"He keeps staring at you."
I glanced at Jenny, then looked up at the front of the class. Professor Harding looked down quickly, but he had been looking at me. Watching me.
He'd taken over for Professor Ruttledge the week before, a quiet, younger man compared to her old, loud, boisterous and activist self. I'd liked Professor Ruttledge a lot... the new guy I liked a bit less.
It wasn't just that he was quiet... he was also boring as pond water and his teaching style was bland. He read from the book in monotone and it seemed a lot like he was learning the material along with us as he read it.
Jenny had informed me before this class that she finally heard what had happened. Professor Ruttledge had been taken by ambulance to the hospital late at night and hadn't been released since. She was alive, but in ICU and no one knew what had happened, though some said stroke.
Professor Harding had applied for a position with the math department where he'd been a TA for 3 years, but got asked to step in to the open Lit position until they could find a replacement.
I glanced up again and he was watching me again, his head down like he was looking at a book, but his eyes on me across the room.
"What's his deal?" I asked grumpily.
"I mean... he's not unattractive?" Jenny offered. "And you're cute as hell. He just likes what he sees, is all."
"It's creepy... Do you think he might be the reason all the girls are going missing on campus?"
"Hah! Not a chance, he's too mousy. Would the 'looking' be creepy if it was Professor Carmichael?" she asked too sweetly.
I grinned, blushing. "Shut up... the dude is just... so hot. And when he gets all passionate about civil rights and everything..."
Jenny giggled, leaning in closer. "Right? Oh my god! Like dude, your fine black ass matters to me. You think he would cheat on his wife? For like, you know, a threesome or something?"
"Half the reason he's so hot is his convictions! He loves his wife and he's all about her and that's hot! I want a guy like that, like 'this is my lady is she's fucking perfect! Look at her world, this fine goddess is MINE!' You know? I would lose every ounce of respect AND my crush if I found out he cheated on her with coeds."
"I would not fucking care at all if I got to see his dick."
"We SEE his dick every week," I giggled.
"We see his dickprint. There's a difference! You think that's real, though? Simon told me he stuffs, but he can't make it look exactly the same every day in every pair of tight ass pants, right? Unless he has like, a dildo or somethin' he uses? Puts it in there, straps it on or somethin'? Shit... I don't even care if he straps on, I'd let him fuck me with both dicks."
"Jesus, Jenny!" I laughed, shaking my head.
"Ladies."
I jerked and flinched hard, ducking down and cringing as I turned to Professor Harding who was directly in front of me now.
"I didn't mean to startle you, Miss Brandtley? Are you alright?" he asked quickly, leaning over me.
"Fine!" I answered quickly, horrified.
"You're ok," Jenny told me quickly, taking my hand and stroking my arm. "You're good."
"I was just going to see if you needed help on your assignment? You didn't have your books open and..."
"How about you back off her?" Jenny demanded loudly. "Her books closed cause she read it already! This was the fourth time, too! She did the work, so how 'bout you take a step back! You already scared the shit outta her, you need to step off!"
"Jenny!" I cried softly, more horrified now. "I'm sorry!" I told him, unable to look at him as I stood up. "I did! I've read it... I'm sorry!" I cried in a whisper, trying not to look around at everyone staring at me. "I'm sorry!" I told him again, then stood, turned and fled.
"God damn creeper!" I heard Jenny yell, then she was catching up to me on the quad. "You ok? Let's sit down here, ok? You have your inhaler? Bella? Look at me, babe, ok? Ok, good, you're ok. Sit down here with me for a few. What the FUCK, man?" Jenny yelled the last angrily, facing the way we'd come.
"Is she alright?" Professor Harding asked, stopping a few feet away.
"No she's not ok! You need to leave her alone!"
"Jenny! Stop, please!" I begged her softly.
"Isabella?" he called to me, taking a single step closer. "Should I call a medic, or...?"
"No! I just needed some air, I'm fine."
"Ok... can I walk you back into class?"
"I'm not coming back to class today," I told him quickly, hugging myself as Jenny stroked my arm.
"Can you tell me what's wrong? If you..."
"She has anxiety," Jenny snapped. "That's all you really need to know."
"Ok. Ok, Isabella, if you need to take the day and..."
"You can call her Miss Brantley," Jenny interrupted him. "She don't go by her whole first name at all. Go on back to your class, I got her."
He sighed, looking stressed, but took a step back. "If you need anything, just let me know, ok?" he asked.
I said nothing, letting Jenny hug me to her chest.
As soon as he was gone, Jenny sat back up and held me at arms length. "You good, babe? Wanna go to that tea place you like so much?"
"Not today, I think I wanna just go home."
"Ok... but we're still goin' to that party tonight, right?" she asked in a warning tone.
I'd bailed the last three parties, I knew she'd get upset if I did it again. "I'll try," I promised her.
That was how I found myself at 8 PM, all dressed up in clothes she'd picked out for me, make-up, hair done up, everything and in her car on the way to a stupid frat party.
"Promise we can leave when I say?" I asked her for the tenth time.
She smirked. "Promise you'll have the keys to my car since you don't drink. You can come hide away in her any time you want!"
I sighed, hating that answer.
We had to park three blocks away from the frat house and walk there. I hugged myself, freezing and wishing I'd brought a coat. According to Jenny, you didn't wear coats to parties, there was no place to put them.
Ugh.
Inside was packed, there were people shoulder to shoulder and I immediately hated it as Jenny waded right in, pulling me with her. She headed right for the keg and got herself a drink before leading me to one of the side rooms and ensconcing me in the corner before joining one of her guy friends at the pool table.
The room was full of college frat boys playing pool and three of their girlfriends hanging on them. And me in the corner.
I watched them play, watched Jenny get tipsy, then drunk with the popular boys on campus. It was her thing. She refused to date them, but she flirted and kept them on strings. I watched her as the boys grinned and flirted and watched her.
Durante Abrams did not.
Durante was the popular guy that was popular by proximity, at least as far as I knew. He wasn't outgoing or athletic, he was always quiet, but always there with the others. Hands in his pockets, watching them and everyone around them as if he were always bored. He occupied the corner opposite me, watching his friends play pool.
Around midnight when I looked away from Jenny for a moment, I locked eyes with him.
He didn't move or look away, he stared across the room at me and stood motionless as we stared at each other.
I finally dropped my eyes and looked away, wondering why he was watching me that way. When I glanced up again, he was off the wall and speaking to one of the men, leaning in close to whisper.
I turned to Jenny and signaled to her, showing her the car keys. She grinned and nodded, giving me a thumbs up and I slipped out of the loud party and headed back to the car.
I would sleep until she decided she was ready to go.