Chapter 3
So engrossed I was in my own thoughts I didn't hear the door open behind me. I felt the rope snap and I felt my throat close as a result but seconds later I was being pulled back in through the window, by the rope that I was dangling from.
I felt the stone scrape my back and my bottom, then felt arms circling around me. He tossed me onto the bed and got the makeshift rope away from my neck. My breathing came in rasping gasps while I clutched the bed for support with one hand and the other circled my throat with the other.
"Did you really think it have been that easy to get away from me? I told you there was no getting away from me. That you were mine, and that you were never leaving here."
I tried to speak, to tell him I'd rather die than continue being his whore; but I couldn't yet form words. I shook my head in frustration but he took it as a negation. He stood there while I worked on getting my breathing right.
In the minutes it took me to get situated he saw the letter I had written and started reading it; what he saw must have angered him further because so abruptly he picked me up and tossed me over his shoulder that I was out of breath again. As he carried me down the stairs to the ground floor, I wept; but as we reached the ground floor where there were people all around I started squirming and shifting, my naked flesh was there for all to see I merely wanted to cover myself. Forcing me to go naked before him and the maid was bad enough, this was simply vicious.
He carried me down some stone steps, I heard a door creak open, then down some more steps: this must be a dungeon. I couldn't see anything after the door closed, and he walked more slowly but with the sure footedness of a man who knows where he's going. He set me down on what I guess is a table; I heard movement then the door opened. He can't...
"Please, don't leave me here." I said in a weak and raspy voice. My body seemed to get up and walk two steps toward the door of its own accord, just in time to see a smile on his face that literally scared me stiff. He closed the door and I was left in utter darkness.
As I slowly walked with my hands out trying to find the wall, the tears started brimming, I felt the wall and some things hanging there but I wasn't looking for a weapon. I found the corner, and I sank down to pull my knees up to my chest and wrap my arms around them while I let my head fall against my knees and I just let myself cry. I don't know how long he left me there, ten minutes- an hour, I was wrapped up in my own misery to pay attention.
I heard the latch on the door, I heard the door open, I heard the footfalls on the steps, then I saw the orange glow of a fire on the semi-wet stone floor and a small part of me rejoiced in the feel of it. He set the torch down in its place on the wall near the steps. I still hadn't raised my head, I had seen the glow on my own skin and heard him set the torch in its hold, and then he was standing before me.
He knelt down beside me, when he stroked the hair from my face I looked up at him, a tear fell from each eye simultaneously.
He grabbed my wrist and shackled it before I could react; I think my gloom had me in a sort of trance. They were leather and they had buckles on the top, and were separated by five small steal chain links. Then he dragged me by those chains, across the uneven stones to the center of the floor, where a large bolt waited ominously. He put the other shackle through the large loop and grabbed my other wrist to shackle them together.
They were tight, they chafed and pinched, and there was no pulling them apart, or escaping, the chains were far too thick. If I had a tool it might be possible, but like this, not a chance of escaping this fate.
"You tried to leave me. You did the one thing that would ensure I never saw you again. How could you do that?" He spoke with a subdued voice, I was sure he was trying to compose himself, control his anger. But how long could he hold it at bay?
"Yes. It was the only way."
"I own you now, all of you, how could you β"
"No." I yelled, and it echoed through the room as I lifted my head to glare at the man, no longer caring if he lost his temper. "I do not belong to you, or anyone. I am not property. I am not a slave. I am a human being, with a soul. Yes, you could keep me locked up in here till the day I die, as your prisoner, hostage, you can call me a slave and a whore, but I know I am not owned by you. Not any part of me. I am a free-born woman, with allegiance to no one. I may have submitted to you in the past, but know this: no part of me will ever belong to you."
"I'll have to change that attitude."
With that he walked to a part of the room that remained in shadows. When he returned he was carrying a long stick. A switch, no, a cane I suppose it was too thick to be a whip.
"This will leave bruises, maybe, but not welts, and won't draw blood." He looked down at me with eyes that seemed no longer his. They were beyond rage and anger, if I knew him as anything more than a monster, I might say it was regret and hurt.
My knees where under my shoulders, my back was arched, my hands bolted to the floor in front of me. My head was turned back toward him so I could watch what he was doing, and then I realized that it was pleasing him to see the fear rise up in them in anticipation. I leaned forward on my knees so my hand could pull my hair to one side and out of the way, then I went back down, to wait for my punishment.
"Get on with i--." I said as I leaned my forehead down on the stone, my chin at my knees.
He apparently didn't need my invitation. Before I had finished my sentence he brought the cane down across the middle of my back. I screamed outright. It echoed through the room and reverberated through the stones.
My throat hurt, from the near hanging, the screaming, all of it. After that first scream I more croaked in response to the strikes.
"This can end at any time." Strike, croak.
"At anytime you finally," Strike, croak.
"Admit to yourself," Strike, croak.
"You belong to me." Strike, croak.
"You are mine." Strike, croak.
"And you will never," Strike, croak.
"Never leave me."
I lunged forward to avoid another blow. I was laying flat, hands, still bolted to the floor, were at my hip and to the side a little, as I sobbed this confession. "Alright. Alright. I am yours, your spoil of war, your conquered slave," I choked on the word; it took me a second to continue. "Your slave, to do with what you will. I belong to you. IβI will never leave, you have my word."