SUBJECT: Daisy tries to find happiness using her newly awakened sexual awareness she experienced as the result of having sex with individual and multiple partners at the same time. The cold weather and snowfall always seemed to portend bad luck for her but she struggles on hoping for the change of seasons.
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I remember how it was snowing the day I was consigned to the orphanage. I had lived with a distant relative of my mother, whom I've never met. Unfortunately, due to her age and health she had no choice but to give me over to the state. Carrying my Christmas gift in hand I started the first of what were to be many winter days as the years slowly passed. It seems whenever bad things were headed my way there was snow in the air.
And so it was that I spent the formative years of my life in a state institution in Clifton, New Jersey. Clifton is a cold place in the winter. In the summer we boiled and fought mosquitoes but in the winter there was snow, plenty of it and the chill went right through to your bones. Sometimes the snow drifts were so high we were felt stranded. Of course we weren't going anywhere but we'd sit in the third story window and watch the cars slide into one another as if they were bumper cars in the amusement park.
State directives require that orphans are to be educated and trained to be able to earn a living upon release. Well, I guess I got the standard education, I was able to read and write and I had experienced stuff in the last days which were not what the state had in mind.
I stayed in the institution past the age of eighteen. I spent the next year and a half as a resident librarian. This experience was supposed to enable me to secure a job in public or private employment. Although I'd applied for various jobs I still had not secured an employment contract at the time I finished my residency.
I had a relatively painless life in the orphanage. Up to that time I had by the grace of God I been well treated. Of course like all young kids I'd attended various social gatherings. The boys mostly left me alone, probably because I always dressed plainly. Perhaps it was an error to pretty myself up in those last months of my residency, but I was almost nineteen and a half. I figured it was about time. Guys who never noticed me began to make passes at me. I took it all in as a compliment but I didn't realize where it was headed.
Mr. Harper was a handyman at the institution. He had always been nice and treated me well but now that I was dressing in a girly manner, he seemed to have an odd look on his face whenever I was near. He'd come into the library after shoveling snow on the walkway. That evening he was sweeping and mopping up just before closing time. As I watched the gentle snowflakes tumbling down I didn't notice that he'd put his mop handle through the door handles in such a way as to lock the doors shut so no one might enter from outside.
I had been busy cataloging new magazines and didn't realize what he was up to. Then all of a sudden I smelled the water bucket that he used to mop up, it was a pine scented odor mixed with the dirty water. The last thing I remember was him mumbling,
"Missy, I'm a gonna fuck you. You can make it easy or we can make it bad, your choice."
I don't know if he hit me or if I blacked out. But when I came to my clothes were all open and he was lying on top of me. My legs were filled with blood, virgin blood and I was too shocked to even speak. His large organ was deep inside me and I began to cry. Finally he pulled out and grabbed me by the throat.
"You tell anyone about this and I'll kill you."
He didn't have to repeat the threat. I didn't want to be beaten to a pulp so I gave it up and I saved myself. I just laid back and let it happen. He however, was far from finished. He played with my tits and sucked them. He spent a long time fingering me with his big calloused hands. It wasn't pleasurable at first but he seemed intent on getting some response from me. Finally I began to appreciate what he was doing to me and started to moan my approval.
He must have been recharged sexually during the waiting period and was again pressing hard with his cock now fully regrown. It pressed first on my thigh and then insinuating his monster into my vagina. I don't know where he got the energy from. I was exhausted. He finally finished and came a second time with almost as much sperm as the first. My dress and papers on my desk were covered with his secretions.
Of course I was afraid to report it. I felt sure that my late feelings of pleasure somehow precluded my claim of innocence. That's how naive I was. Somehow I never got pregnant. Maybe I can't. But I sure got to know what it felt like to be fucked by a big man with a big penis and in a way I was glad my virginity was no longer an obstacle for someone in the future to overcome.
I was to be released from the institute in less than a month so I figured best to play it cool. What I didn't expect was a recurrence. I should have known better. Once he'd gotten his way with me he returned the next week for another taste. Funny thing was I was actually hoping he'd return and looking forward to it.
Someone more knowledgeable than I might have predicted this, but there he was, locking the doors with his mop and headed towards me. His big cock this time was sticking out of his coveralls, a red flag as it were for what he had in store for me. It seemed monstrous.
He was surprised when I smiled and greeted him.
"Oh Mr. Harper, I've been hoping you'd come and fuck me again. "
I started unbuttoning my blouse.
"Do you like my breasts, they are good sized aren't they. Maybe you'd like to suck my nipples before you stick that big thing of yours inside me."
This time I intended to cooperate and let him do whatever he wanted. He started jerking his cock in his fat hands, pulling back the thick foreskin so the helmet was shining in the yellow overhead light. He waved his erect cock. God it was big.
"Come here Missy and play with my dick awhile."
I took the big guy in my two hands and squeezed it, moving the loose skin on the shaft. After a few minutes of massaging him he said,
"Oh yeah, dats good, now ah want that ya suck it a while before I fuck ya."
He insisted I had to suck his penis before he fucked me. I didn't really know what to do but being a librarian I had some book knowledge of felatio or what most men call cock sucking. I have to admit the feeling of that big hose of a member felt very good in my mouth. After sucking him for a while I could taste a release of cum, it wasn't unpleasant. I was expecting a sudden gush but he pushed my head away saying,
"You keep suck'in me like dat and I gonna cum before I get a chance ta fuck ya."
He lifted me up on my desk, his strength was incredible. He laid me semi nude and I spread my legs. He stood there for a moment leaning against the desk, watching me. Then suddenly he reached out and grabbed me, he pulled me by legs so I was and stuffed that giant thing of his inside me. This time there was no resistance, his cock sailed into my vagina like it was Montego Bay. I almost fainted from the sudden entry.
Not only was his cock deep inside me but he'd gotten his hand down between my legs and was rubbing and pinching my rosebud clitorous at the same time he was slowly fucking me. How someone of his background had learned so much more than I knew about sex was a mystery but I benefited from his sexual astuteness. Having that monster inside me drained me of any tension or nervousness. I lay back and enjoyed having that big worm burrowing inside me.
When he finished fucking me he mumbled,