This story contains themes of forced sexual activity. Pleased do not read if you are offended by or dislike such themes.
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'Oh Christ no. Please say it isn't true.'
'It is true. I tested three times. Same result every time.'
'Oh God. What are we going to do?'
'It's not the end of the world.'
'WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN? OF COURSE IT IS.'
'Don't shout at me and don't talk to me like that.'
'I'm sorry Lou. It's just, you know, we can't have his child.' Louise had just told Damon that she was pregnant. As Damon had not had sex with his wife for three months it was obviously not his. It was the big black man who had forced his way into their house six weeks ago and fucked Louise whilst Damon had to wait downstairs and listen to it all.
'I know it is not what we wanted but it is my child too.'
'Oh come on. He raped you. It's not the same. Or did you want it to happen? I heard you cumming over and over again. You must have enjoyed it.' Damon regretted that as soon as he said it. It was mean and nasty.
'Fuck off Damon. I had no choice and you know it.' Louise was pissed at Damon for saying it but she felt guilty that there was truth in it. Their relationship had deteriorated significantly over the last six weeks. Damon was constantly irritable; they argued a lot. It was getting them both down. Damon kept on pushing for them to move house; to get away from the gang who were terrorising them. Louise saw the sense in this but she did not want to leave her life, her friends and her job behind her. However, there was something else stopping her agreeing. That night six weeks ago was indeed terrifying, at least initially, but it was also the most intense sex of her life. She found herself wandering if and when it would happen again. It made her scared but she knew that she wanted it to happen again. This did cause significant feelings of guilt but it was also true that she could not have resisted the man who broke in. She had to fuck him or he would have fucked her and Damon up.
'Look. All I am saying is that we don't have to actually have the baby.'
'How can you say that?' She looked at Damon with disgust. 'You are even more pro-life than me. You don't believe in abortion in any circumstance. How can you suggest that I have one?'
'This is different.' Was all that he could mutter. He knew she was right. He was letting all of his deepest principles disappear. He was doing it because he did not want to face being reminded of his wife's rape every day as he looked at the baby.
'I know it is not what we planned but I am pregnant and I am keeping it. Okay?'
'Okay. But you don't have to keep it. You could, you know, get it adopted.'
'No Damon. I cannot have a baby in me for nine months and then just give it away as soon as I give birth. That is not me and you know it.'
'Oh God.' Damon slumped into the lounge chair and put his head in his hands. Could his life get any worse?
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Louise and Damon did not talk much over the next couple of weeks. Damon threw himself into his work and this suited Louise. He was really pissing her off. She knew he was badly affected by what had happened and the prospect of raising another man's baby but she was still pissed at him. She still resented his weakness.
She was, however, beginning to get worried about actually having the baby. How would they explain that their baby would obviously not be Damon's? It would be obvious that the father was a black man. They could not say it was the result of a rape because the gang would pay them a violent visit if they did. She also did not want to suggest that she had cheated on Damon and destroy her reputation. She did not know what they should do. Damon's persistent suggestions about moving house were now beginning to make sense.
She heard him come through the front door. 'Damon? I think we should talk.'
'Look Lou. I am tired. I don't want to argue.'
'Neither do I. Just come here.' He did as he was told. 'I have been thinking. You are right. We should move.'
'I have been saying that for ages for Christ's sake.' He was so grumpy these days.
'I know, I know. It is just, well, the baby.'
'Oh I see. You don't want people to talk.' He was being nasty. He said this with a taunting, almost mocking, tone.
'Oh don't be like that. I am sure you don't want everyone to see you raising a baby that is obviously not yours but will obviously be mine.' She rubbed her stomach just in case he did not understand what she was saying.
'Well you are not going to get any argument from me. I will make the arrangements. There are transfers on offer at work. I will find one that is as far as possible away from here so we can protect your reputation.' He was sneering.
'You are being such a twat these days.' Louise stormed off. Damon was annoyed with himself. He knew he was being a twat but he could not help himself. He did not know how to fix it.