The following story has themes of misogyny, non-consent sex, humiliation, abuse and other dark themes. If such content offends you, please do not read. This is an erotic FICTION story not meant as any sort of political or societal protest. This is purely for entertainment and never meant to happen in reality.
I look at my laptop's screen and shake my head that it's come to this. But I push play on the YouTube video anyway, desperate to have some relief. At this point I'll take anything I can get.
My name is Janey and I'm 30 years old...and it's been a while since I got a good night's sleep. At certain points in my life I just get bad insomnia. I've been like this for as long as I can remember, even when I was a kid. Nothing really to do but out last it. No reason why it hits, nor why it goes away.
I'm in the midst of another insomnia spell. It's been 3 days since I've had any amount of good sleep. Sure I get an hour or two at night, but that's barely anything.
The YouTube video I'm currently watching proclaims it will put you to sleep. That it uses special images and some magical tones that have unique waves and it'll tell your brain to go to sleep. That it can override any form of insomnia or stress.
Yes, it sounds stupid. But at this point, I'll accept anything stupid. If someone proved that running down the street naked with my tits bouncing would let me get to sleep, then they could film me doing it and put it as a Super Bowl commercial.
I lean back in my chair and rub my eyes. Instead of watching dumbass videos in hopes it'll put me to sleep, I should be out at a bar. I should be enjoying my Friday night, not being so tired that I can barely figure what 2 plus 2 means. I should be living my life. Enjoying friends. Celebrating my freedom. Singing as bad as I want to.
Instead I'm at home, alone. At the moment I'm wearing my pajamas in hopes that I'll fall asleep at some point. It's still sort of early as it's only 9 pm, but I don't care. All I care about is finding a way to get some sleep.
I am wearing new pajamas through. They are a pink top with spaghetti straps and a plaid set of pink pajama bottoms. Since I live alone and am not trying to impress anyone, I forgo the bra and panties after I took a shower. I've always hated wearing those to bed, even if I know I should. I have FF breasts which don't really like to be contained, but I know I have to wear one when I go out unless I want "the looks." Looks of disgust from other women and lewd looks from men. Then, maybe a couple of looks from my sisters that understand the freedom of not wearing a bra.
The video plays and I do make an effort to watch it for a few minutes, but nothing happens. It plays a lot of weird sounds like bad EDM set, not to mention it has trippy tie-dye like images that appear on screen. All it really does is make me wish I had some weed as that would surely put me to sleep. Then again, I haven't smoked in what, 10 years? Wouldn't even know where to look for some.
I know I could go and get some meds to make me fall asleep, but I don't want to. I hate meds like that. They can be so dangerous. There's nothing wrong with medications, don't get me wrong, it's just I don't want to put something in my body unless I absolutely have to. If I get sick or need a flu vaccine, you better believe I'll take it.
Watching the video does do one thing, which is make me realize how badly I want a snack, but know I shouldn't. I finally got my weight down to 115 pounds, and want to keep it there. To do that takes discipline, and not smacking. Sure, I went to the gym today, but that was more to try and tire myself out to the point I had to fall asleep.
I click a different video off to the side with a sigh. A new one starts playing, but the only difference is that in the title of this video it reads, "this really works!!!" which means it doesn't. If something has to tell you it works, it's a sure sign that it does not.
The video plays and I watch it for a bit, not feeling any different at all. Then I notice in my sleep-deprived mind that the description says it's for cats. Why in the hell would someone make a video that would put a cat to sleep? How fucking stupid.
Feeling that I'm so tired that my eyelids droop, I stand up out of the chair and look about for my cell. I find it on the couch, where I pick it up to check if I have any messages. I thought maybe I needed a change of location to help me sleep so I tried the couch earlier, but after 30 minutes of nothing, I gave up.
I see I don't have any messages, but do see my IG feed. Of course it's from everyone actually enjoying their Friday night. Friends that are in downtown, going to a new club. They invited me, but knew it would be too dangerous. To go out you have to have your wits about you. Otherwise you are easy picking for any weirdo to rape you.
Suddenly, I hear a loud clicking sound. Clicking isn't the right word, as it's more like tapping. Like something metal tapping on hollow wood. It's loud too. Really loud. Like makes me jump type loud.
"What the fuck is that noise?" I ask my empty house as if it'll respond. As I'm single and have no kids, the only sound that replies is silence.
Looking about, I find it's coming from my laptop. The video ended and now a new video is playing. The tapping sound is coming from it, but what's weird is that the video is just a black screen. I thought maybe there was an error or glitch or something, but I can see the progress bar moving at the bottom, meaning it really is just a black video.
A moment later I find that I'm wrong because the screen flashes a green flash that goes so fast I'm not sure I saw it. It was a weird color of green, almost neon. It was there so fast that I know it had to be on purpose.
"What the fuck is this?" I say out loud to the video. The tapping sound is now joined by what sounds like fingernails on a chalkboard. It makes me cringe badly, not to mention make goosebumps appear all over. My entire skin gets goosebumps, like the sound got under my skin so to speak.
I reach over to my laptop as I think it's best to stop this video. When I reach over to move the mouse, I look at the flashing screen. It flashes color after color now, but they go by so fast. It's like a dozen colors flash in less than a second. It's both beautiful and horrible to see. And they are all a weird shade of their color too, like they were glowing.
"Why in the hell would they make this?!" I say out loud as I look over the description, to see it's empty. There's nothing about the video at all except the title of "Entranced to Sleep." There are a few tags, but what makes me a bit uncomfortable is that the username is a throwaway. It literally says throwaway_videos03883, like they didn't really care about the account.
I move my finger on the touchpad to close the damn browser. I don't just want to stop the video, I want to end YouTube for the night. This video is just too weird and strange for me. I know it's probably just me needing sleep, but something isn't right about it.
Right before I'm about to click the big red X, I get a horrible shock. I'm not on YouTube. I'm on my email. My personal email.