Chapter 1
I can hear them coming. Even with the hood on, I am now so used to silence that their muffled footsteps coming down the stairs are amplified a hundred times in my ears. Incredible that still, after all these months, the thought of what lies ahead in the next few hours terrifies me. Already my breathing is speeding up and my muscles are tightening. You would have thought that there is only so much pain and misery one person can endure before he stops dreading it; but no -- I still dread it. If this session is the same as last time, it will be horrific. But if Sophie has devised some new torture, some new humiliation.... Oh god. I'm crying again, I realize, for the fourth or fifth time since I woke up this morning, although of course I have no idea whether it's morning or night, and haven't done since they first brought me here.
When I contemplate the living hell my life has become, I sob openly into the brutal ball-gag with which I am now so familiar. In a pathetic attempt at defiance, attempts which I still feel compelled to make when Sophie is here, I struggle against my restraints. But I can feel any real defiance draining away from me as the weeks pass. Of course it is useless, I know that. I want to scream but I don't, not this time. There'll be plenty of screaming later. The ingenuity of the restraints hits me yet again. It is almost impossible for me to move any part of my body, apart from my fingers, toes and eyes. But even worse than this physical prison that they have forced me into is the psychological prison I am trapped in. The knowledge that my own lust and stupidity lured me into this situation is the most humiliating, spirit-crushing thing of all. Sophie knows it too. When she smiles at me with that taunting, sly look of hers, I know that's what she's thinking. 'You did this to yourself,' she's thinking. 'You made it easy for us.'
When I think back to how innocently it all began, my mind recoils in horror. The flirtatious glance & giggle over her shoulder; the hand delicately trailing across my leg when she walked past; the way her lips parted slightly when I was telling her about my wedding plans; now that I know the extent of Sophie's insane cruelty and meticulous planning, these early details all fall horribly into place. She had the whole thing worked out from the start, and I never had a chance. How could such a girl construct a plan so devilishly evil? I don't think she ever intends to let me find out.
I hear the heavy lock turning in the door behind me. I try to summon up some mental strength but I'm sobbing again, wailing like a child before they've even pulled the hood off. Sophie stands in front of me, as pretty as a picture, a perfect coquette. She's smiling at me. She's holding something shiny. What is it? Oh god...
6 months earlier
I arrived in Paris looking forward to the biggest challenge of my career so far. My employer, a well-respected academic publisher, had assigned me to work with Christopher Crawford, the philosopher. We were going to publish a new volume of his collected letters and essays, and I was to help edit them. Because he refused to travel to London, I was sent to work with him in Paris. Crawford had lived in France for decades and his wife, Chloe, was French. I knew that they also had a daughter called Sophie.
The job was a huge responsibility and I was, frankly, extremely nervous when I rang the doorbell on that first morning. The maid answered and showed me in. The place was enormous: a multi-storied, lavishly furnished old townhouse that intimidated me from the start. The Crawfords were clearly rich and their house oozed an almost aristocratic classiness. I was shown into a drawing room -- all gold mirrors, expensive-looking antiques and plush, overstuffed armchairs -- and told to wait.
A few minutes later I heard rapidly approaching footsteps and a girl's voice, and then the doors flung open. I was sitting facing the door and I started to stand up, but the sight that greeted me caused me to stop awkwardly halfway up. I looked like an idiot. In front of me stood a young woman -- she was 21, I later found out, just 7 years younger than me -- in chocolate brown leather boots, black tights under a tiny, stylish miniskirt and a tight mustard-yellow cashmere sweater. She was tall and slim but the curves of her hips and breasts were pronounced. Her skin was flawless and lightly tanned, her eyes were big, soft and blue, and her long, perfectly straight hair was honey brown. She was -- I am sure -- the most beautiful girl I had ever seen.
I was half-standing, staring, in shock. She was talking on her mobile. When she saw me an amused, almost haughty expression played across her face. She said something quickly in French and snapped the phone shut. Then she stood, regarding me.
'You can stand up, you know' she smiled. Her smile was captivating. I straightened up and tried to laugh. 'I'm Sophie,' she continued. 'You must be my father's new servant.' Her English was impeccable but there was a trace of a French accent when she spoke -- I thought I might melt right there just listening to her gorgeous voice.
'That's right, I'm David' I replied, walking towards her and extending my hand, which she took and shook daintily. 'Nice to meet you -- is your father here?'
'He'll be down in a minute I expect' she replied. 'Did you travel to Paris alone?'
'Yes I did' I told her, unable to take my eyes off her but anxious not to appear a creep. I desperately tried to think of something to say to prolong the conversation, but without another word she twirled on her heel and marched out of the room.
'Nice to meet you David. I'm going shopping -- see you around!' she called back with a glance over her shoulder, catching me staring at her perfect behind. Then she closed the doors and was gone.
I breathed out. Why had no-one told me what a bombshell Crawford's daughter was? She was going to be a serious distraction. I thought of Emily, my fiancée back in London, and felt guilty. I must try and focus on the work, I told myself.
Crawford arrived a few minutes later. He was friendly enough but seemed lost in his thoughts, otherworldly -- a typical philosopher, I suppose. We chatted aimlessly and agreed on a few administrative matters. I was to come to the house four mornings a week and work there till the evening. If the work dragged on into the evening I was welcome to stay in one of the guest rooms. The maid would prepare food for me and I was welcome to join the family for dinner whenever I wished. I told him I'd already met Sophie.
'Ah yes' he smiled. 'The lady of the house -- that's what we call her. She may act like she runs the whole show but don't be fooled, she's just trying to impress you.' If that's true then she's a very good actress, I thought. We agreed that I would come back the next morning to start work. That night, after I phoned Emily from my hotel room, I lay in bed and masturbated, imagining Sophie sitting over me, smiling down haughtily as she fucked me.
The next few weeks went quickly. The work was difficult, at times boring, but we made good progress. Crawford seemed to like me well enough, even if he sometimes didn't seem entirely sure who I was. Chloe, his wife, was charming and very welcoming. She was stunning too, and quite a bit younger than Crawford -- lucky bastard, I thought when I watched him kissing her. My crush on Sophie, however, was becoming a real embarrassment. When she was in the room I was nervous and distracted. When she spoke to me I became tongue-tied and sometimes even started blushing. It was ridiculous. I prayed that her parents hadn't noticed; Sophie certainly had. My suspicions from that first encounter were soon confirmed. Sophie was a tease, and she loved watching the effect she had on me.
To begin with it was all innocent enough. When she passed me in the hall she would glance back over her shoulder and wink when she saw me looking at her. A few times she even trailed her manicured nails across my thigh as she passed. When Crawford was in the room, I caught her licking her lips at me, trying to fluster me in front of her father. It worked. I would make a stupid mistake or drop something, and she would sit in the corner, bare legs crossed, giggling. I knew that Sophie enjoyed all this teasing just for its own sake but, and this was one of the first nails in my coffin, I allowed myself to think that maybe, beneath the schoolgirl teasing, she was also genuinely attracted to me. I was not unattractive, and had been involved with some beautiful girls over the years, though none quite as self-assured (or as young!) as Sophie. My fantasies became dirtier, more graphic, more elaborate. I realized that I now always thought of Sophie instead of Emily when I masturbated.