something by giving me that test score, maybe it was a sign. That summer, my dad's best friend Tom offered me a job at his firm β a favour, to see how I liked the work.
I've known Tom since forever. I went to preschool with his daughter. His family and my family were always together since Tom and my dad met at open house. We'd vacation together, his daughter and I would sleep over, first afraid of monsters, then sharing our fears that we'd never grow women's bodies, then giggling about boys, and now⦠well now we still giggle about boys, though we have practiced kissing on each other once or twice. She was like a sister, and I knew Tom so well that I called him Daddy Tom.
I was definitely in way over my head when I went to work at Daddy Tom's office. I thought for sure at least I knew what to wear. I had on a straight black skirt that hugged my hips a little and emphasized my tiny waist. I wore a sensible white blouse buttoned all the way to my neck, black stockings, and black shoes with a sensible heel. It was a more formal version of what I'd wear to teach Sunday school. Of course I wore the gold cross my daddy had given me at my high school graduation around my neck.
Of course, the night before I started at Daddy Tom's, I prayed long and hard for direction and confidence. I prayed that God would help me with this job.
Of course, the night before I started working for Daddy Tom, I had also fantasized about being a sexy lawyer β dreaming as my hands caressed my smooth naked skin. I'd be beautiful, powerful, and men would suddenly notice me. I let my hands stray to the pert little nipples that sat atop my full round breasts like cherries on vanilla ice cream. I'd be in control of the courtroom and men would realize how smart I was, and they'd love me. As one hand continued to play with my nipples, I slid a hand down between my legs. In church, I know they'd say it was a sinβ¦ but it felt so good, and was much less sinful, I reasoned, than letting a boy touch me. I had never been touched by a boy, but I imagined it so many times, so many times like that night, as I stroked myself to a warm, comfortable sleep.
Now here I was in my church-clothes at Daddy Tom's office, and though he was friendly when I arrived, he shook his head. I tried to shake the fantasies of last night out of my head. Daddy Tom wasn't exactly helping.
When I went into his office, Daddy Tom stood up and gave me a long hug. He pushed my body close to his, and I could feel his breath in his chest as it pressed against my tits. His hands were on the small of my back, barely above my ass, and they moved slightly, pushing against me through the fabric of my skirt, and recreating that warm feeling between my legs that I had so enjoyed last night. My nipples were hard, rubbing against the fabric of my bra as he pressed me tightly, tightly in his grip. Just when I though I would gasp aloud with the repressed pleasure, he pushed me a bit away from his body, holding me at arm's length, looking me up and down as he held me by the waist.
"Wow. You've really grown into quite a woman, Nicole," he said to my breasts. I just blushed. He didn't notice. "Your shirt kinda fits funny, though," he said like a father, and like a father he gently moved the cross that hung around my neck aside, unbuttoned my top two buttons, fluffed open my collar and gently, his hands slowly replacing the gold cross on my pale, exposed chest, said, "now you'll look like the other girls. Jan will show you what to do."
And for two weeks, that was it. Jan showed me what to do, and I worked hard. I was exhausted and barely understood anything, and was continually terrified of screwing something up and letting Daddy Tom down. Then came the evening when I was sure I had.
"The boss wants to see you⦠now" was all Jan said. It was 4:50 on a Friday afternoon. What could he want to talk to me about with 10 minutes left in the day?
I nervously walked to his office and knocked on the door.
"Daddy Tom?"
"Come in Nicole. Close the door. Have a seat."
I sat on Daddy Tom's expensive leather sofa, and he sat next to me. His thigh touched mine. He put a hand on my knee. He seemed like a comforting father about to chastise me, but not wanting to hurt my feelings too much.
"Nicole, how do you feel you've been doing here?"
I couldn't tell him that I hated the work, that it was too hard⦠and of course, I couldn't lie. I said nothing.
"Nicole, I don't know if we should keep you here," he squeezed my knee, trying to comfort me, I suppose, as the tears welled up in my eyes. "I just don't know if it's a good fit. I want to give you a try, a taste of what this career will be like, but I just don't know if you can handle it."
"Please, Daddy Tom, give me one more chance?"
He put his finger over my lips to stop my begging, then moved me so that I was sitting on his lap. "You're my girl, Nicole⦠Don't worry. I'm going away this weekend to a conference. I'll give you one more chance. If you come with me, prep my files for me, keep everything organized, then I'll keep you on for the summer. The hotel is booked, the flight is ready, you just have to hop on a plane with me in⦠" He looked at his watch, "40 minutes!"