I couldn't believe he had done this to me. We had plans for this weekend - he and I renting a condo, getting liquored up, and screwing like rabbits. What kind of man bails on that offer? Oh, right. The kind that thinks I'm "too forward".
I smacked the steering wheel. My rage was boiling over, and there was nothing I could do to release it. I pushed the gas pedal further down. It was dark out, and the road was curvy and wet from rain, but I didn't care. I felt like I had a death wish at that point.
Years of dating had proved futile, and I kept replaying all my previous "relationships" in my head, trying to understand what about me was so unattractive. Am I a bit overweight? Sure, but I have large breasts, a pretty face, and beautiful hair, so most days it feels like it all evens out. Besides, big women find boyfriends and husbands all the time. Ugly women do, too. So what is so fucking wrong with me?
I pressed further down on the gas pedal, whipping past a "55 MPH" sign and swerving to miss the guard rail.
When I was younger, I was all about finding love and marriage, and sex just felt like a great perk. But I found myself confusing friendship with love all too often and becoming a fuck buddy. I'd have feelings, and he never would.
So now I had settled into my role because the desire for sex was becoming stronger and stronger the longer I went without it. I had found a great looking guy online, performed some hard-core flirting, and I thought he was ready to go. I told him some pretty dark fantasies. I wanted him to abuse me, and I thought he was into it. But he grew a conscience at the last minute and cancelled.
I screamed as hard as I could out of sheer frustration. I gripped my steering wheel tightly and watched the needle on the speedometer edge 90.
The flashing lights appeared in my rearview mirror. As if my frustration just couldn't find a fucking peak.
I may have been pissed, but I wasn't stupid. I eased off the gas and began to brake. I found a turn-around spot and parked.
I needed to try and calm down. I couldn't afford this ticket. I'd never gotten one before, and with a new job, I sure as shit couldn't risk getting one now. Maybe the officer would let me off if I was cooperative and behaving more rationally.
Especially since I'm showing a little skin, too,
I thought. I was wearing the outfit I'd planned to wear with Tom - frilly skirt that cut just above the knee, and a cute blouse with the top buttons undone. I'm quite proud of my D-cup breasts, and I wanted him drooling.
I was taking deep breaths and relaxing my muscles when the officer tapped on my window and shined his flashlight inside.
I lowered the window and let the chill of the night air caress my face. "Good evening, Officer."
"Evening, Miss. In a hurry to get somewhere this late?" I couldn't see his face very well with the flashlight shining into my eyes. There were hardly any street lights the whole way, and this turn-around spot was especially poorly lit.
"No, Sir, just out for a drive." That was the truth. I just couldn't sit in the house any longer feeling shitty about my situation. I hadn't had a destination in mind when I'd gotten in my car, but the act of driving was usually enough to help me feel better.
His flashlight dipped down into my ample cleavage. "Hard to believe a pretty thing like yourself isn't at a party or on a hot date."
I blushed and decided to flirt a little. After all, he had called me "pretty", and that was about all I needed to crack a smile. "Oh, thank you, but no, I don't have any plans. Just...rough day, you know?"
"Well, it's about to get rougher. Step out of the car, Miss." Shit. So I was getting a fucking ticket. Or I guess going to jail? He hadn't asked for my license, just straight to "step out of the car". I guess driving 35 miles over the speed limit has more serious consequences than a warning or a fine.
The officer stepped back, and I reluctantly pushed open my door. I stepped out and felt the full force of the cold seep into my poorly chosen outfit. The officer kept shining his light in my face. I glanced back at his car, and it was definitely a cop car. And he was definitely wearing a uniform. It just bothered me that he was purposefully hiding his face by blinding me when I looked at him.
"Hands on the car, please."