This story involves a woman putting herself in a position where she reluctantly accepted sex and or was raped. The story does not intend to justify any form of non-compliant sexual activity.
Introduction.
This all happened many years ago. Much of what happened all those years ago is only sketchy memories but there are many things that I remember vividly. It was during the second world war. I had been raised in Germany, but my family had moved to France as my parents had been very worried about developments during the thirties. I had moved to a small village in France, when my parents decided to move to England, and was very happy there until the war broke out. Local people were well aware of my German background and there were some in the community who were suspicious of me. While this was very upsetting, I suppose it was understandable. In reality, I was very strongly opposed to the invasion and occupation by the German troops.
Chapter 1 - a plan is hatched
Initially I had tried to keep myself away from the German's, as much as possible. They were unaware of our German links and other than being ogled by many of the soldiers they didn't pay me much attention.
Not long after the invasion I was approached by the local priest. He said he was part of the resistance movement and asked if I was prepared to work with the movement to make things as tough as possible for the Germans. I would have been worried about him in fact being a collaborator but given his position in the community was happy to say I would be happy to do whatever I could to help.
He said that if I agreed to help, firstly, I would be putting myself in great danger and secondly, I would be asked to do things which he would be very unhappy asking me to do. I was surprisingly naΓ―ve for a twenty-one-year-old when I had to ask him to explain what he meant. I remember his words very clearly.
"I need to talk to you very frankly and in a way that no man of God should ever talk to a young lady. Please hear me out before you judge me. You my dear are a beautiful girl and capable of attracting almost any man. There are no other females in the community who would be likely to be able to do what I am going to ask you to do."
I was surprised by these comments but indicated that he should carry on.
"There is a very senior member of the German army based here in the castle along with his men. He regularly visits the local restaurant and has attempted to attract one or two of the ladies and asked them to return with him to the castle. One poor girl accepted his invite and she was not seen for a couple of days. She is not keen to tell us what went on but does not want to return. Given that you speak and read German perfectly this is another reason why you would be perfect for this difficult mission. Now you realise what a dangerous thing I am asking of you I must ask whether you would at least consider it."
"I will not only consider it I will agree to it without any hesitation."
"You must realise that you must tell nobody about this not even your parents. We do have a couple of local people who are working at the castle. They have leaked to the Colonel that I have been inappropriate with you and that you have sworn to bring this out into the open. This may help you convince them that you can help them infiltrate the underground movement they suspect I head up."
I was a little upset that this rumour had been started but accepted that it might make my job a little easier convincing the Germans which side I was on. I knew I wanted to help but it was only then that the reality hit home. The Colonel would not just be looking to enjoy a few drinks with me in the castle. I stupidity said what I was thinking and questioning myself about.
"Would you expect me to have sex with the Colonel?"
The question was out of my mouth before I could realise how silly I sounded.
"I am so sorry, I rather hoped you would not ask me that question. I cannot ask you to go ahead with my silly suggestion. You are a young innocent girl. If you did go ahead, I would not ask you to prostitute yourself for the cause, but I suspect that the Colonel might be more than persuasive. You would be putting yourself in great danger as I said.
"Fortunately, I may not be quite as innocent as you, or my parents, think. I am not stupid enough to not understand what the Colonel's likely intentions would be, if he did take a shine to me. I go in with my eyes wide open."
I remember wanting to joke about also having my legs wide open but decided that the joke might shock the old man. I made it clear that my mind was set, danger or not.
"That is fantastic my dear. Now I have it on good authority that Colonel Snider will be at the restaurant tonight. Is that too soon for you?"
"Perfect, I will be there. Shall we put on a little show for him to confirm his understanding of our relationship. Why don't you come to the restaurant tonight and we can have a public argument?"
"My goodness my dear you are devious and getting into the role perfectly. See you there at seven."
The plan worked a treat as Father Pascal and I quietly but not too quietly argued. I could see Colonel Snider paying attention to our little show. Shortly after I angrily left Father Pascal and went to sit on a stool at the far end of the bar one of the Colonel's men approached me and asked me, very politely, whether I would join the table with his friends. I did not respond quickly but took a long look at the Father with as disgusted a look as I could muster and with apparent reluctance accepted the invitation.
I was immediately the centre of interest at the table of four senior looking men and one woman all dressed in German uniforms. I didn't need to understand what rank the uniforms denoted as the seniority was clearly displayed by their behaviour. The Colonel was totally dominant and as I approached the table, he ushered the very subservient and clearly very pissed off female off the seat next to him. Her glare at me would have killed if she had been capable.
The Colonel welcomed me and straight away asked me why I had been arguing with Father Pascal. I just fobbed it off with the suggestion it was a dispute about the flowers in the church. He doubted the truth of what I had said, just as I had intended him to.