Geeky Dinas's Sexual Awakening
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Hi, my name is Dina, and the following is an account of how I changed from being an insecure self-doubting geeky girl with body image issues into a confidant young woman, eager to explore my sexual desires.
My lifelong best friend Caroline was the same age as me, but she was the one who always attracted the men, and I was the one left hiding in the shadows.
We both came from wealthy families, went to boarding school and had our own ponies.
We even shared the same halls of residence at university. We could talk to each other about anything but when it came to men and sex, I always felt side-lined.
Caroline was outgoing, tall with long blonde hair and a lovely figure. In contrast, although around the same height I was more of a tomboy with short dark hair, spectacles, slim body, and small boobs.
During our time at university, we often went out together but by the end of the evening Caroline would inevitably be disappearing into her room with her latest conquest while I would be going to bed alone. I often lay in bed after a night out imagining Caroline having sex with her latest hunk as I lay there masturbating.
After graduating from university, I was determined to try and become more popular with men but felt unsure as to how.
We both worked at the same electronics company and had been there for over a year. Caroline was the engineering manager Dick's personal assistant, and I was a software development engineer. The majority of my immediate colleagues were men and we all got along well together.
I'd noticed that there appeared to be a select clique of male and female work colleagues who always sat together in the pub on Friday lunch times and, as far as I could tell, would often all go out together on Friday evenings.
Caroline would often be amongst this group, always sitting next to or close to Dick but I was never invited to join them. I'd also had my suspicions that she and Dick were having an affair. I guess I was jealous because Dick was tall dark and handsome, and I had secretly had a crush on him since my first day at the company. However, I knew I stood no chance compared to Caroline.
I'd asked Caroline a few times if she and Dick were having an affair, but she somehow always managed to avoid giving me a straight answer.
I also asked her about what her 'in crowd' did when they went out together on Friday nights but again, she brushed me off by saying they just visited a pub together.
My usual work attire consisted of combat trousers and a loose top but during a prolonged hot spell in the summer I arrived wearing a short denim skirt and a white vest top.
Being quite naïve it never occurred to me that this change of clothing would be noticed by anyone, especially Dick.
As I passed him in the corridor he turned, gazed at me, and said, "you look nice today, Dina."
I blushed deeply and muttered, "thank you."
Although I had no idea at the time this was the start of my transformation. Later that same day Dick rang me and said, "me and some of your colleagues are going out for a drink this evening, would you like to join us?"
"I'd love to," I said, unable to hide the excitement in my voice.
"Great. We will be going out straight from work. Caroline is going as well so you can follow her to the pub."
"OK, I'll see you there, and thanks for inviting me."
I saw Caroline not long after the phone call and she suggested that we both go in her car.
The rest of the day passed slowly but finally, at 6pm Caroline and I were making our way out to the company car park.
On our way to the pub I said, "will we be drinking in the pub all evening?"
Caroline sounded a little vague as she said, "no, we usually have a drink and then all go back to Dick's place and have fun."
"What kind of fun?"
"Wow, Dina, so many questions!"
"So come on, tell me, what kind of fun?"
We were just pulling into the pub car park when she said, "I think that tonight is porno movie night. Dick has a room with a large T.V. where we usually all gather to watch a porn movie together."
Although relatively naïve, I had seen a couple of short explicit movies but in the privacy of my bedroom.
As we were getting out of the car I said, "isn't that embarrassing, watching stuff like that amongst your work colleagues?"
Caroline just giggled and said, "stop asking so many questions. You've always wanted to be invited out with our little group so just try to relax and enjoy the evening.
I was not used to wearing short skirts and as I climbed out of the car one of my male colleagues glanced at the expanse of thigh I was inadvertently showing and exclaimed, "wow, nice legs Dina!"
I blushed but felt my self confidence rise a couple of notches.
Once in the pub Dick bought us all a drink. Everyone was laughing and chatting freely and soon felt like I belonged rather than being an outsider.
After we'd had a couple of drinks, Dick announced that we were all going back to his place.
It was only a short drive away and we were soon all gathering inside his house. The house was enormous and set in its own extensive grounds. I found out later that he had inherited it from a rich uncle.
Dick then called out, "the usual rooms are available but will those who want to watch some porn first please go to the T.V. room."
I turned to Caroline who was beside me saying, "what did he mean when he said, 'the usual rooms?'
She grabbed my hand, pulling me along as she said in a whisper, "some of the people pair off and go up to one of the many bedrooms. Now, let's go and watch a naughty movie and no more questions."
Caroline led me into a quite small room that was dominated by a large T.V. The room was already crowded and filled with the sounds of excited conversation as we jostled for a position at the back.
The last to enter was Dick. He came up and stood behind Caroline and me.
He was holding up a remote control as he shouted, "are we all ready to watch some porn?"
The room fell silent as the title 'Susan's First Casting' filled the screen.
The title faded to reveal a large desk with a leather couch six feet or so in front of it. The camera view was from behind a guy who was seated at the desk. Standing in front of the leather couch was a rather shy looking young woman. I was surprised by her appearance. I suppose I was expecting to see my mental caricature of a porn star; dyed blond hair, large, augmented breasts and too much makeup. Instead, I was rather taken back to see a young woman who looked a little like me. Not only did she look a little like me she was dressed similarly in a short skirt and a white lace camisole top. However, unlike me, she was not wearing a bra, made obvious by the fact that her small pert nipples were visible through the diaphanous fabric of her camisole top.
Caroline nudged me and said quietly with a suppressed giggle, "have you been moonlighting in the porn industry and decided not to wear a bra?"
I just grinned at her and laughed as the guy in the movie said to the young woman, "welcome to your first casting Susan. As I told you during our phone conversation, I am a freelance agent acting for a variety of movie producers. Today I will produce a short video of your audition to show prospective producers. If they like what they see, then I am confident you will soon be offered very well-paid rolls in some of their movies."
Susan nodded as she shuffled nervously from one foot to the other in front of the couch.
The guy then continued, "before we start, I want to be clear that you are auditioning for adult movies. Do you understand?"
"Yes," she said quietly.
"OK, good. Firstly, any prospective producer will want to see your body so I would like you to take off your top and show me your boobs."
I tried to imagine that I was Susan knowing that I would soon be showing my naked body to a man I had only just met. I could sense her reluctance as she fumbled with her top but then pulled it off to reveal her small pert breasts to the guy behind the desk.
I felt a sisterly empathy toward her as she covered her tiny breasts with her hands and said, "I think my boobs are too small, maybe I should just get dressed and leave."
The guy stood up, walked around the desk, and said, "move your hands away and let me be the judge."
With many of my colleagues now crowded into the room the crude banter of the guys faded into the distance as I found myself lost in my imagination.
Maybe it was the awkwardness of watching a porn movie with many of my male colleagues, imagining that I was Susan or perhaps both, but for whatever reason I felt highly aroused.
Susan lowered her hands. The guy then moved closer to her and placed his hand on one of her breasts. She instinctively recoiled but stopped herself as the guy said, "just relax Susan and remember why you are here."
She smiled a little nervously as he squeezed each breast in turn and then gave each nipple a playful pinch saying, "there is a strong market for slim young women with small boobs and I think that yours are perfect."
Susan started to look more relaxed and even smiled as he continued to grope her breasts before saying, "You're doing well Susan, now take off the rest of your clothes."
