you when you said your exes weren't good to you. Now? I think you did the same thing to them. You pushed them away. You're to blame for your failed relationships. Only you."
He couldn't be right, could he? Was I that self-sabotaging? I love him. I wouldn't want him to leave me right? I just fucked up. I pushed him away. Just like the rest. I guess I could've listened to him the last time we were out in public and he told me I can't go out dancing anymore.
"I'm sorry Sir. I'm sorry. You're right. You're only trying to save me and yourself from embarrassment. Please don't leave me. Please."
Kick
"Get up cunt. Get the fuck up and leave. You are wasting my time."
With that, he walked back into the reception. Tears on the sidewalk, my side and cheek throbbing in pain, I looked up just before the door to the reception was completely closed to see one of the bridesmaids touching his arm. He had a smile on his face, my suffering and embarrassment already forgotten. My existence, forgotten.
---2 hours later---
I looked up as the party started to wind down and the guests left the reception hall. If I could only get him to hear me out, he would surely give me another chance. I didn't mean to push him away. I just wanted him to look at me the way he looked at the other women there- with lust in his eyes and a hint of a smirk.
I finally got up off the ground so I could talk to him without him thinking I really did just wait out here on the sidewalk for him all night. My knees were scraped, and my side still hurt when I walked. I would show him how much I could take though. I would show him that no matter what he did to me, I could take it with a smile on my face. That's what love is right? Loving your partner no matter what?
There wasn't much I could do anyways. He was all I had. Without him, I have no friends. They all abandoned me after things started getting serious with him and I moved in... something about him being all wrong for me. They hate him. They just don't understand though. It doesn't matter how many bruises I end up with on my skin or in my heart. We have a connection. It's sad really that they have never connected with a man long enough to have that kind of special connection too.
Thinking about my former friends is almost distracting enough to get me out of my mood of pathetic desperation for his attention. Just then, I notice the same short, skinny, beautiful woman from earlier coming out of the doors to the reception and with who else but My Man holding her hand happily.
My heart stopped. So this was it then. He was moving on without me. I took my purse in hand, digging my phone out to call an Uber, when I heard His voice.