Author's (Rather Long) Note,
Part 1 of this story was a scene that on the surface looked like rape. I've clarified it better here in part 2 so that it is not. I do not condone rape in any shape or form, and I don't enjoy reading or writing rape stories.
I am, however, personally sexually bent towards enjoying the reluctance stories in the non-consent category. (You know, the kind that go like: "no...don't...stop....I mean, don't...don't stop....don't stop...please don't stop!!!" kind of stories.) So, because I like them, I usually end up having reluctant sex scenes in my writing.
It bothers me greatly to think I might have grossed out or offended anybody by what happened in part 1, because, in my mind, it wasn't a rape; I had planned to turn the reader's view of it around so that it was a reluctance scene.
But, pity I didn't tell anybody else that, and I ended part 1 before I made that clear.
So, what's the point of this note?
Here below is part 2 where the situation resolves.
(Or somewhat resolves. Nothing will fully resolve until the very, very, very end. :)
But, I hope you'll bear this in mind and read on below through part 2. Your dislike of part 1 swung the story in a whole different direction, and I'm really liking where it's going so far.
May your pens always be at least half-full of ink, haha,
Pentopaper
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What a crappy office I had here at the Mansfield Inpatient Juvenile Mood Clinic. I absolutely hated it. It was too small, too small, too small, no matter how hard I tried to pretty it up. I had placed baby plants in flower pots on top of file cabinets, a Glade air freshener in a plug-in behind my desk, and cheap, colorful artwork on the walls. But prettier didn't in any way equal bigger office space.
Nothing in my office held my attention right now anyway, because I was too focused on my hands, wringing them, as I stood just behind my closed office door. God, what the hell had Keesha and Z and Mae been up to in that bedroom with Ally? I'd only been in there for a minute, but it had shocked me to the point that I hadn't even known what to do. My gut had told me to run, and unfortunately, I had.
Problem was, I'd left Ally in there all alone with those girls.
I'd just left her there.
I smacked myself on the forehead - hard - because I'd really fucked up. I'm sure that there was some kind of clinic protocol for me to follow for that kind of situation, although with me just having an office job here, I'd never had any kind of training as far as what to do in a situation like that. However, as a human member of the planet earth, I should have done something.
Instead, I'd run.
Now I couldn't stop the questions firing back and forth inside my mind. Was Ally okay? Was I going to be fired? Was it too late to help her?
Maybe it wasn't too late to stop whatever was going on in there.
I had just decided to go find somebody to get some help, when my office door flew open. I jumped out of the way just in time as the door banged into the wall, and then stuck flush against it. That was because there was already a round, doorknob-shaped hole in the drywall there. I needed to call maintenance to get one of those doiiinnnng - sounding things installed on the wall near the floor behind the door. The thing that stopped a door from...oh, yeah. A doorstop.
But first, I had to face Allyson.
"What the fuck was that back there?" She hissed at me. She was even still righting her clothes. She was so mad she was huffing like she'd been jogging up several flights of stairs instead of navigating through the few hallways from which she had come.
"Why did you just walk away and leave me in there?" She asked.
She was hot like this, though, and she looked wild, with her fiery red hair flying all around, her angry red, sweat-flushed cheeks, and her all but laser-intense green eyes burning holes into me. And she unfortunately had matching stripes of reddened skin on either side of her mouth where the tape from her gag had adhered. I remembered now seeing an allergy to tape in her file - a file that I hadn't supposed to have been perusing - and I was now seeing the real-world results of what tape did to her delicate skin.
I grabbed her hands and pulled her further inside my office. "Close the door and keep it down," I whispered to her, my heart doing a triple-stutter as it tried to climb up my throat. "You want people to hear you?"
"Yes!" She whispered, though it was more of a whisper-shout. "Maybe I do!" She said, slamming the door shut behind us, hard and loud. White, powdery drywall dust sifted down the wall from where the doorknob hole was. "I mean, me getting diddled back there on that bed was never part of any deal. What the fuck is wrong with you?"
I felt stretched just then, like a bow being pulled back, ready to fire an arrow, and so I released my tension by throwing my hands up into the air. "I don't know!" I blurted out. "I sure as hell wasn't expecting that, and I sort of panicked, alright?"
She was oddly quiet, and then she took a step forward, advancing on me. "You panicked?"
"Ally, I didn't know what to do!" I said, taking a step backwards from her.
"Couldn't you tell I needed your fucking help?!"
"I...I just freaked," I said lamely, and then I cringed. God, even to me that explanation sounded pathetic.
"You think I wanted them touching me like that?" She asked incredulously.
"Well, I sure didn't want them touching you like that!" I shot back.
"You didn't?" She asked with a sneer. "So then why didn't you stop them?" She asked, hands on her hips, shaking her head.
"I just...I mean...you keep asking me to try and get on Keesha's good side," I said, my words tumbling out of my mouth like lemmings falling off a cliff to their deaths. "So what was I supposed to think when I walked in on that?!"
Ally scowled darkly at me. "You think I wanted that to happen?"
I threw my hands in the air again. "I don't know!" I blurted out. Ally's eyes narrowed and I could feel her wrath seething from her.
"Well, no," I quickly amended, "but..I mean...you like me to hold you down sometimes..." I ventured lamely.
Her mouth fell open and she made fists of both hands as they hung at her sides. "No! That back there was like Fifty Shades on steroids!" She said. "Besides, I told you, I don't fuck around with anybody else, because I'm fucking with you!" she said.