GI Bill Benefits, Pt. 04
(This story is set in a world where legalized, non-hereditary slavery is commonplace for serious crime, unredeemed debt, or voluntary self-indenture.
All characters who are enslaved or have any intimate/sexual contact with slaves are 18 years of age or older
. This is fiction; no one should ever be deprived of free will nor used sexually without his or her uncoerced permission.)
(Note: Once again, this story is primarily the work of J.R. rather than Carl Bradford, although J.R. has chosen to publish it under my name.)
(Previously: college student and part-time waitress Jackie was on the verge of defaulting on her college loans, which in the new world of indenture meant losing her clothes, her freedom, and any remaining virginities when the bank foreclosed on her. Desperate to avoid this, she had rushed her friend J.R. to exercise his Veterans Affairs right to cancel such a debt--not realizing until too late that this meant enslaving herself to her friend for four years. ss After her initial horror and humiliation, however, Jackie quickly realized that, much as it embarrassed her, she actually ENJOYED being a sex slave for J.R., so much so that she wanted to extend her submission to him. On the advice of a VA inspector, J.R. agreed to convert her actual enslavement to making her Free In Name Only--still obligated to service and service her master in private for three times the duration of her remaining enslavement. The first step, however, was to persuade a slave psychiatrist to evaluate her mental state and supervise her FINO. Fortunately, one of the most prominent "slave shrinks" had agreed to do this pro bono.)
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Jackie's perspective (19 months in, 29 to go)
Sitting nude in front of the computer screen for a meeting with a slave psychologist is daunting. I wanted to just tell her outright that I wished to enter into the contract with J.R. for a F.I.N.O. for 3 times the remaining time on the contract. I really wanted to admit that I was living my fantasies out - and happier and healthier than I ever had been. I wanted to tell her that becoming a slave was so, well, serendipitous for me that I never thought I could be truly happy. But, I was ashamed of it. I can't imagine telling anyone else that being a slave completed me in a way I hadn't thought possible.
She came on the computer screen in a flash, and I was flabbergasted. I expected her to be beautiful, and I started talking right away. "Greeting, Dr. Sheldon, thank you for writing your book, when I first read it I was newly enslaved and Master had gotten for me as a gift to make adjusting to my new life possible. Your descriptions and clinical detachment helped me immensely."
She sat, smartly dressed, and said, "Thank you. I'm glad I could help. I am here today to evaluate you for a F.I.N.O. conversion, instead of serving as a full slave." she flipped through the paperwork, "29 months left. I have to evaluate you with three sessions, over three different weeks. So next Monday, and the Monday after that, I'll see you at this time." She paused, and then said, "So I can be sure, please get up out of your seat, and stand, then turn in front of the camera. I need to verify for the record that you are compliant with slave standards for these meetings." I did - I knew it was a formality, but it was awkward. Normally, when I was evaluated by a government official in the Ag. Department or the Veteran's Affairs, they were mildly attractive, or a little less attractive and fit than I am. But she was intimidating in her beauty, perfect skin, really great curves, and even under her professional suit she was clearly gorgeous.
I rotated slowly in front of the camera until she gave me a signal that it was ok to sit back down. When I did so, she said, "The three appointments will follow a pattern. The first appointment is getting background information about your life before you were a slave. The second appointment is to evaluate your life now that you are a slave. And the third appointment is to evaluate whether or not it will be healthy for you from a physical and psychological perspective to sign a F.I.N.O. contract converting your service to the veteran. Your Master will be evaluated by a separate psychologist, to make sure no conflicts of interest arise." She paused, "Do you understand everything as I have read it to you?"
I slowly nodded my head, but she said, "Please answer with your voice, a verbal confirmation for the record," and I suddenly realized that this session would be recorded and reviewed by the V.A. when they approved the FINO conversion. I stated, "I, slave 440-612-4979, understand everything as you have explained it to me, Mistress." I did want to make sure that I didn't fault any social custom when we were meeting.
She made a few notations, and then she said to me, "You can sit down now, but make sure not to cross your legs or cover your chest, even if you are more comfortable in those postures." She waited until I was in my seat, with my posture dictating that I sit with legs apart and back straight. She continued, "I was reviewing your records prior to your case - you had no criminal record, but you had attended college when you were 18 until you were 20, and then you withdrew, and then re-enrolled at 25. And you were enslaved at 27, with a student loan debt totalling $49,135 dollars. With your next month's interest, you'd have been in default. Is that correct?"
I remembered it clearly. I was a mess at the time, trying to use my meager waitress salary and student loans to afford an apartment and my car, and feeling tired, stressed, and worried that I would be collared and sold before I could graduate. What a difference a year and a half makes. From then till now, I had no worries other than doing whatever Master told me to. OK, I'm being facetious, but not totally. In the 18 months that I had been owned by J.R., I had been working in counseling on emotional issues that I developed prior to becoming a slave. J.R. had let me keep my job and still attend classes, with a notarized letter that I had to keep with me so I could remain dressed and collarless during the day. I replied to her question quickly though, "Yes, that is all correct, Mistress."
Hesitantly, I then asked, "Mistress, may I ask you a question, about your own experience, before we proceed?"
She smiled at me warmly, "Yes, you may." She was smiling at me and being more warm and friendly than I was expecting from her. I asked her, "When you were enslaved, you stated in your book that you had a goal and purpose to cling to. But, you also said that you were surprised that keeping that goal and focus made everything easier for you. My question is - Did you have an enjoyable experience? You've said it was educational, and you HAD to do it, but your writing states that you were objective, focused, and learning. You never stated if you enjoyed you time."
She paused, getting a mischievous look on her face, and then she said something that I wouldn't have believed possible if I didn't hear it myself. "You mean, when I was helpless and slave naked for my six months, did I have times where I just wanted to be filled like a slave should be?"