I walked to the Greyhound bus station and got on the first bus to Colorado. There were only a couple of other people on the bus. I found an empty row in the back, pulled a blanket over me, and closed my eyes. As the Greyhound rumbled towards Interstate 15 East, I fell asleep wondering which of the Bear Creek boys had turned into men.
I don't know how long I slept, but I woke up feeling someone's hand on my leg.
His hand was under the blanket, resting lightly on my leg, and I knew it wasn't an accident. The bus hadn't stopped to pick up any passengers. This guy must have changed seats so that he could grope a sleeping girl—me.
His hand didn't move, and I stayed still, waiting to see what he would do next.
His fingers opened and closed lightly over my leg, like caressing a baby's bottom. Then he stopped for a while.
After a few moments, he gently squeezed my leg again. His touch was so light that I could barely feel it. He was testing me, trying to see what he could get away with without waking me. Wondering if I was going to yell, "Hey mister, keep your hands to yourself!"
I kept on pretending to be asleep, because I wanted to see what he would do next. And, to tell the truth, because I was getting goosebumps and could feel the tingling starting between my legs.
He squeezed a little more firmly and waited to see my reaction. I kept real still, breathing regularly like I was asleep. His hand moved to the inside of my leg and his fingers danced across the soft inside of my thigh, like he was seeing how lightly he could touch me and still be touching me.
One finger moved in between my legs and rested on my mound, poised at the entrance to my growing dampness. His finger moved up and down slowly, never losing contact with my jeans. I was very wet but I didn't squirm. I didn't want to scare him away. I didn't want him to stop. I spread my legs so that I could feel more electricity.
He positioned his finger in the center of the opening to my flooded pussy and began pressing in and out like he was ringing a doorbell. And, in a sense, he was. I wanted to invite him inside, but I kept quiet.
All of a sudden, he stopped. After about a minute of nothing, I was afraid that he was finished—that he had decided that he didn't dare do anything more.
I was so frustrated and impatient that I wanted to push his hand away. But then he moved his hand off my leg and slowly, lightly up the inside of my t-shirt. He found my breast and rested his hand there, softly cupping my breast without moving, the way he had started with my leg.
I tried to imagine what he looked like. Maybe he was a 70-year-old gentleman dressed in a suit and tie, who thought it was his duty to initiate young women as they became comfortable with their sexuality. Or maybe he was a married man, handsome and full of spunk but stuck with a frigid wife, and he groped women on busses for cheap thrills. Or maybe he was a military guy with big muscles, who hadn't gotten laid for months, and he was taking the bus back home to see his girlfriend and was using me to get in the mood. I was dying to see who was feeling me up, but I couldn't. I loved the attention I was getting and I didn't want to break the spell. So, I kept pretending to be asleep.