"Last stop before home." I think to myself as I come out of the gas station. I pull my key fob from my purse and "chirp, chirp" I see the interior light come on. I climb into the drivers seat, throw my purse to the side, put the key in the ignition and start the car. While I wait for the car to warm a little... I do what I always do and crank my CD player, then start for home. Driving and singing along the way...
"...You can't control my mind. Cause if I thought you were the end all and my be all. I would've never left you alone... Nawl, nawl, nawl. Ain't no way. You gone take away my joy, my peace, my strength. Thank you for the times of all the pain you gave me..."
It is such a cold night, but not as cold as the heavy metal sensation suddenly weighing on the right side of my neck.
"Pull over behind that building and do not turn around slut."
Is all I hear whispered in my ear, even over the loud music, and the only thing else I feel is your hot breath on my neck and down my chest. Without hesitation, I do exactly what I am told - terrified. Hands trembling I reach for the stick and throw the transmission into park. Purposefully I choose to keep the motor running for the heat and hope I can find some peace in my music, which is so muffled by the sound of my hearts thumping.
I feel a hand wrap tightly around my neck from behind and the pressure increases... until I come to. Things have changed. My hands are tightly tied behind my back, my feet are also tied together. It is dark from behind the blindfold over my eyes. I assume I'm in the passenger seat of my car because I'm no longer driving, but the car is in motion and I can still hear my music.
"...I love my hands around your neck! Now I know who you are..."
I'm now re-thinking all of those moments when music like this frequently got me hot. Of course, I have a very good idea what is happening. He isn't saying a word. I didn't recognize the whisper. Thoughts are spiraling through my head. Is it someone I know? Is it a friend? Is it an ex-lover or current one? Is it a Stranger? Surely this is a joke played by one of my many friends that tease me for being such a nymph all the time... I hope. That thought fades as soon as I realize no one knew what I was doing tonight, where I was going and when... It couldn't possibly be anyone safe!
Fear takes over completely now. Even my naβ’ve sick mind can't convince me this is something good. I feel a strong hand come down hard across my chest in a solid slap and then with the strength of 10 men, it takes hold of my left breast and squeezes so tightly I think I will pass out again from the pain.
"...tied to me tight, tie me up again!..."
Something is wrong with me because now I am finding some minute sense of contentment from my music, which he hasn't bothered to turn off. My music mocks and minimizes situations just like these. But there is nothing minor about this. This is real.