There's one secret that is too dirty to share. The wrongness of it isn't something that I care to try to explain to anyone. So it's kept between us and every once in a while, we explore it again. Our adventures are scattered behind us like pages of a book that we can go back and relive from time to time. The adventures keep things exciting and new for both of us.
It all started with our games. Our relationship always has had an element of pushing limits; testing boundaries. How far can he push me outside my comfort zone? How far will I accept? It's the question that we have explored over and over again in various flavors.
I remember the first time I felt that uncertainty. That need to trust him but the fear of where he was taking me. We had only been dating a few weeks. The sex was amazing from the very beginning, but our politeness was beginning to make things routine. We had talked about our freak fantasies, but we both we too afraid of crossing some line with the other. He had a dominant way about him. It was part of the initial attraction. Our Yin and Yang complimented each other and drew us together the more time that we spent. I think that we both were getting restless with the rut that we had fallen into. Neither of us wanting to break what we had found, but wanting more.
He had taken to coming in before work in the mornings to surprise me. I had given him a key to my apartment. He would let himself in and slip into my bed, waking me with kisses and lovemaking. It was one of the sweetest and loving things that anyone had ever done for me, but even this sweetness was becoming expected and comfortable.
It was late one summer evening. I hadn't seen him that day. My Guy is a creature of the night, and tonight belonged to his buddies. I had an early morning to look forward to, so I was planning to go to bed early anyway. I took advantage of this time alone with a long hot bubble bath. The hot scented water and glass of wine mixed with the stillness of the house made me drowsy and my head swim. I leaned my head back against the tub and thought of how content I felt with my life. Lazily, my hands started to roam over my body. It was more of a comforting touch, but started to build intent as my thoughts turned to the passion that I had been sharing. My nipples hardened as I pinched and twisted them; my other hand sliding between my legs, gently teasing myself. I breathed in the heady scent of the water as I slid a finger into myself and began the study rhythm that would make me fall into orgasm. I heard myself moan a little as I felt my juices flow over my fingers in the hot water. Somehow my come felt hotter than the water that I had been soaking in. I stretched as I got out of the water and toweled myself off. I wasn't going for sexy, so I just slid on a t-shirt that he had left behind over my panties. I smiled at his scent that clung to it as I slid beneath the covers of my bed and closed my eyes. I think that was the moment that I knew that I was in love with him. In that moment that I fell asleep, smelling him and smiling at how happy he made me.